Bit more then a basic question.. although i would love to hear input on this. This feeling of 'mental intelligence' is beyond anything i've ever experienced in my past years of tripping.
This is what LSD is to me,
what I fell in love with, the first time.
i call it "cognitive dexterity".
I am gifted to some degree with a natural proficiency at the construction and analysis of complex theoretical or abstract systems, relationships and their interactions.
Probability, possibility, causality and logical implications within and of events and systems are things I consider and "view" intuitively, modelling the world and basing my actions, to some degree, on supposed logical probability.
I do not mean like using statistics to work out the most probably efficient way of investing on the stock market,
but rather as instinctively "seeing" concepts, events, people, purposes and ideas as "chains of events" or
trees.
To what useful effect I have put this natural tendency could be argued,
but I always did like it.
It is quite symbolic for me, I have loved considering these things for as long as I can remember. It was the thing that made me different to other people (in my own eyes, the way i think defines me).
I sensed that it was beneficial in understanding the world.
being as intuition, the style and mechanics of the modelling and analysis became naturally ingrained.
I would've been happy to have simply expanded the scope, to be able to see more of the "big picture", at once. To me, everything is relative, and so irrelevant without context.
Context is everything, the greatest breadth of consideration and observation comes at the limit of that cognitive dexterity, which I am currently able to harness.
LSD deconstructed the way I thought, and allowed me to consider and rebuild it, as if I had no prejudices from my life, but with all the experiences.
As I got older, the less my logical analysis was applied to myself.
Then that acid showed me what I had learned,
things I should've realised a while ago, but "missed" because of some foolsih assumption or denial.
I re-realised the best way to think,
then I re-realised the best things to think about,
Then I just sat and implemented these things.
After that, I just thought.... and it was beautiful.
I felt like a little kid again.
A wonder at the elegant reiteration of the
trees.
The unexpected refreshment of suddenly becoming conscious of counter-productive habits and intellectual laziness that had crept up on me,
and the satisfaction of shedding that inefficiency of which I was unaware.
And the visual-cognitive synergy that reminded me of moments of surreal genius.
seeing a seed grow into all the different possible trees, representative of "real" events and factors,
fractals representing dispersion and interaction between ideas, forces and events.
It was surprising, because I wanted nothing more in the world, than that acid trip, and I had no idea.