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Hi everyone ive been dealing with drugs and alcohol problems since high school i am now 45 years old and have recently tried heroin for the first time :) I have also tried crystal meth iv of course and i just did some 5 hours ago, i was going to do 2 4mg dilaudid , will i feel the dilly? also how long does crystal buzz last for and how long does dilly buzz last?
 
Hi Lilly, it's easier to talk to strangers that can relate to the issues ur going thru, as friends and family can often get upset or angry because they care so much and don't understand why you feel and do the things u do. I find just bein able to chat and ask questions without any emotional repurcussions great, looking thru the threads can be a comfort too as I've seen that there are a lot of other people fighting problems similar to mine. Good luck.
 
gypsywom3 said:
Hi everyone ive been dealing with drugs and alcohol problems since high school i am now 45 years old and have recently tried heroin for the first time :) I have also tried crystal meth iv of course and i just did some 5 hours ago, i was going to do 2 4mg dilaudid , will i feel the dilly? also how long does crystal buzz last for and how long does dilly buzz last?
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Hi gypsywom3, and welcome! The Dark Side is a forum meant to support people when they are trying to get a handle on their recovery from abuse or addiction as well as underlying problems that make them want to use. As far as asking specific questions about use you may want to move your intro over to Basic Drug Discussion or Other Drugs where people will not be triggered who are trying to quit. If you want support for quitting (or anything else!) please feel free to post here for that. Welcome to Bluelight.<3
 
Hey everyone!
I'm Maggie, 25 year old from Chicago, IL USA.

Former heroin & cocaine addict via IV from age 19-22. OD'd on my 21st birthday resulting in coma/TIA/ renal failure, etc. Best friend died from a speedball three months later. Also have done LSD, X twice (without rolling thanks to SSRI's), shrooms once & a shitload of pills. Not to mention weed, alcohol and DXM.

Been diagnosed with Major Chronic Depression, Generalized Anxiety Disorder & Bipolar II. On Cymbalta, Wellbutrin & Klonopin currently (been on Prozac, Lexapro, Abilify, Lamictal, Effexor, Depakote, Seroquel, & Zyprexa previously).

Currently smoke high grade weed near daily, drink alcohol moderately & pop DXM gelcaps frequently.

I figure the drugs keep me from suicidal tendencies, as I've been institutionalized 5 times for suicide attempts & former self mutilation.

But! Through all this, I can still be funny! :-D
 
Hey there maggie <3 welcome. Sounds like you've been through a lot and are still trying to cope. I'm the type to throw in a little humor even at my darkest times. It's just my type too. <3 It's so good to have you here!
 
^^ So you adopting me, or shut up? Lol, I'm totally joking about the last part.... & the first part if the answer is no.

But in any case, quick question: are most threads closed or can I not post in them until I reach Bluelighter status? And how the hell does one change their avatar? (By the way, I'm working purely from a Samsung Android as I'm too poor to afford real internet. Or cable.)

I'm stoned & seriously will run out of confidence to post a picture... Well, I just bought a gram though, like, literally... Well, 16 minutes ago. So, maybe not so soon, but I'm waiting! :-* lol
 
I have managed to kick coke, crack, & meth. I found that snorting Caffeine pills can help with the habit or snorting something & getting a response. The feeling up your nose (if that's your fancy) tastes just like coke, but without the numbing sensation. They also prescribe Bupropion (Wellbutrin/Zanax) for stimulant withdrawal also, so that's another possibility. Best of luck with the Lithium. A mood-stabalizer is something than isn't as pleasant to be on. I've been in psych ward twice. Although their friendly & you get fed quite well, it's still not my cup of tea.
 
Cid Lysergic said:
I They also prescribe Bupropion (Wellbutrin/Zanax) for stimulant withdrawal also, so that's another possibility.
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Whoa, there. Wellbutrin is NOT a stimulant, just because it's prescribed for stimulant abuse. In fact, too much Wellbutrin can give you a seizure, fact. I'm on Wellbutrin for depression so I can also tell you it sure ain't Xanax. It's the same thing as Zyban though, which is a drug they prescribe to smokers to help them lose the craving.

Yeah. Thats all..

But congrats on kicking that shit. *thumbs up*
 
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Of course I'll adopt you maggie <3 nobody says no around here :P you'll learn that quick.

I believe the only forum you can't post in until BLer status is the Lounge. All of the threads in this section, The Dark Side, should be open. Any threads that are closed are either ones that are inappropriate, old, archived, or don't have a defined question.

To change you avatar click this. (in the future at the top right of the screen you'll see Settings, click that and on the left you'll see a link that says change avatar).

Also just make sure not to glorify the use of drugs in TDS. I'm not sure if you've read the rules for TDS yet but just in case, I'll give you a quick lowdown on that. TDS is a unique forum and has a strong emphasis on recovery. A lot of people are very fragile and come to this section to seek refuge so we don't allow any glorification as it could be triggering to someone at a weak spot in their life.

Oh yes, and also instead of making several consecutive posts, if you find you want to add something after you've already posted. If someone hasn't posted after you, just select your last post and hit edit. That way it's easier for people to read everything you have to say without having to scroll and be confused by separate posts. (I will teach you ze ways to be perfacto BLer =D)

Let me know what else I can help you with and feel free to PM me for any private matters as well. Youse my new adoptee and I will love you with all of the love of a mother bear (mother bears have a lot of love) =D <3.
 
