Heroin Social Chat v4

[jspun]

Once upon a time, what ine did on their own proprerty id the USA was their own bussinees. This was a makor reason why the uS went to war agiant George III and declared their independence from the Realm. The fact that George Washington, an earstwhile loyal British sublect not only did a 180 degree change when petitiond for grievances were going on headed so paryicipated by becoming the supreme commander of the Nascent United Colonies which became the uSA with the decleration of the decleration of independence (DOI). Aa staunch a torry he was, je could not overlook the tyranny and dismissal of requets of the colonials. Their is a message here and this is directed at PP and other who care, you start out of movement by demostrating peacefully. You utilize your power to vote and petition of the government. But the DOI enumerated vertain rights that were condidered laws of nature whose deprival is a natural act: "Foremost among those are life, liberty,a nd the persuit of happiness." Now we are the tyrant. Proetest are beginnig in US cities over state budget cuts and they are forecated to grow in momentum.

edit: skip to the last 2-3 paragraphs unless you feel like reading.

Our DOI states that it is not only allowable to start a revolution or violent uprising if after exhaustive attempts to change things, then not only does it exhort us to revolt and depose the tyrants but it states that it is a civic duty.
Hopeflly it want come to rgis and thabk God for the internet and the free flow of informaion it faclitates, because our press sucks- listen to my link. Thabk God for the Bill of Rights, the first 10 ammendments to the constitution. As many have said, the 2nd ammendment (the right to bear arms shall not be infringed," as is often said (that is the Ammendment that allows allthe other ones to exist. Our last bulwark against tyranny,

This vountry has its good points, does good in the world, but has done some bad things that may lead to what one author termed (and named his book "Bloeback." How did you brits get conned in jooining the "coalition of the willing" in Iraq. Are people returning from that war and afdanistan all fuvted up mentally. these wars have left deep scars I understand our "special relationshionship- but I remember Blair saying he recuiewed the document proving WMD, The world is better off without Sadam in some ways, but the bloodshed and violence one can argue has caused motr suffering-atleast he kept all the loney factions together.

So my point is I like PP, runctions, and thers spirit but it has to sustained and organized.

In the UK you have the queenpoll who likes the monarchy?

I nknow the property. Please explay are overpaid but have real income and property.

Plus my 3 year old daghter loves fairy takes. Too bad this one has ab ubhaooy ending,

 

[jspun]

@maggiemay: welcome to bluelight

@KKat: I always thought Cabaga was the only place to ban you gor criiminal records in north America. Howu doin Kat- Always enjoy your posts; research

AS for channge in Parliament, grasseoots movements take off. I have a question, why does everybody attack the royals when their pissed-atleast why did the dtudenys. It always seems like people should storm downing dtreet (isn;t there just like a Bobby outside (probably SAS inside). But attacking toyals to inact politidal change seems pointless accept there is a weading planned when the country is in dire financoa; straihjts-and tourisms down. Prince of Wales I think has Welsh Guards regiment protecting him.

My point is their role is largely cermonial. But if one of the young princess can be convinved that pot, MDMA, and heroin qre less harmful than prohibition, prime ministers I beloeve consult them-the queen is a repository of poliyical wosdom and experience, or so is the party line. Do the majority of UK nationals support them. Are their approval ratting greater thab 50%. Can yhe house of lords make a difference *the archbishop or a bishop of the anglican church mau be peruaded to raise money for harm reduction.

Lastly, the queen has real powers she rarely exercizes but did I think in 2007, on Turks and Caicos through her majesty's lt gov she fitrf thr primr minister- my impression is that she did it based on her asvisors, not the parliament of the Island Nation (or vrwn colomy?). If parliament becomes to fasist, maybe the majority cabn convince her ti dissolve parliameny-excuse my igorance of UK politics but isn't she in public, mom-partisan but tends to lean lanour and works is (portrayed) as siding with the working and middle class. Oaeliament would be the best plce to hold rallies. Also small ralies n tiwns is a way to gather support.

Do you have a British version of the Libertarian Party.
/ Kinda cionervative fiscally (low taves,, ect...without the authoritarian bent- so into legalizing drugs, gambling, prostitutip on principle. "Hr who governs leasr giverns best, government should protect us frompeople trying to harm, cheat, or coerce us, not from ourselves. Not anarcht, But hovernmeny has a diminished role. Bot so far as being abrchits.

