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KriptonitXxx
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Ancient Divine Humanity, in what happened, to the "decay" and "deadly" (precious) mentally ill, independent owners, mistresses, and residents... The state of mind progressing in the body, intervening with curiosity, visitation fee, ledger page by page, etc. etc...
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Dearest Invega Sufferers & Warriors alike, I was grievously ill for over 18 months, suicidal nearly the entire time, almost killing myself, even having bought a tank of BVV 99.5% pure & pressurized helium, Multipurpose Oven Bags, Gorilla duct tape & a 12-foot plastic tube. I put the bags, eventually doubled up, over my head several times, not only to see how it felt, but also to see if I had the courage to do the dirty deed. I also accumulated about 100mgs of Clonazepam so I would be able to pass out with the bag around my head & not experience any discomfort during the asphyxiation process...
What an absolute HORROR!!! Yes, an unimaginable nightmare that tormented me every second of every day while I suffered with such severe sickness, I was in abject misery the majority my life & mainly in complete silence, my family & friends & others left incredulous, not knowing what to say or do anymore, just entirely exhausted of me & my wretched condition, not really wanting to hear anything about it anymore, not wanting to see or hear me, my moans & groans, even my desperate pleas for help in person & otherwise, grown SO tiresome to them ALL!!!
Anyway, there's much more to the story, but the general gist is that I've been miraculously & most unexpectedly healed of the worst parts of my affliction (the 100% insomnia I suffered, the lack of connection to everyone & everything, the loss of my hope & all faith, my health & my home, my love of music & movies, nature & wildlife, food & beverage, including tea & coffee, ginger beer & juices, etc.) by The Great Physician, despite my utter disbelief & diabolical railings & cursing of Jesus Christ for not only abandoning me & allowing such insane suffering, but for not even existing, being a figment of my imagination, a fantasy, an illusion, a liar even... Yes, in my darkest hours, I became a true Atheist, believing in nothing but dying & death & the grave!!!
God saved me anyway. Why you ask. Or maybe you're thinking this guy is full of sh*t! Either way, I'll share what I believe from my point of view. Firstly, I had built up a relationship with Jesus through inspired experience & serious study, work & play, for 26 years, starting in September of 2000 down in Tampa, Florida. I won't get into the nitty-gritty, but basically, I was tortured, one night in particular, awoken in a jolt at 3am, my mind racing, desperately caught between two women, my wife at the time & another lover I took on right before I was heading to get married.
Yes, I was an adulterer! Yikes! Absolutely awful & unacceptable, believe me, I know! To make a long story short, so to speak, I meandered out of my house, making my way out to my backyard, around my pool, in front of my detached office (for my very lucrative wholesale cigar business), fell to my knees at the base of a giant oak tree & begged & pleaded for help, at that time in my 'crazy' life, it was the first time I called out to God by name, before having used the terms Universe or Cosmos, etc., I was into New Age philosophy, the power of NOW, anything NOT biblical, telling the Lord I would do anything & everything to be released from & relieved of the EXTREME torment & misery I was going through, the guilt & shame, regret & pain ~ Heart
Broken!!!
In a moment of PURE & PERFECT magic, I was struck by a bolt of lightning (figuratively of course), a most POWER-full sense of PEACE & SERENITY passing through & permeating my entire being. And then God spoke, clearly but not audibly; I felt the words DEEPLY within my heart, soul & mind. And then some!!! This is what was said: "Go back to New York, work with your father, heal your family. What?! Well, that was the beginning of my circuitous pursuit of higher levels of knowledge, wisdom & understanding. I've learned a lot over the decades, but like Socrates, a petty brilliant dude, once said, ultimately, the essence of my entire life experience has led me to his same main conclusion: "I know that I know nothing!!! Ha! Yes, I'm NO know it all. Ya, all!!! Just a fool
like the rest of you!!!
Yes, 'God' is surely a MYSTERY, so much BIGGER & BETTER than anybody has imagined, can imagine or ever will imagine... Until He comes that is; Like a thief in the night (Revelation 16:15). Come to think of it, I do know one thing: God is good... No, actually, God is GREAT! And secondly & importantly, I know 'God' is surely beyond male or female, "His/Her" being MUCH-MUCH more than those man-made limiting & diminishing & discriminatory descriptives. Okay-okay, I'll stop my babbling now. I'll leave you with this little teaching of The Word & ways vs. man's...
