MDMA Recovery (Stories & Support - 7) [ALL LTC posts go here]

[danielfgt]

Hello everyone,
I have logged into this account once more to read some of your stories and to give an update on my situation.
I rolled HARD in June of 2023, something I’ve done before in the past where a pressed pill, a Molly or two with some alcohol in one night wasn’t anything new. I had a boat load of fun that night and everything seemed normal u til it wasn’t. I remeber I got 3 hours of sleep that night and starting the next day I had this weird panic attack feeling- best way I can describe it is when you know you’re about to get bad news or anticipating something bad and you feel your heart drop- I felt that nonstop for years- additionally, I had jerks, tinnitus, suicidal thoughts, and HORRIBLE sleep issues that lasted well over two years. Just the worst of the absolute fucking worst type of symptoms that I had never experienced before. I thought for a long time that this was just gonna be my life- I had caused irreversible neurological damage and it was my own doing. But then as years went on, I noticed some improvement, some days weren’t filled with anxiety- other days I got 5 hours of sleep instead of 4- fast track to today- January 2026 all of my symptoms have subsided- all of them. If I get genuinely worried about something I’ll get anxious like I did before in the past but no longer does it linger how it used to in the past and I now sleep my full 8 hours. What a freaking journey it’s been. I got sober doing all this and that was the last night I touched MDMA and will never touch it again for as long as I love- I stopped smoking weed 7 months ago which seemed to improve my symptoms, alcohol has been the toughest thing for me to get rid of as I’ve been drinking since 18 (I’m 30 now) but last year was the first year of my life where I drank perhaps less than 10 times the entire year. I say all this in the hopes of some web surfer who may potentially need some advice or a story similar to there’s to lean on for hope- I’m here to tell you there is hope! I swear I’m better and have 10 mo the before I can apply to. Rising School- something I would’ve never imagined as I wasn’t getting any sleep so school was impossible. It’s been such a long and arduous journey ey but here we are- thriving and loving life. If anyone reads this and needs to talk, send me a message as my email notifies me when someone has responded or interacted with my account in some way. Also, I never took an SSRIS, I had a doctor prescribe me some- first pill I took made my symptoms so much worse - I didn’t take anything- just time, clean living and having hope got me here almost 3 years later. Best of luck yall

Hi, thank you so much for coming back to share this update. Your story resonates with me deeply because I’m going through something very similar.

I had a bad reaction after a single use of MDMA in December 2024, so I’m about 18 months in now. Like you, I deal with a lot of sleep problems I wake up constantly through the night and only get 4 or 5 hours of poor quality sleep. I also have a lot of anxiety, a constant feeling of malaise or like a never-ending hangover, burning sensations in my feet, tachycardia, and HPPD (visual stuff).

Things have improved since everything started I’m not in the hell I was at the beginning but I still feel very far from recovery, and the poor sleep especially is really wearing me down.

Reading that you came out the other side, with all your symptoms gone and sleeping your full 8 hours, gives me real hope. Can I ask what specifically helped you the most? Was it mainly time and clean living, or were there particular things you did for the sleep and anxiety that made a difference? Anything that helped you get through the worst of it would mean a lot to hear.

Thank you again for posting it matters more than you know.