it's amazing how one little pill can make you feel SO much better when you are sick/withdrawing. just 1 hour ago i was in 28+ hours deep with no opiates. i took a drive up to my connect for methadone/suboxone and he wasn't answering the door, which made my withdrawals twice as bad. luckily, i had called ahead to my other connect for dope and told him to meet me at my methadone connects house. well finally my connect answers the door and i waited 10 minutes for my dope connect (dope over methadone, c'mon) and he didn't show so i bought 20mg's methadone for $X (northeast, boston area). i took the methadone instantly, it's the wierd feeling you get when you know you are going to be OK, as soon as i swallowed the pills i was feeling alot better. now about an hour later my dope connect calls saying WTF but i really don't give a shit because the methadone just kicked in and i'm feeling 'normal' again with a nice little buzz.
then i get to do it all over again tomorrow.
so sick and tired of being sick and tired.
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