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Short intro:

-Under 25 years old
-former benzo addict, of what I've been told "legendary" addiction, everyone is shocked I made it out alive, and I am too. Just got off 10 year addiction of regular daily triple digit xanax dosing.
-Chronic Anxiety, Insomnia, Depression, PTSD, Schizophrenia, oh yeah and the lovely Chronic Pain....
-Recently got a DUI for taking my prescribed medications as directed
-Starting school soon, worried I'll have to drop out again due to inadequate pain management, may have to change pain management clinics
-Under-prescribed due to young age -____- (understatement of the year), but finally no longer having to illegally supplement my prescriptions to get out of bed.
-I love driving anything with 4 wheels (preferably 4x4 hehe)
-Have a very dark past of abuse, physical, mental, sexual abuse, the whole shebang, surprised I ever made it this far
-Have been clean off IV drug abuse for over 2 years!!! yay me
-Have a great girlfriend, we have plenty of problems but I really couldn't get by without her and I <3 her for all of my shit she puts up with.
 
@stardust.hero Huzzah!! You can leash me if I get too rowdy. I don't truly mean to glorify my current drug use, just a little too open, I guess. Thanks for fixing my post(s)! I guess I got a little lazy thar. Won't happen again. *salutes*

I'm here to stay away from bad drugs & truly try & reduce others, although some will not be given up & if that is a problem, I just won't bring it up here out of respect.
 
Hello everyone. I'm kinda new to the forum and someone recommended I introduce myself in this thread.

I'm a 22-year-old male who recently relocated due to problems with drug use. Ive been using drugs since I was 13-14 but about a year and a half ago I became addicted to opiates which caused my life to become uncontrollable. I started shooting up and spending all of my money on drugs. I ended up pawning anything valuable I owned and eventually stealing from my family. Eventually I lost my job and wound up homeless so I made the decision to move in with a friend of mine in a different cityto get away from my connections/friends that still use. I've been clean off opiates and the needle for three weeks today. I decided to start posting on this forum for support from people who have had similar problems. Thank you for taking the time to read this
 
Welcome to The Dark Side ProfessorBananas :) You're doing a great job so far, I hope that the withdrawal effects are starting to come to an end or they already have. It's a great idea that you decided to relocate yourself away, that often helps people quit their addictions once they lose their connects. Come check out the TDS Social Thread and come get to know everybody =D
 
tricomb said:
Short intro:

-Under 25 years old
-former benzo addict, of what I've been told "legendary" addiction, everyone is shocked I made it out alive, and I am too. Just got off 10 years addiction of regular daily triple digit xanax dosing.
-Chronic Anxiety, Insomnia, Depression, PTSD, Schizophrenia, oh yeah and the lovely Chronic Pain....
-Recently got a DUI for taking my prescribed medications as directed
-Starting school soon, worried I'll have to drop out again due to inadequate pain management, may have to change pain management clinics
-Under-prescribed due to young age -____- (understatement of the year), but finally no longer having to illegally supplement my prescriptions to get out of bed.
-I love driving anything with 4 wheels (preferably 4x4 hehe)
-Have a very dark past of abuse, physical, mental, sexual abuse, the whole shebang, surprised I ever made it this far
-Have been clean off IV drug abuse for over 2 years!!! yay me
-Have a great girlfriend, we have plenty of problems but I really couldn't get by without her and I <3 her for all of my shit she puts up with
-Love to drive <3
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Hi there! This is a little late cuz ive posted a few times. Im new here but have been reading for a while. The dark side is soo helpful cuz i see that other people are going thru some hard things too. I am dx with borderline personality disorder and an eating disorder anxiety and ocd. Im also an addict mostly benzos and opiates. I will have one month in a few days and have been going to AA meetings. Im a single mom and got layed off from my job in april. So im on unemployment. Im now a stay at home mom but im looking for a job like crazy. Sorry this is so long. Im hoping to meet some friends here. You guys are awesome. :) :) <3
 
Hello, I'm an addict, here's a bit about me-
-33 years old
-almost a year clean off a 7 year daily pod tea habit
-on suboxone, 8mg a day
-had a psychotic break due to kicking pod tea on my own, using bath salts, meth and kratom
-lost my girlfriend of 6 years, my job, my dignity, so decided to get clean
-started smoking weed at 13, been using drugs daily ever since. Fell in love with the hard stuff- opiates and amphetemines- kept it hidden from most everyone.
-Go to therapy, NA weekly, live a healthy lifestyle (longboarding, yoga, vegan)
-need some extra support, which is why I came here.
 
^ Welcome to TDS. <3 I've seen you post before and always got a giggle out of your user name. I <3 Seinfeld. :)
 
ArtVandalay said:
Hello, I'm an addict, here's a bit about me-
-33 years old
-almost a year clean off a 7 year daily pod tea habit
-on suboxone, 8mg a day
-had a psychotic break due to kicking pod tea on my own, using bath salts, meth and kratom
-lost my girlfriend of 6 years, my job, my dignity, so decided to get clean
-started smoking weed at 13, been using drugs daily ever since. Fell in love with the hard stuff- opiates and amphetemines- kept it hidden from most everyone.
-Go to therapy, NA weekly, live a healthy lifestyle (longboarding, yoga, vegan)
-need some extra support, which is why I came here.
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Let me just say, first and foremost, welcome to our forum! The content of your story matches up so eerily well with my own, on almost every account, and there are many more just like yourself you are guaranteed to meet in your ventures through The Dark Side!! We're glad to have you here, I have appreciated your posts thus far. Pease continue to contribute! :D

P.S. Seinfeld ForTheWinnnn =D

Much love,

~ Vaya
 
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