Notsoprettyinpink
Bluelighter
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Hey! What's your favorite thing to do to to create a natural, drug free "high"?
Hi all. I've gotten so much great advise on here (I'm only almost 15 days clean from oxycodone and methadone, per choice as I could actually get the oxycodone again via my pain management doctor but cancelled my appointment last week).
Blah, blah. Anyway, many suggested to me "hobbies". Asking what I used to enjoy doing before my only hobby for the past almost 3 years of useage was counting pills, staring at walls, neglecting myself and eventually secluding myself from all of my friends. I'm quite sure you all know I'm being sarcastic. NOT so great "hobbies" or things I enjoy unless of course I decide to become a pharmacIst in the future but there's a 0% chance of that so forget I mentioned it.
All and all, I've wrote on other threads how bad my PAWS now is (got, of course, AMAZING feedback as for the lack of sleep, "drug dreams" in which they either crumble and dissolve in my hand or else fall to a place I can't reach them, the chills yet and being "MS. CRAB OF ALL CRABS"...at this point I'm like a king crab leg that costs $50 if one exists) so today I sat and thought; "What did you once love"?
Here's what my drug free "highs" used to be and ones I'd like to fully gain back (and have started to); writing (you're probably thinking, REALLY...haha...meaning because I write such in depth threads), I also enjoyed writing poetry (I posted one on here, I'm not great, but love it), listening to music LOUDLY (anything from 80's and 90's rock, to alternative to a few current singers). I also loved the summer (I live in PA so it's much too short and miss the last place I lived so much which was Georgia) and being in the sun. LOVED, LOVED planting flower gardens and building Koi ponds. Also reading books. Hiking and running (I can't run anymore due to having RSD but there is an area near my home that has a huge hiking trail that's on flat ground and all that surrounds you is nature and it's beauty and a lake. I can do that. Even if it's a slow one mile hike unlike the 8-10 miles I used to do. And lastly being a good friend to others. I LOVED people. All my good loves were replaced by pills. These all used to be my natural "highs" and as you can see I listed many. More then enough to keep me pleasantly fulfilled
So, what's yours? I'd love to hear.
"Clean" (and I consider Suboxone and Methadone maintenance as being "clean") or even if you're not clean and are just hoping to be someday. I also want to always stress this in my threads...even if you're not clean, NO JUDGEMENT here!!! Feel free to chime in
Much love to all !
Sincerely,
Bernadette (aka "notsoprettyinpink" when I was taking, and not always by mouth even, mass quantities of 10 MG oxycodone.....otherwise pink is actually my favorite color and I even dressed up a bit today to get out for a while and am wearing a pink dress but a pink PILL isn't in me.
Hi all. I've gotten so much great advise on here (I'm only almost 15 days clean from oxycodone and methadone, per choice as I could actually get the oxycodone again via my pain management doctor but cancelled my appointment last week).
Blah, blah. Anyway, many suggested to me "hobbies". Asking what I used to enjoy doing before my only hobby for the past almost 3 years of useage was counting pills, staring at walls, neglecting myself and eventually secluding myself from all of my friends. I'm quite sure you all know I'm being sarcastic. NOT so great "hobbies" or things I enjoy unless of course I decide to become a pharmacIst in the future but there's a 0% chance of that so forget I mentioned it.
All and all, I've wrote on other threads how bad my PAWS now is (got, of course, AMAZING feedback as for the lack of sleep, "drug dreams" in which they either crumble and dissolve in my hand or else fall to a place I can't reach them, the chills yet and being "MS. CRAB OF ALL CRABS"...at this point I'm like a king crab leg that costs $50 if one exists) so today I sat and thought; "What did you once love"?
Here's what my drug free "highs" used to be and ones I'd like to fully gain back (and have started to); writing (you're probably thinking, REALLY...haha...meaning because I write such in depth threads), I also enjoyed writing poetry (I posted one on here, I'm not great, but love it), listening to music LOUDLY (anything from 80's and 90's rock, to alternative to a few current singers). I also loved the summer (I live in PA so it's much too short and miss the last place I lived so much which was Georgia) and being in the sun. LOVED, LOVED planting flower gardens and building Koi ponds. Also reading books. Hiking and running (I can't run anymore due to having RSD but there is an area near my home that has a huge hiking trail that's on flat ground and all that surrounds you is nature and it's beauty and a lake. I can do that. Even if it's a slow one mile hike unlike the 8-10 miles I used to do. And lastly being a good friend to others. I LOVED people. All my good loves were replaced by pills. These all used to be my natural "highs" and as you can see I listed many. More then enough to keep me pleasantly fulfilled
So, what's yours? I'd love to hear.
"Clean" (and I consider Suboxone and Methadone maintenance as being "clean") or even if you're not clean and are just hoping to be someday. I also want to always stress this in my threads...even if you're not clean, NO JUDGEMENT here!!! Feel free to chime in
Much love to all !
Sincerely,
Bernadette (aka "notsoprettyinpink" when I was taking, and not always by mouth even, mass quantities of 10 MG oxycodone.....otherwise pink is actually my favorite color and I even dressed up a bit today to get out for a while and am wearing a pink dress but a pink PILL isn't in me.