The word repent has been made into a harsh & punitive word created by the institutionalized churches, the hypocrites whose main aim is to control & dominate, etc. They are liars & thieves, rapists & murderers, etc., of the highest order. They are slavers, putting parishioners & others in cages, placed under their laws of sin & death & hell instead of teaching & preaching about living under the mercy & grace of The Most-High Spirit of LOVE!!! Need I say more? I think you get the general gist of where I stand with Organized Religion, such a bunch of baby BULLSH*T!!!
Anyway, the word "repent" simply means, "to think again," to take a second & third & fourth, maybe even a fifth, you get the point, look at The Way & Truth & Life of the Lord Jesus Christ aka Yeshua Mashiach aka Wonderful aka Counselor & so many more ~ He is the Name above all names (Philippians 2:9-11) & he is not who so-called Christians & Jews & Muslim, the 3 Abrahamic faiths & many other cults have made him out to be!!!
Even the language Yeshua spoke, Aramaic, was different. It was spoken in a feminine tongue. Hebrew & English, the dominant languages of The Bible & our Time of great Trouble, which was written by man (inspired) & manipulated by the Council of Nicea in 300 A.D. under the Emperor Constantine, were masculine, hence creating an abusive & exclusive, hateful & hurtful, violent & venomous & vitriolic, generally godless genocidal Patriarchy!!! Enough said? I think so. A lot to digest, I know...
Well, ponder on & wander through, this message if you feel led or inspired to do so. If not, no worries, I totally get it. I wouldn't have received this well or believed any of it just three short weeks ago. All i can say is take care of each other here, Ya'll, share yourselves fully, be honest & truthful, lose the aliases & fear of being seen & heard for who you are, listen care-fully & lovingly to people, to all the pain & suffering, really see & hear the torment & misery, but also try & embrace the recovery stories too.
I know it's hard, but healing is possible! More than possible... Believe it or not, receive it or not, it's inevitable, only a matter of time, Ya' all. And a lot of that is up to you. Receive & Believe, I say!!!
Anyway, PEACE & MUCH LOVE, Ya' all, sincerely & truly, Dan aka Danny boy aka Daniel aka Mischief & Pepper aka Kubiak aka believe it or not, Dr. Dan, the Metaphysician (Spiritual Doctor).
To make things clear, I have a Ph.D in Holistic Theology, my major having been Metaphysics. I also have a master's in social work & a bachelor's in psychology... I'm not looking to boast, just expressing myself a little in case you may be wondering, "who the hell is this guy or who the hell does this guy think he is or whatever else you may be thinking or feeling, etc.
Any-hoo-ha, peace & much love, Ya' all, NOW (The first day of the Jewish New Year ~ 5787) & always, your friend & your family & beyond... Mr. Pizza-Bagel,
~ Dr. Daniel David Lattarulo
What an absolute HORROR!!! Yes, an unimaginable nightmare that tormented me every second of every day while I suffered with such severe sickness, I was in abject misery the majority my life & mainly in complete silence, my family & friends & others left incredulous, not knowing what to say or do anymore, just entirely exhausted of me & my wretched condition, not really wanting to hear anything about it anymore, not wanting to see or hear me, my moans & groans, even my desperate pleas for help in person & otherwise, grown SO tiresome to them ALL!!!
Anyway, there's much more to the story, but the general gist is that I've been miraculously & most unexpectedly healed of the worst parts of my affliction (the 100% insomnia I suffered, the lack of connection to everyone & everything, the loss of my hope & all faith, my health & my home, my love of music & movies, nature & wildlife, food & beverage, including tea & coffee, ginger beer & juices, etc.) by The Great Physician, despite my utter disbelief & diabolical railings & cursing of Jesus Christ for not only abandoning me & allowing such insane suffering, but for not even existing, being a figment of my imagination, a fantasy, an illusion, a liar even... Yes, in my darkest hours, I became a true Atheist, believing in nothing but dying & death & the grave!!!
God saved me anyway. Why you ask. Or maybe you're thinking this guy is full of sh*t! Either way, I'll share what I believe from my point of view. Firstly, I had built up a relationship with Jesus through inspired experience & serious study, work & play, for 26 years, starting in September of 2000 down in Tampa, Florida. I won't get into the nitty-gritty, but basically, I was tortured, one night in particular, awoken in a jolt at 3am, my mind racing, desperately caught between two women, my wife at the time & another lover I took on right before I was heading to get married.