@ alpha: I type slow my man. Carefuk with the booze- I jusy gad a 55 year ikd wjose liver is shot. He fas asites: His belly is so full of liquid ge looks 8 boths o=prefnd

I'm going to try to be good but scered- still noding off at kryborf- cant sleep- I have that 1st opiated hugh fri=om mt RX suboxi=one- hope ohysical wuothdrawl mild, just dnrung 5 kryo=just wokr up smoring

 

[kkattastic]

my heads been hurting all day, i feel rattlyall day, i ve had 50ml of green and still feel rattly, whats going on?

it's true that when you are on the gear you don't feel colds
some say you don't get them;you do-you just don't feel it
i'm guessing it's a cold that you can now feel-nasty,innit?

 

[WarmRushes]

^ I have to agree with that. Since I've been clean on just on my script I've had a cold more or less half the time and fuck me can I feel it. My chest has been so sore (a by product of smoking perhaps?) but it's still hard for me to cough anything up due to the anti congestion effects of opiates. I keep coming down with temperatures and other flu-like symptoms but mainly its my chest hurting like fuck.

 

[pinkpapaver]

just head fuckery im afraid to say, thats what it is, well jspun i feel the same about the headucation system. everythings out for targets and profits, and i m not the kind of person that can do things i dont believe are right, like making kids copy my words, and then handing coursework in as there own just so the people at the top can say look how good our results re, coz when the kids take these shit qualifications into the big bad world, they get old thats a worhless piece of shit qualification you got there kidder!!! the pressure, and no fucking gear

 

[xmitch00ukx]

^ I have to agree with that. Since I've been clean on just on my script I've had a cold more or less half the time and fuck me can I feel it. My chest has been so sore (a by product of smoking perhaps?) but it's still hard for me to cough anything up due to the anti congestion effects of opiates. I keep coming down with temperatures and other flu-like symptoms but mainly its my chest hurting like fuck.

in my 15yrs of heroin addiction i never suffered from colds, or least felt effected by them, till last july, my kid joined play school and picked up around 6 colds in 5 months( which i got 4 lung infections from(and 1 cold i didnt)-and oi live in clean house and etc), and i got every one of them, which turned into bactria infection in my left lung. which cleared up pretty quick via anti-bio's however i was throwing up pure thick light green flem by the bucket ful, had no energy, and getting up left me breathless, and had a horrid taste thioughout my body, even when asleep i felt like clucking, and i had plenty of gear and that didnt really help with symtoms. doctor told me it was down to smoking heroin, as heroin slows ur immune system down etc, its easy to pick up futher infections while body already fighting summit like a cold, i had flu jab this year as doctor warned me if i got that i cud get pneumonia from it, and i know of 2 peeps who have been in hostipal with it both had colds and smoke heroin, i first got mine before gear went shite so cant blame the bash. anyway doctor told me its a real threat to addicts when they get colds thAT FUTHER INFECTIONS are easy to catch, so beaware, and id advise flu jab.


anyway quick update the gear here is shit, cooks up to dark, prices are sort of normal for town life

there is other gear coming down from london but its .2 for £20 and its not great but better then other, still not worth ur money though. but there is alot of it around, just not quality.

march start of harvesting in some parts of afghan depends what area. march to july. so cud be still months to wait till its back to normal, will be nearly 1 yr by then. my god


hi by the way to the peeps i know, havent been on much as havent the need, as knowing there is gear there or here dosent heklp here. and pretty much getting on with meth now. hope things are better for peeps see ya

 

[kkattastic]

i had pleurisy last year
the doctor told e it had nothing at all to do with smoking-fags or gear
i suspect otherwise

 

[endlessnameless]

FUCK man do I feel good.

I wont go too overboard as I think the bulk of what I want to spout can be carried out in the *I'm Fucked* thread, but man...wow.

40mgs Diazepam + hash (half joint, though generously impregnated) for breakfast, trip to town to shift 20 @20E, bussed it back to D7 to pick up a bag @40 and now - in my personally little drug palace/squat/boxroom - after 4 lines I am...well I'm a happy camper

How are you today my friends? Are you all well? Yes/no/maybe so?

Whey-fuckin-hey!!!
:D:D:D:D:D:D

 

[basketcase]

Hi Basket!!!! I know how you feel!!! I'm having a bit of a melt down too this weekend!!!! I'm missing the gear SOoooooooo.......... MUCH!!!!!! The weekend just doesn't seem like the weekend anymore. I work all week & the come the weekend there is nothing...........

I'm so bloody bored!!!! I'm wondering what did i used to do in life before H?! My mind is racing all weekend, trying to think of a way to score, but its all low grade crap in Dublin this week!!!!! A~AHhhhhhh..............

