Hi, I'm looking for help with my LTC and this is my story. I will try to be concise.
I pretty much abused MDMA (almost only crystals) for about 5 months then stopped for a while after my first panic attack. This triggered the start of my anxiety symptoms (ear ringing, chest tightness, palpitations), a slight depression (anhedonia, lack of motivation) and brain fog. My symptoms bordered sometimes to being serious but the situation never really got out of control as I continued to live a mostly functional and normal life. This stupidly made me think to start using MDMA again albeit way less often. Obviosly the symptoms continued to persist especially the slight anxiety and paranoia that pervades most of my days. I say most because there are days where I fell almost "normal".
My lifestyle has always been healthy. I exercise every day and eat a balanced and rich diet.
I'm 4 months sober from the drug now and I also stopped smoking weed because I'm pretty sure it made the anxiety worse (weirdly I felt a spike the following days of smoking not while I was high). Nowadays the brain fog is mostly gone the anxious days are less than they were and I feel more motivated. Still I feel I have ways to go to come back to my old self.
It all started last April 2018 and I did MDMA last time in November 2018.
I first tried 5-htps to help me for at least 6 months but I don't think they did too much. This led me to research forums and reddit so I recently added Bacopa, NAC (acetyl-cystheina), magnesium, fish oil & curcumin.
I also add that I use ketamine sometimes recreationally which has this weird effect of making me feel more relaxed for at least 3- 4 days afterwards.
I wanna start meditation which is something I never did.
I'd love some more help with my journey back
I pretty much abused MDMA (almost only crystals) for about 5 months then stopped for a while after my first panic attack. This triggered the start of my anxiety symptoms (ear ringing, chest tightness, palpitations), a slight depression (anhedonia, lack of motivation) and brain fog. My symptoms bordered sometimes to being serious but the situation never really got out of control as I continued to live a mostly functional and normal life. This stupidly made me think to start using MDMA again albeit way less often. Obviosly the symptoms continued to persist especially the slight anxiety and paranoia that pervades most of my days. I say most because there are days where I fell almost "normal".
My lifestyle has always been healthy. I exercise every day and eat a balanced and rich diet.
I'm 4 months sober from the drug now and I also stopped smoking weed because I'm pretty sure it made the anxiety worse (weirdly I felt a spike the following days of smoking not while I was high). Nowadays the brain fog is mostly gone the anxious days are less than they were and I feel more motivated. Still I feel I have ways to go to come back to my old self.
It all started last April 2018 and I did MDMA last time in November 2018.
I first tried 5-htps to help me for at least 6 months but I don't think they did too much. This led me to research forums and reddit so I recently added Bacopa, NAC (acetyl-cystheina), magnesium, fish oil & curcumin.
I also add that I use ketamine sometimes recreationally which has this weird effect of making me feel more relaxed for at least 3- 4 days afterwards.
I wanna start meditation which is something I never did.
I'd love some more help with my journey back