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AMP.
"Tell Your Sister That You Were Right."

Treponema pallidum: Don't Let It Go To Your Head.
Biden's answer to economic recovery is to speed up. (crack pipe plan)

It's more important to shutdown and slow down. The slower you move in a depression is key to how much you're spending and how much energy you use up.
We don't have the gas to keep moving forward right now. So the elite political class is pushing for war. To take from others what they see vital to maintaining speed.

Forget crack cocaine, marijuana will hill recovery. Biden is crack cocaine. Homegrown is marijuana. We can grow marijuana here. We can't grow coca in the US. And that leads to a whole war on drugs that they want to keep pushing. I propose treaty work with the South American countries to trade cocaine here pure and fenty free. Meanwhile get our psychedelic labs up and running. That's another bill for recovery. Slow down, smoke weed, eat some mushrooms. This will generate needed revenue for the state. While abolishing every federal agency to redistribute the reserve currency.

I see every transaction in Biden's america as a refund, stimulus, coupon to 'get us talking again'. My america is clean credit. One transaction will get you a tomato if the vendor is willing to sell to you. In the direction we're headed, it's entitlement.

Then there's the V A C C I N E S. Biden lied to us in his super bowl interview saying the 'shots work' They don't work, and they generate worms on the brain. Your welfare grade is failing. Simply put, if you are a private business, refuse to sell your goods to Fauci, Biden, and Pelosis so their assets and cash are worthless. There's always somebody to buy that tomato. These clowns are undeserving.
Ok, Fine. It's Really Not THAT Bad.
I just found out I officially cleared the
Phep c virus with anti viral treatment. I waited a long time after the treatment to get tested due to homelessness and the pandemic so I was scared I fucked myself. But nope it looks like I will not be dying of that disease at least.

Things are good right now. Me and Ali have a decent apartment. medical insurance. Food. And 400 dollars cash every month in assistance all for free. Thank you minnesota!

I supplement that with panhandling and various other hustles. I can't complain. We live good
Woke up was going to take a narco, I hurt from moving, not moving moving but I have a truck and get calls more often then not to haul shit to the dump or move in new furniture and even move whole houses empty(think im going to trade in for a bug eye sprite anyhow i make a smoothie and took a walk to limber up.I was going to take a narco and drink wine, cuz i lost my baby dog yesterday, i was bummed and wanted to die, so i thought F it imma get loaded.Decided to hop in jacuzzi and just cry with some wine. Got a buzz nd held a narco to lips, then chose to eat dinner.Dinner was bad so thought a few narco be a great dessert, the wife actually showed compassion and sat with before she went to care for grandkids so her kids could go to x mas party,I said fuck it , im going to feel good, and my drug addict aunt called and talked her looney shit, after 2 hr call, i was turned off the idea of risking use.So now Im just using the bottles for maracas and losing my sanity but still have rhythm.
I don't know who you are. I don't know what you want. If you are looking for ransom, I can tell you I don't have money.

But what I do have are a very particular set of skills; skills I have acquired over a very long career.
Skills that make me a
nightmare for people like you.

If you let my daughter go now, that'll be the end of it. I will not look for you, I will not pursue you.

But if you don't, I will look for you, I will find you, and I will
KILL you.
Doesn't believe in bad people only bad choices.

Wants us to stay out of prison.

Thanks Larry! Larry was a jewel thief and mob earner. He now educates about prison and how to stay on the side of the walls you don't have to live worse than zoo animals inside of!
I am out of it trying to kick my "habits". Compulsions, impulses, vices if ye will. Or addiction if ye must.

Some of my thoughts and ideas are highly illogical and irrational and when I look back I ask what that isn't true, correct, nor accurate. Exaggerated perhaps.

I hope the kind sober souls in the program can start to make me more sane, down to Earth, rational, and thoughtful not thoughtlessly noisy.



Speaking of unnecessary useless unproductive noise two songs sry brighten up my life but at least I am calmer now with my poor friend and living pahtna Annie she is my guiding light and ray of hope. Guiding light but not guide I need a sponsor in a program to help me change for good I feel.

"Only I Believe That This Is Not A Bow For Everyman To Shoot In That Counts Himself A Teacher; But Will Require Sinews Almost Equal To Those Which Homer Gave Ulysses, Yet I Am Withal Persuaded That It May Prove Much More Easy In The Assay, Than It Now Seems At A Distance, And Much More Illustrious: Howbeit Not More Difficult Than I Imagine, And That Imagination Presents Me With Nothing But Very Happy And Very Possible According To Their Best Wishes; If God Had So Decreed, And This Age Have Spirit And Capacity Enough To Apprehend."
Forgive yourself

for not knowing better at the

time. Forgive yourself for giving

away your power. Forgive yourself for

past behaviors. Forgive yourself

for the survival patterns and traits you


picked up while enduring trauma.

Forgive yourself for being

who you needed to be.
Can Be:

2 + 2 =;4

Or

1 + 3 = 4

22: The Number Of A Good Man, Who Is A Fool, Walking Down The Road With A Knapsack On His Back.

13: The Grim Reaper. A More Favorable Number, But Prone To Slayings.
Controlled substances acts in their very nature give up all control to exactly the people who are actually in criminality. Being a universal part of all societies historically, now, and by definiton the future as well. It’s not debatable. There is no sense in having something like the worlds supply of drugs to be used an an initiator into criminality and oppression.

