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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

I constantly feel like an idiot. And it’s not just a feeling—my brain literally doesn't grasp anything. How did you bastards pull this off? A five-year-old kid is smarter than me.
 
recovery100£ said:
Day 66 today off the injections and don’t feel any different, these are literal poisons your body is constantly trying to reject because it wants homeostasis, the producer and creator of these injection knew exactly what they were doing and knew they would disable humans which shows just how malicious people actually can be, the good news is that the body ultimately WANTS homeostasis by any means necessary so it might take longer for others but if it makes you feel any better your body is constantly striving to go back to normal guys.
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That’s what the licterature and biology said, yes, but it’s not happening in 2 years in my case, we know that some severe injury cannot be healed by the body, and i cannot immagine nothing more serious than a chemical brain injury.. It’s almost the loss of a limb, or a loss of the ability to move a limb..
 
fuqrisperdal said:
I constantly feel like an idiot. And it’s not just a feeling—my brain literally doesn't grasp anything. How did you bastards pull this off? A five-year-old kid is smarter than me.
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It’s not a matter of being smart but being able to fully access our cognition and awareness, these poison put us into a severe and extreme fog where we can’t access our normal cognition and awareness, it’s a chemical neurological injury. We are still smart, but our cognition and awareness is nerfed a lot due to the severe fog..
 
fuqrisperdal said:
We only get one life. Just one. Only once. And look at what we’ve turned into. I want to cease to exist; I can’t bear this pain anymore.
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I probably won’t make it to the New Year. I have no emotional strength left to deal with what those doctors did to me. I don’t have the energy for everyday things or for going to work. On top of that, today I was betrayed by someone I got close to this summer. I kept telling myself not to get attached, but I failed. I’ve regretted existing so many times. On some days that feeling gets much stronger and I just want everything to stop.
Sorry for dumping this. Sometimes it feels like only people on this forum truly understand. I believe most of us will recover eventually, but I doubt it for myself. I’ve been thinking about Bojana a lot lately…
 
InnerReturn said:
I probably won’t make it to the New Year. I have no emotional strength left to deal with what those doctors did to me. I don’t have the energy for everyday things or for going to work. On top of that, today I was betrayed by someone I got close to this summer. I kept telling myself not to get attached, but I failed. I’ve regretted existing so many times. On some days that feeling gets much stronger and I just want everything to stop.
Sorry for dumping this. Sometimes it feels like only people on this forum truly understand. I believe most of us will recover eventually, but I doubt it for myself. I’ve been thinking about Bojana a lot lately…
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The fact that they blamed “us” for preventing her to taking more injections and because of us she took his life just shocked me..

How they can deny the fact and the evidence of the poison injection took his life? How dare they to blame “us” or who were here at her time?

Really ignorant and uneducated family she had, i’am sorry for her, but this is the same envoirment most of us are; family who blindly trust the psychiatric system blaming the suffering person for the agony he got by being injected and brain injury.

She endured around 14 months if i’am right, her loss shocked me too.. When someone take his life it’s because hope is gone and the agony went beyond any sustenible level, and not being supported and belived by your family play a very big role on that matter.

If I think I survived 2 years with a narcisistic, abusive, violent and jelaous family make me feel like i’am built different, most people won’t survive all that..
 
RisperdalConsta50mg2 said:
The fact that they blamed “us” for preventing her to taking more injections and because of us she took his life just shocked me..

How they can deny the fact and the evidence of the poison injection took his life? How dare they to blame “us” or who were here at her time?

Really ignorant and uneducated family she had, i’am sorry for her, but this is the same envoirment most of us are; family who blindly trust the psychiatric system blaming the suffering person for the agony he got by being injected and brain injury.

She endured around 14 months if i’am right, her loss shocked me too.. When someone take his life it’s because hope is gone and the agony went beyond any sustenible level, and not being supported and belived by your family play a very big role on that matter.

