Bella Figura
Bluelight Crew
I failed miserably last night. Had dinner, then beers then takeout...woops.
I have trouble motivating to do healthy things when I am the sole beneficiary, I can be very ambivalent about my own well being. From my perspective, I am looking forward to your check-in next Monday* as my practice lacks ANY perspective except my own anymore. That is something I miss about having a sangha and a roshi (Zen priest) involved in my practice. Maybe knowing that it will benefit me if you have something to say, or maybe you would hate having to write the same report each week, will be motivating? Maybe not, just a thought.i usually wouldn't. i did almost 2 years of, apart from a couple of lapses, being completely substance free, and was busy as fuck the entire time. got through summer part of lockdown fine cos at least we could go outside in the evenings. but when the days started getting shorter and all the things i enjoy at home started getting monotonous, i picked up a bad habit.
if you have got through lockdown without seeking a substance as a crutch and getting mind numbingly bored then i am very happy for you and somewhat jealous!
ok, sounds good. i mean my major sticking point is actually doing it lol. like, i have 40 minutes til work, i could easily sit for 15 mins of that. will i? i dunno, now i've thought of it as an actual option maybe i will.
Hey didn’t you just publically denounce yourself and promise to leave? Yesterday? Not trying to be unfriendly but you gotta stick to your guns better than that bub, you aren’t going to get the kind of attention you crave being a ninny... just sayin’. Try to be real for at least a few days.Yeah but I can't smoke if I don't eat well I can but I get horrible stomach ache and heart burn and then I can't enjoy my wank because I feel bad that's me and my weird genetically interior aspergers mind anyway![]()
Yeah hadn't really planned on it at all, feel like I payed for it in terms of lethargy today though.tbh @Bella Figura that sounds great but i would have been pissed with myself if i'd not planned on doing it.
makes sense, i'm happy with monday.To dissuade procrastination. But any day of the week WFM, it doesn’t have to be Monday
true story about my evening: boyfriend buys beer before 4pm, i hold out til after i've been food shopping, make dinner while drinking, be drunk and eat dinner late, boyfriend is currently out getting us takeout.Yeah hadn't really planned on it at all, feel like I payed for it in terms of lethargy today though.
this is the internet and a drug website it isn't real life I was just high and blowing some silent steam all the ogs here know not to take me seriously I just need attenion and misery to live off and leechHey didn’t you just publically denounce yourself and promise to leave? Yesterday? Not trying to be unfriendly but you gotta stick to your guns better than that bub, you aren’t going to get the kind of attention you crave being a ninny... just sayin’. Try to be real for at least a few days.
Elderflower (and their berries) are all over the place, the council plant a lot of it. Chances are you’ve seen it without even knowing about it (or maybe you do!)
Don’t need a lot, 20/25 heads for a 10/15L brew. (That amount will take up less than half a Tesco carrier bag).
Loads and loads of recipes on the web!
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You and this banana monstrosity! I do however like elderberry and elderflower! Make wine for me! Pwetty pwease!Elderberry and banana wine is fuckin awesome shit. I really need to get back in the saddle...
You and this banana monstrosity! I do however like elderberry and elderflower! Make wine for me! Pwetty pwease!
Banana monstrosity?
The lady doth protest too much methinks...
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