Addiction is not some perjoritive term that is thrown around to insult people- addiction is a self-destructive and ultimately purposeless psychological condition where you over-value obtaining drugs/taking drugs/the effects of drugs to the extent that you stop prioritising other things in your life.
The real danger of methoxetamine addiction is not so much destroying your bladder or your brain (though I get the feeling that arylcyclohexylamines are fairly destructive in general), it's about destroying relationships with people who you care about and who care about you, it's about losing a firm enough grip on reality to be able to concieve of meaningful goals (concrete achievements, not hyper-abstract 'dissociative achievements' that generally amount to nothing in the real world), it's about spending hours trying to think up the 'perfect formula' for drug abuse- that simultanously allows for a normal life as well as chronic dissociative abuse.
I don't mean to be preachy, but these threads have gotten progressively scarier and scarier as time as passed- I agree with IAmMe90. I'm speaking from experience- when I used methoxetamine heavily, even though I held down a good job and continued to socialise and whatnot I was drifting further and further away from reality and the dissociatives were slowly sending me insane. I was narscissistic, manic, delusional, aggressive...all without knowing it at the time. I was driving a huge wedge between myself and my friends because of my increasingly insane behaviour, I was losing my partner because I wasn't actually living in the same dimension as her- all without having a fucking clue.
Dissociatives are a lot like cannabis- not in the least bit addictive, but habituating. Powerfully habituating. And chronic dosing of methoxetamine (and like 80% of the doses listed on this thread I would consider 'high/chronic dosing') over any period of time seems to cause the build up of long-acting metabolites, so you're high all the time. My lips were numb, not vascular constriction numb, but rather 'I just smoked just the right amount of PCP' numb for about 4 weeks after I stopped my methoxetamine/ketamine binge.
I crave heroin, but I don't give into that yearning because I want to be clean and I don't want to fuck up my poppy tea taper. I'm so close to being free of my fucking opiate addiction. And once I'm clean I'm gonna crave opiates, I'm gonna crave them long after the PAWS has gone away and everything. But I don't want to give into these cravings and there is nothing making you act on your cravings. YOu can't do anything about your cravings, but you have absolute control over how you respond to your cravings. Denying that is using the same arguements paedophiles use to justify their crimes- 'it's not my fault I'm only attracted to kids, I have cravings!'. It isn't an excuse for that and it isn't an excuse for this.
The drugs aren't the problem- what the drugs are almost undoubtably doing to your life and your interpersonal relationships is either a problem or is going to become a problem. Balance is important. Being able to enjoy being sober is important. Being able to resist cravings is important. Self mastery is a virtue, being enslaved to your desires is a vice.
