Day 281. No improvements. Still zombie mode. No thoughts, emotions, drive, libido, and anhedonia. Want to give up hope. Doesn’t seem like the medication is ever going to wear off. Seems unreal. Everyone in my family is tired of me being in this situation. I don’t blame them. Just spoke with my therapist. She says if I don’t try to make any steps towards recovery I’m gonna find myself in the same situation. Only thing I can say is that I’ve been able to get some rest as of late(not much but still better than no sleep). Again I had five injections. I’ve heard recovery stories with people who had more injections recovering in less time. I wish I wasn’t still in this bad dream. 15 days until my birthday with no sign of improvement. I don’t know what I’ve done to deserve this. God knows I pray everyday about this but nothing has changed. This is a sad case. I just knew after 6 months I would be in a better place, unfortunately this wasn’t true smh.