Yeah, different substances, or addictive behaviours affect people individually, and they deal with them in their own way.
Kratom, though, for me, in a way I can't describe, it's even more so, and if abused, like what I did, can show a really dark side. I mean, I used to take amphetamines a few days on, a few days off, and even they did not kick my arse as hard as kratom has.
I don't know if it's wishful thinking, recent vast increase in exercise, or some different herbs I started taking, but I think I am feeling a little bit better.
I'd say the worst part of the day is waking up, kinda spooky as it's an alteration in consciousness, from dream state to wakefulness. I dread it so much, I can even feel it a short while before I wake.