This war on drugs, as it currently exists from the mid 20th century and in shouldn’t be allowed to continue to exist because Harry J Anslinger needed a job. He was the head in charge of alcohol prohibition, and was actually pro pot at the time. Since that failed, he needed a job. So he created drug prohibition in the form it’s still existent in across nations and that has cost countless lives to being cut short, or stymied in all manner of ways. Stigma is just the face of it.

The following is my take on addictions and recovery as I’ve experienced it and learned.

What’s actually natural to people to use substances has become a weaponized tool to target vulnerable populations, and even create populations to supersede them as the law has consistently fallen behind to a universal concept of drug use, as being criminalized.

This non virtue of the governments and legal systems of the world who’ve takien action - just to wind up doing nothing for it? Then a decentralization of what consists of recovery systems to demand perfection in total adherence to the impossible? Total sobriety?

The vast majority of thise addicted will not “recover” in the traditional sense of total sobriety, and they don’t need to. As a result of that, and anonymous groups who dictated in 1935 with a membership of 100 to say that we’re fundamentally incapable of being honest with ourselves and others.

So following the logic rather than playing the tape through, andif we don’t forego all our power to an addendeum? What I mean is that in 1935, in order to be more inclusive to the non-Christian people’s “as we know Him” higher power we actually did hand it all over in many ways. Many countries over time. There are origins before this, but it’s the defining moment for all which is both altruistic and yet non-profit and unaffiliated in this concept of addictions and recovery. I feel no need to go further.

So while I have no issue with God, I believe that’s very personal a thing to monopolize on as unaffiliated and also incapable of being honest with itself, or others - as the unaffiliated entity which you can be court ordered to go to 12 steps. In concept it’s a nice idea to have faith, except as it totally ignores the free will of it’s predecessor, Narconon wasan obvious successor. Gladly, to anyone with a conscience it failed.

I used to live right above the Church of Scientology at 50 Baker St in Guelph, ON, Canada right as they opened. A bunch of suits who would stand out in the parking lot and never say a word to anyone. Or each other. Strangers truly.

It’s amazing how universal so many aspects of those 12 step groups are in slogans and forms. Those which are not in the book whatsoever. I’ve read it several time. It’s undeniable that the result of this has been to leave real altruism to being non-profit while the unit of good orderly direction to self-defeat in powerlessness lends its tendrils deeper into the social, legal, and medical systems across the globe? A mantra to ultimately say only we can help ourselves as well.

Though I believe those groups were, and are well intentioned the start and finish of it by definition hasn’t empowered to provide any respect to people. Not toward themselves, nor others. No amount of asking “Him” to remove our defects of character will ever do what only we can do to make changes in ourselves and the world around us. Free will is the very concept which defined humanity under the originating doctrine, and forgiveness as well rather than some incapable submission to the undefinable.

In contrast, though I would never exclude AA, or anything which has provided respite and hope, even recovery to a great number - no matter what I think of that philosophy. And often the only available. The fact is, for every person sitting in a seat for years, many and then many more have come and go in a revolving door - mostly ending out. Harm reduction is the only ideology I know of which can actually utilize these exact issues through recognition.

Meeting people where they’re at is the mainstay. Thereforth is an ideology to lead to encompass the fields of addictions, recovery, and an escalating overdose epidemic across all social strata. And all of that during a period of civil unrest from issues of racial equality, to police brutality, to a 2-dimensional culture war across bipartisan values of control? A hard line over equinamity. Systemic failure.

This is total a breakdown of everything which we knew, globally. I feel this as being a very transitional time period as being the greatest event in human history. Although an insulation of media and reactionary responses which won’t be understood except in retrospect, tjere is an impending economic collapse during a global pandemic of SARS-2-CoV-19.

In 2003, SARS, also a coronavirus with a death toll of 800 shocked the world. It was also geographically from China, whos government covered it up and only afterward lent any credulity to its own image in admission. They clearly can’t see what everyone else does, and vice versa. But the weight of this lie and a lack of followup or oversight created a perfect storm for what’s currently catalyzed across borders. There is hardly inattention, but hardly anyone who paid attention either. Or else, the promise to better things like refrigeration in an outdoor food market selling raw meats should have actually happened 18 years ago.

The antibodies, without knowing the actual antibody response as immunity ranges from total immunity to getting sicker next time?
The first episode with SARS had antibody response which reduced 50% over two years. Then the remaining half would expire residuay over the next 10 years. I researched this early on during the absolute bullshit conception of herd immunity toward a flu for SARS in the spring of 2020.

This virus, from the same origin. The origin or spread which was promised to be dealt with in policy toward food markets in the same country? The lack of adherence or oversight lead to this. COVID-19 has a 3 month average antibody response, except in the 1/3 of people who won’t develop one. The severity of symptoms has done nothing but increase since we heard the news in January of 2020.

The little silver lining on this dark cloud is that harm reduction, and thus at least where I am. The war on drugs is about to come to a close. I fucking hope so. A federal Ministry of Mental Health and Addictions was announced in Canada just 3 days ago. There’s much more then that clincher to it all, but I have hope.
1) Move Your Hands To The Music.
2) Watch Your Hands.
3) Let Your Body Follow Suit.

Finnegan's Wake Is Excellent As Well.


Of Course, No One Can Understand All Of It. I Have Read That James Joyce Employed Words From Over 70 Different Languages.

Obscene? Hardly!

I actually paid $70 USD for 2 × 125 mg mdma.hcl pure caps in smurf blue and white capsules in Atlanta back in the day and then gave one away to Nathan from Mississippi. I was glad to! Our crank was really impure that night and kept melting, though. : t

Live and learn.
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