So So SO Bored!!!!!!!!!

shit innit? bloody cravings, i think we'll always have the cravings even if we come off the gear and it's still a few years down the line. somedays we won't notice them at all & they won't bother us, other days they'll be such bad shit. the only way is to learn how to deal with them, we'll all have our own ways, the usual find something else to occupy your mind, go out for a walk (which is pretty difficult atm, as the weather has gone tits up again, round here it has anyway, it was snowing this morning, not heavy enough to settle, but enough to make you want to just stay in where it's nice n' warm!), or even come on here & have a vent etc, whatever it takes.

anyway, i think i'm feeling a bit better todayn (craving wise), i haven't been a happy bunny as of late, but there you go, that's this roller coaster ride were on atm. maybe we are that used to having a treat at the weekends, it's ingrained into us right fro kids being at school all week and you get that friday feeling where you cn go out & play and let off some steam. then you grow up & get a job (if your're lucky that is lol) and the same friday feeling again, . that's my theory anyway

anyway, what i've done is upped my meth a bit, as i think maybe i was just on too low a dose @ 25ml & struggling too much in my head. i really don't like upping the meth at all but if that's what it takes to keep the cravings under control, then so be it. i can at least try it as i have a little stock buolt up in my kitchen cupboard. every time i open the cupboard i like to see that i've got a little stash of juice & vallies, just makes me feel better. i'm like a squirrel

i hope your feeling better today ructs love

 

[basketcase]

^ about colds/flu, it's true that i haven't had a cold or the flu (or never noticed it more like) for years, in fact can't remember last time i had a cold. last time i had flu was about 8 or more years ago. anyway, after the drought & just surviving on the juice, i got an shitty cold a few weeks ago, just got over it around 2 weeks ago. maybe you do get them when on the gear, but just don't notice them sometimes. i think it might also have something to do with your system has been so used to gear every day, it it all fuked & messed up & trying to adjust to being normal again? so reacts by being more susceptible to viruses?

 

[basketcase]

@runctions, PP, Basketcase.

I over used sun and caught a nod- tried to erase this post bit it wouldn't let me- so maybe it will have been replaved ( hliych in susyem);

@runctions- hiy a meeting, will help with the racing minf syndrome.

@ basketcase: I;m conscerned that you will score a bag, iy will be fire or the drought will have ended, and you will OG. My friend mattias ODed because he fixed and didn'y have much of a habit. zThe fekk out before pulling the rig out od his arm

@ PP

sounds like a sinus infrction/coldm but I aint no br. Have you gotten your inflenza vac although symtoms only soung influenza like. ahow you feeling today? Do you have temp?- best wat to make differential diagnosis. Maybe stress induced decreased efficacy, try tagument or gratefruit juice or both- also consider ibreasing your dose to 80 and slow tapper (2 week until 60 then 1 a month if t all.)

ah good old uncle spun

how are ye mate?

i managed to stave off from scoring last night, i been having a few weak head days the last week or so been like a battle going on in my head the gear i got last weekend was quite nice, numbed my wired head, gouched out most the day & nice peaceful sleep. but i'm fkd if i'm gonna go back to using everyday and giving them arsewipe dealers my cash. haven't had anyting since then, so can do a clean sample on wednesday when i go to clinic

i've upped me juice a bit from 25 to 30, if i'm having a really bad cravings day, i might up it a bit more just to try & stave them off, as i've a stash of meth built up, so can use some of that if i need the extra few mils. i really hate doing this as i've managed pretty well on 25ml, so it feels like i'm going backwards. but cos the gear is getting a bit better now, it's harder to stay away ( I knew it would) so if it means upping the juice a bit to stay off from it, then fair enough, wotever it takes, bring it on
i'm not gonna find any answrs at the bottom of a vodka bottle either, bloody mad head tackle is that stuff think that's why i was feeling so low

& dion't worry i won't be ODing, try my bloody best not to anyway. the bits i've had, smoke b4. i also had a good mate die in front of me few years back, he was doing right well on the meth as well, only on a low dose. a mixture of low tolerance, beer and benzos and he was gone (RIP Rick)

anyway, wish you all the luck with yer sub reduce, you seem a really sound bloke to me, even tho your posts are a little long winded and sometimes difficult to understand (especially when you're on the nod) lol only joking!

