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You Might Be A Junkie If... v. Oops, I nodded with the needle still in.

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When you simply can't take the necessary medication when in hospital.
When you are high and dirt looks become natural to you.
When you don't care if you have showered or not.
 
Has someone already said having small blood splatters all over your bathroom wall, ceiling, and mirror? probably, but i don’t have time to read everything. lol.
 
Alcohol or opiates. When you've lost control of your use but are certain that you haven't.
And really believe with all your heart that you can deal with that. Or that you can stop anytime.
That's classic.
 
You might be a junkie if...

You've shared needles with someone you suspect is Hep C positive.

The gift card exchange knows you on a first name basis.

You owe multiple people money.

Spilling your last bit of dope on the floor is the worst feeling ever.

If you'd rather have two broken legs than deal with withdrawal.
 
Yeah...^^^...2 broken legs means flowing scripts:/...I'd like to say it's a tough choice but the fact that it probably wouldn't be if it came right down to it is just fucking depressing.
 
ChasinDaDragon said:
You might be a junkie if...

You've shared needles with someone you suspect is Hep C positive.

The gift card exchange knows you on a first name basis.

You owe multiple people money.

Spilling your last bit of dope on the floor is the worst feeling ever.
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^ When you pull your last bit of dope from the floor because your hands were trembling.
 
Everyday is just one more time. The last one.
When you are convinced you could start again tomorrow for sure.
 
Welcome to BL Killakai09 and hippy9! ;)

I'm sure I understood your posts but it's good to have you on board.
 
Papaverium said:
When the amount of time you spend high becomes less than the amount of time spent withdrawing.
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I remember being high but more intensely the withdrawals.

When the high is not high enough. When your tolerance is so big that you risk yourself everyday.
When you realize how many things you could have purchased with money you used on drugs.
The math is right every time. You just can't believe you managed to spend that much.
 
TheRapperGoneBad said:
If your in line at the methadone clinic as you type this.
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I'm so happy I'm off the done. I'm chipping nowadays , still the possibilty of getting a free daily mu-agonist has me fiending sometimes but I just buy a couple of pills and remember how shitty the high is compared to (dia)morphine and codeine.
 
Getting off methadone was my greatest victory ever!! But it's a harsh life after 15 years on opiates. 8 of them with methadone.

It's been almost 11 months sober. Although you get your life back, it's a bit messy to make it all right again.

I had believed that after a couple of months of agony, withdrawals, panic, depression beyond all things would be enough but it is not.

I had achieved a lot, committed to exercise, hobbies, eating well. Life gets better in very slow pace. 3 steps forward, 2 back. Insomnia. Loneliness.

Keeping myself busy doing anything all the time. I'm on my lack of creativity + lethargic phase.

I have to rebuilt everything again. From bottom to top, inside out. Family, work, friends, emotions.
Forgive myself. I'm committed to a 2 volunteering activities. But failing on motivation, specially at work.

I'm truly grateful but it's damn hard. Very hard indeed.

I'd never thought I'd gonna say this. But help me God! I'm not religious but whatever it takes.
 
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