If I think I survived 2 years with a narcisistic, abusive, violent and jelaous family make me feel like i’am built different, most people won’t survive all that..
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I agree that being surrounded by people who don't believe you or understand what you're going through can make an already unbearable situation even worse. When someone is suffering so severely, they need to feel heard and supported rather than blamed.
And honestly, what you said about surviving an abusive family really struck me too. Sometimes surviving certain environments does change you in ways you don't fully realize until much later. I think there are people who endure things that would completely break others, and yet they still somehow keep going.
My adoptive family was also quite authoritarian and demanding, although sometimes that alternated with complete indifference. I think that probably played a role in why I eventually turned to psychiatrists for help. At the time, I was struggling with symptoms that I now recognize as consistent with complex PTSD and borderline personality disorder. I wanted to understand what was happening to me and finally make sense of everything, but instead I feel like the doctors ended up destroying my life.
Sometimes it feels to me that psychiatrists are simply incapable of empathy and of truly understanding what a suffering person is experiencing. And then the family just steps aside and watches from a distance. At least my adoptive mother didn't intervene or try to understand what was actually happening to me
 
One thing about invega which is part of why it is so genuinely soul crushing is that there is no solution. When someone’s about to commit suicide they say there’s always a solution or that it’s a permanent solution for a temporary problem but with antipsychotics you genuinely don’t have any way to ever feel better again and the problem actually is permanent. “There’s always a solution “ like if I talk to someone my brain damage will go away
 
invegaispain said:
One thing about invega which is part of why it is so genuinely soul crushing is that there is no solution. When someone’s about to commit suicide they say there’s always a solution or that it’s a permanent solution for a temporary problem but with antipsychotics you genuinely don’t have any way to ever feel better again and the problem actually is permanent. “There’s always a solution “ like if I talk to someone my brain damage will go away
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I managed to feel better you can to
 
Have you guys looked into bromantane? Seems really good for boosting motivation and dopamine synthesis. It might also suppress prolactin levels. Recommended to take it with L-Tyrosine and Triacetyluridine (TAU) + a few other supplements (2nd link).
(But don't take them together with St. John's Wort)




I ordered some and will be ordering N-Acetyl Semax nasal spray soon. Figured I might as well try some stuff instead of sitting around waiting to get better.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg2 said:
The fact that they blamed “us” for preventing her to taking more injections and because of us she took his life just shocked me..

How they can deny the fact and the evidence of the poison injection took his life? How dare they to blame “us” or who were here at her time?

Really ignorant and uneducated family she had, i’am sorry for her, but this is the same envoirment most of us are; family who blindly trust the psychiatric system blaming the suffering person for the agony he got by being injected and brain injury.

She endured around 14 months if i’am right, her loss shocked me too.. When someone take his life it’s because hope is gone and the agony went beyond any sustenible level, and not being supported and belived by your family play a very big role on that matter.

If I think I survived 2 years with a narcisistic, abusive, violent and jelaous family make me feel like i’am built different, most people won’t survive all that..
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yeah i was also surprised, i think deep down they know the truth, that the doctors killed her, but i think to not break there viewpoint, that the world is unjustified, and if you got into a bad place in life rather then helping you doctors might poisoned you, so they choose to believe the lie this fourm is the problem, but i think deep down they know the truth.
 
Yeah ı keep complaining.I have two brothers ı cant suicide.I am just passing through the time.Bravo to me,perfect entry to other half of my life at the age of 25,wtf are you doing ın the most disgusting dangerous place which is psych ward.
 
fuqrisperdal said:
Yeah ı keep complaining.I have two brothers ı cant suicide.I am just passing through the time.Bravo to me,perfect entry to other half of my life at the age of 25,wtf are you doing ın the most disgusting dangerous place which is psych ward.
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The fact that is concerning in my case is that i was voluntary admitted under my own request because i asked help for panic attack..

Once healed from panic attack they deny my request to leave the ward and forced keept me against my will for another 3 weeks.

They let me leve only when i agreed to take an injection, then the nightmare began, almost 26 months later i’am still trapped into this never ending nightmare..
 
RisperdalConsta50mg2 said:
The fact that is concerning in my case is that i was voluntary admitted under my own request because i asked help for panic attack..

Once healed from panic attack they deny my request to leave the ward and forced keept me against my will for another 3 weeks.

They let me leve only when i agreed to take an injection, then the nightmare began, almost 26 months later i’am still trapped into this never ending nightmare..
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Your situation is insane. It drives you out of your mind. It makes you want to tear your hair out. You fucking assholes, I’m telling you I’m better—just let me go.
 
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