btw, major respect to ya, the job you do sounds like a total stress, seriously tho, big massive respect, sounds you do an amazing job, even tho it might seem shit at the time i bet you make a difference to peoples lives and that's what places like hospitals need, they need more ppl like you that work hard & really care. it's just like every establishment no matter where you are, whether it's factories, offices, schoosl or hospitals, it's always the ppl at the lower paid jobs that run around & do all the work & get shit on, making the wankers at the top richer & rich fat cat tosser bosses pay themsleves big bonuses & pay rises. it does make you sick. hopefully karma will get them one day.....

catch ya later spun - basket

 

[kkattastic]

i just got in from the dental hospital
the gear has really fucked my teeth up
i already had all my back teeth removed and now the front ones are going too
so i am set to have dentures
whoopee!
thinking of 'work',that's gonna be a real attractive asset
but at least i get IV sedation for the procedure which makes it all worth while
i get to sleep all day and forget everything
IV midazolam-hits the spot

 

[basketcase]

FUCK man do I feel good.

I wont go too overboard as I think the bulk of what I want to spout can be carried out in the *I'm Fucked* thread, but man...wow.

40mgs Diazepam + hash (half joint, though generously impregnated) for breakfast, trip to town to shift 20 @20E, bussed it back to D7 to pick up a bag @40 and now - in my personally little drug palace/squat/boxroom - after 4 lines I am...well I'm a happy camper

How are you today my friends? Are you all well? Yes/no/maybe so?

Whey-fuckin-hey!!!
:D:D:D:D:D:D

nice one endless, happy for ye mate :D

 

[basketcase]

i just got in from the dental hospital
the gear has really fucked my teeth up
i already had all my back teeth removed and now the front ones are going too
so i am set to have dentures
whoopee!
thinking of 'work',that's gonna be a real attractive asset
but at least i get IV sedation for the procedure which makes it all worth while
i get to sleep all day and forget everything
IV midazolam-hits the spot

dentures aren't as bad as what some ppl think, especially if you can get them nicely fitted & not too loose etc & i think they're more updated now than from a few yrs ago. my mate has a partial plate for her top front teeth, says they felt really weird at 1st like she had a big mouthful of plastic but got used to them after a few weeks. she prefers it now cos she's got nice even white teeth again (well not pure bright white like some celebs teeth, but they're not normal lol) like she had when she was younger, plus she doesn't get as much pain/toothache

honestly if she hadn't told me, i wouldn't have noticed as they look just like real teeth

also not much pain & hassle with taking the front ones out, not as much as the back ones anyway, as the front ones don't have as deeper roots as the back molars, so are easier to take out

plus you'll get all the meds you mentioned, which is a bonus :D

EDIT:
btw, my dentist says i'll prolly need dentures, more a partial one as a few of my bottom teeth are quite loose. some top ones are getting that way as well. i think a lot has to do with smoking, fags as well as gear, as it's all poison, & the nicotine/gear erodes your gums, making your teeth loose & fall out. more teeth are lost by gum disease (poisons receding gums) than tooth decay, as i brush & floss my teeth everyday and everynight, but i smoke. so it's not a lack of dental care, it's just more gums receding cos of poisons like nicotine & gear

 

[kkattastic]

dentures aren't as bad as what some ppl think, especially if you can get them nicely fitted & not too loose etc & i think they're more updated now than from a few yrs ago. my mate has a partial plate for her top front teeth, says they felt really weird at 1st like she had a big mouthful of plastic but got used to them after a few weeks. she prefers it now cos she's got nice even white teeth again (well not pure bright white like some celebs teeth, but they're not normal lol) like she had when she was younger, plus she doesn't get as much pain/toothache

honestly if she hadn't told me, i wouldn't have noticed as they look just like real teeth

also not much pain & hassle with taking the front ones out, not as much as the back ones anyway, as the front ones don't have as deeper roots as the back molars, so are easier to take out

plus you'll get all the meds you mentioned, which is a bonus :D

EDIT:
btw, my dentist says i'll prolly need dentures, more a partial one as a few of my bottom teeth are quite loose. some top ones are getting that way as well. i think a lot has to do with smoking, fags as well as gear, as it's all poison, & the nicotine/gear erodes your gums, making your teeth loose & fall out. more teeth are lost by gum disease (poisons receding gums) than tooth decay, as i brush & floss my teeth everyday and everynight, but i smoke. so it's not a lack of dental care, it's just more gums receding cos of poisons like nicotine & gear

i brush and floss all the time
but the dentist says that even tho my teeth have rotted from the obvious abuse,having gum disease all my life has left my bone depleted so not much to hold the teeth in anyway
it's just kinda a milestone and a reminder of how much i have abused my teeth which were so strong when i was young that i had to have all my baby teeth extracted cos they wouldn't fall out

thinking i might ask my keyworker about getting meth tabs instead of syrup

 

[ructions]

i had pleurisy last year
the doctor told e it had nothing at all to do with smoking-fags or gear
i suspect otherwise

Oh No, the dreaded pleurisy!!!! I have had it twice, its so painful!!! The first time i got pleurisy i didn't know what was wrong with me!!! It came on so quickly!!! I woke up one morning with such a sharp pain in my chest, i could hardly move or even breath!!! I thought that i was having a heart attack or something!!! It was nasty!!! That was years ago before i ever used gear.

