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June Getting/Staying Clean/Sober Thread vs It's Finally Beach Weather!

Happy birthday!!
well, I somehow got through this day. Felt like using all day, couldn't shake it. Dealing with more physical pain than I was hopi g for and mentally I obsessed about the drug. Sure hope I can sleep and that tomorrow is a better day
 
Hi guys, after a week breaking my sobriety with variety of substances... Im here again for the rest of this month.

I will do it 100%
 
Hello. Insomnia last night. How is it that the second week is worse than the first week? This is crazy. I'm staying in bed today.
 
April was a failed attempt at quitting opiates.. No matter the destruction these drugs bring to me, friends, and loved ones, I keep coming back for more. Fuck em. I know it is time to quit though. I can't even use anymore without having negative thoughts/anxiety about my addiction. I say all of this as im high as a kite of course....

I do have a window of opportunity this month, all responsibilities on hold, I AM going to take this time to get clean. No more lying, no more stealing, no more bullshit. I wont let this control my life any longer. I won't be trapped in this cage, it's no way to live. Starting tomorrow I'm going cold turkey with the assistance of gabapentin for 1-2 weeks and good ol' cannabis.
 
Still clean! 1 year, 1 month, 3 days (I think)...

Things have stabilized in my relationship. They are a ton of work, especially when one is still in earlier recover (after a relapse). The great thing is that I am pretty empathetic because I have been there.
 
Hello! Heading into day 12 today, hard to believe it's been almost 2 weeks. Blue light has been my only support, I'm really glad it's here. I wish there were more people here, but I'm just glad to not be totally alone
pokemama-how are things ? I havent heard from you in almost a week! I hope everything is ok
hope you all have a good day.
 
i'm happy to announce that i'll have 6 weeks clean from psychedelics in a couple days. I'm doing so much better than when I was abusing and even just using psychedelics at all. I still smoke herb but that isn't bad in my opinion. Psychedelics on the other hand, I don't want to ever see again. For me they were terrible. I mean the highs were amazing, but it was never worth the lows. They just screwed with my brain chemistry so much that it isn't something I ever want again, I don't care how euphoric the highs were, and believe me they were amazing, at the height of my drug use I would smoke MDA and my eyes would be rolling in the back of my head and I was feeling like everything was vapors. But not worth the lunacy. Not worth the shame. Not worth the pain. The depression. Never again shall I use those drugs.
 
I'm clean since June 1st! Can't believe I'm just now seeing this thread! I was clean from 2010 to 2014 and relapsed. It took a good year (a little more) to get even a week clean again. That includes alcohol, which is mostly what I was using in that year, but still a few nasty hard runs were part of the last year. At this point my morning anxiety has gone and I'm glad I made it past the first few days...which seem to be the hardest for me.
Thanks for this thread and thanks to everyone who posted! It really helps. I see a lot of people on here saying that this community helps them in various ways. I'm just the same. I'm here reading way more than I post. I'm learning a lot in addition to getting lots of hope. I'm pretty impressed with what I've seen from the moderators too. These guys (and gals) know their stuff! I feel like I can get reliable info here on anything related to my addiction.
Best of luck to everyone :-)
 
snortmdma said:
i'm happy to announce that i'll have 6 weeks clean from psychedelics in a couple days. I'm doing so much better than when I was abusing and even just using psychedelics at all. I still smoke herb but that isn't bad in my opinion. Psychedelics on the other hand, I don't want to ever see again. For me they were terrible. I mean the highs were amazing, but it was never worth the lows. They just screwed with my brain chemistry so much that it isn't something I ever want again, I don't care how euphoric the highs were, and believe me they were amazing, at the height of my drug use I would smoke MDA and my eyes would be rolling in the back of my head and I was feeling like everything was vapors. But not worth the lunacy. Not worth the shame. Not worth the pain. The depression. Never again shall I use those drugs.[/QUOTE


6 weeks-that is awesome! What a miracle. I think what you said is powerful. All the comfortable and euphoric feelings of using end up not being worth all the pain, lonliness and depression that is the price we pay At some point the pain of staying the same is greater than the pain of change and that is when addicts seem to make the choice to change. Tomorrow, i will have 6 weeks clean-the most i have ever been off pills for 10 years. Amost every one of those days has beeen difficult, but there is something better-i cant really put my finger on it because it is slight-but its different, and i want to see if i get more of that the longer i stay away from pills. Congrats on your time-thats a lifetime to someone who is on their first day
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Ughhh, really missing my GF today. I am supposed to see her tomorrow, but with all the shit going on I just cannot feel like this is going to happen until it actually does. Sometimes a part of me wonders if this is all worth it, but then I remember its only temporary and she is growing leaps and bounds.

Part of it is because of a lack of communication throughout the day, she is just so busy she can hardily text back, but then I tell myself "but its just a 20 second text".

Who knows, I just gotta stick with my program. I am going to do some praying right now.

This is what problems have begun to look like for me. I am not obsessing over using anymore. It took me about 7-8 months total to get here.

I am still in unchartered territory. A year and a month + of clean time is something I have never had.
 
Captain.Heroin said:
Frustrations about family, my relationship, and other life facets.

I'll get through this. It's past midnight on the west coast, so I've made it another day. :) 7 and a half months for me
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I feel ya! I am trying to move out of my home w/ my borderline gf and some days are sooooo fuckin stressful. I'm west coastin too ;)
 
congrats Imtryin on your six weeks! You have good reason to be very proud of yourself, 6 weeks of clean time is a stepping stone towards a greater future. For myself, making the decision to begin recovery was great and I am very proud of 6 weeks without tripping. If I have my way I'll be saying the same thing for the rest of my life
 
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