Sounds like your in a pretty bad place right now. Try to stay positive, I know it can be hard. I think you should avoid experimenting with new substances until you get things a little more sorted out. I have no experience with opiods, but plenty with addiction. I'm sure they'd dull the pain but at a cost you can't afford (literally and metaphoricly).
Psychedelic drugs I beleive can show you a lot about yourself, your consciousness, your perceptions, all kinds of things. But in order to get the most out of this you really need to be in a "good place" psychologicaly to begin with.
May I ask, are you on a path of self destruction? You mention suicide, you've "considered opiod addiction.", and your considering using LSD? Seriously, just don't do anything rash.
Psychedelic drugs I beleive can show you a lot about yourself, your consciousness, your perceptions, all kinds of things. But in order to get the most out of this you really need to be in a "good place" psychologicaly to begin with.
May I ask, are you on a path of self destruction? You mention suicide, you've "considered opiod addiction.", and your considering using LSD? Seriously, just don't do anything rash.