Yes, I was an adulterer! Yikes! Absolutely awful & unacceptable, believe me, I know! To make a long story short, so to speak, I meandered out of my house, making my way out to my backyard, around my pool, in front of my detached office (for my very lucrative wholesale cigar business), fell to my knees at the base of a giant oak tree & begged & pleaded for help, at that time in my 'crazy' life, it was the first time I called out to God by name, before having used the terms Universe or Cosmos, etc., I was into New Age philosophy, the power of NOW, anything NOT biblical, telling the Lord I would do anything & everything to be released from & relieved of the EXTREME torment & misery I was going through, the guilt & shame, regret & pain ~ Heart
Broken!!!In a moment of PURE & PERFECT magic, I was struck by a bolt of lightning (figuratively of course), a most POWER-full sense of PEACE & SERENITY passing through & permeating my entire being. And then God spoke, clearly but not audibly; I felt the words DEEPLY within my heart, soul & mind. And then some!!! This is what was said: "Go back to New York, work with your father, heal your family. What?! Well, that was the beginning of my circuitous pursuit of higher levels of knowledge, wisdom & understanding. I've learned a lot over the decades, but like Socrates, a petty brilliant dude, once said, ultimately, the essence of my entire life experience has led me to his same main conclusion: "I know that I know nothing!!! Ha! Yes, I'm NO know it all. Ya, all!!! Just a fool
like the rest of you!!!Yes, 'God' is surely a MYSTERY, so much BIGGER & BETTER than anybody has imagined, can imagine or ever will imagine... Until He comes that is; Like a thief in the night (Revelation 16:15). Come to think of it, I do know one thing: God is good... No, actually, God is GREAT! And secondly & importantly, I know 'God' is surely beyond male or female, "His/Her" being MUCH-MUCH more than those man-made limiting & diminishing & discriminatory descriptives. Okay-okay, I'll stop my babbling now. I'll leave you with this little teaching of The Word & ways vs. man's...
The word repent has been made into a harsh & punitive word created by the institutionalized churches, the hypocrites whose main aim is to control & dominate, etc. They are liars & thieves, rapists & murderers, etc., of the highest order. They are slavers, putting parishioners & others in cages, placed under their laws of sin & death & hell instead of teaching & preaching about living under the mercy & grace of The Most-High Spirit of LOVE!!! Need I say more? I think you get the general gist of where I stand with Organized Religion, such a bunch of baby BULLSH*T!!!
Anyway, the word "repent" simply means, "to think again," to take a second & third & fourth, maybe even a fifth, you get the point, look at The Way & Truth & Life of the Lord Jesus Christ aka Yeshua Mashiach aka Wonderful aka Counselor & so many more ~ He is the Name above all names (Philippians 2:9-11) & he is not who so-called Christians & Jews & Muslim, the 3 Abrahamic faiths & many other cults have made him out to be!!!
Even the language Yeshua spoke, Aramaic, was different. It was spoken in a feminine tongue. Hebrew & English, the dominant languages of The Bible & our Time of great Trouble, which was written by man (inspired) & manipulated by the Council of Nicea in 300 A.D. under the Emperor Constantine, were masculine, hence creating an abusive & exclusive, hateful & hurtful, violent & venomous & vitriolic, generally godless genocidal Patriarchy!!! Enough said? I think so. A lot to digest, I know...
Well, ponder on & wander through, this message if you feel led or inspired to do so. If not, no worries, I totally get it. I wouldn't have received this well or believed any of it just three short weeks ago. All i can say is take care of each other here, Ya'll, share yourselves fully, be honest & truthful, lose the aliases & fear of being seen & heard for who you are, listen care-fully & lovingly to people, to all the pain & suffering, really see & hear the torment & misery, but also try & embrace the recovery stories too.
I know it's hard, but healing is possible! More than possible... Believe it or not, receive it or not, it's inevitable, only a matter of time, Ya' all. And a lot of that is up to you. Receive & Believe, I say!!!
Anyway, PEACE & MUCH LOVE, Ya' all, sincerely & truly, Dan aka Danny boy aka Daniel aka Mischief & Pepper aka Kubiak aka believe it or not, Dr. Dan, the Metaphysician (Spiritual Doctor).
To make things clear, I have a Ph.D in Holistic Theology, my major having been Metaphysics. I also have a master's in social work & a bachelor's in psychology... I'm not looking to boast, just expressing myself a little in case you may be wondering, "who the hell is this guy or who the hell does this guy think he is or whatever else you may be thinking or feeling, etc.
Any-hoo-ha, peace & much love, Ya' all, NOW (The first day of the Jewish New Year ~ 5787) & always, your friend & your family & beyond... Mr. Pizza-Bagel,
~ Dr. Daniel David Lattarulo
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i got off my CTO