I also had pneumonia when i was much younger, i was sick for months, i lost so much weight that i was like a little stick, i missed months of school. The pneumonia left a weakness in my chest, when you look at an x~ray of my chest it has loads of black spots on it, that weakness is why i have always suffered from bad chest infections & pleurisy (Ouch!!!!)

But yeah in the last 8 years that i have been using gear i haven't had a bad cold or anything. Although I only ever smoke gear, so before the drought my lungs were in a bad bad way, they sounded like bagpipes!! I could hardly make it up the stairs without stopping half way to catch my breath, you would think that at 38 i would still be able to manage the stairs!!! 8(

If anyone is feeling really ill with a cold or what ever now it would probably be because their endorphins are not working properly, & now coz of the drought there is no gear to deaden the pain, everyone is probably feeling very raw at the moment!! I wonder how long it takes before our endorphins start working again? It probably depends on our age & how long we used H for. & i wonder if our endorphins go back working as well as they did before the gear?

 

[jspun]

Hope I don't have set myself back- had almost tappered off, sorry for the rant and thanks for the understanding basketcase, PP, and everyone else. You know, I feel like I don't make a bit of interest the way the system is set up. It was nice to hear from PP, we work in jobs were the wankers on top stifle us and don't less us do good. We have different jobs by similar frustrations and I think I can relate at that level,

I litterally slept like all day- gonna hopefuly sleep through the night. Problem with sub is it has a delayed repose when you feel sick- hopeful this one type slip won't be a setback.

Basketcase- felt good after settling down and letting my large sub dose kickin in but kepy nodding midpost and my posting was jibesrish, funny to read today.

KKat- dentures are not always totally noticeable but anyway, I got my wisdom teeth taken out in 2000, I think or 99' and they gave me versed (midazolam) nitrous, ktamine, and demerol. I didn't feel the other stuff but I remember feeling nervous and the IV versed completely turned off the anxiety switch. Then they gave my N2O and I lost conciousness. Would have liked to experience other drugs. Also, in the USA, the pils work better than juice.

 

[pinkpapaver]

heeeellllllllppppppp no ones on, apart from someone saying "well ive been told it does the job, no its not the 100% bash i was selling last week, its ok" or a big walk to someone who has decent gear hel p help help

 

[blondin]

......why walk take the bus

 

[endlessnameless]

Was having a fantastic, depression free day yesterday...right up until my ex (who I still love in many way to be honest) contacted me on facebook to tell me how she's fallen in love with a coke-dealer who's been in jail for dealing coke and several counts of GBH, is 10 years her senior and wants to fucking marry her. She's 19 for fuck sake - I was teaching her about the world - hes 29 almost 30. UGH. She originally told me this on VALENTINES DAY when I had a gift ordered for her as we had been getting on great for about a month...

I'm not depressed, but folks I'm heartbroken. Fucking heartbroken. So fuck it, I'm calling my dealer and trying to get a bag on lay until Friday - I'll throw him a few valium. I dont want to, but I fucking need to numb this crap out of my system until I give her a call and fucking tell her how I still feel about her because its killing me man. I promised myself I wouldnt get into this state over a girl again but this isnt just a fucking random girl.

Anyway, he agreed to give me one but he hasnt reloaded yet so I have to wait another 45mins. I havent a bean to my name but on Thursday I can get 25 and Friday I can get 15. I'm not going back into scoring and sitting in my fucking room all day mulling over my broken heart though - next week I'm off to the psychiatrists and then when I'm stabalised on an antianxiety med I'm starting acting school, getting a good job, a nice fucking convertible (and travelling the world eventually). Everyone's leaving Ireland apparently, theres fuck all over here in terms of job prospects. Listening to live-line here on RTE 1 and people are crying their eyes out over businesses going under and family members as young as 16-18 leaving the country and not coming back. Fuck it all man.

What the fuck is she playing at...coke dealer...she cried when I said I used to have to smoke gear because I was depressed. Aw man...women...why do you do this to me.