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Why don't people stay on benzos for life?

It is about ideology I think. Ideally nobody should have to take hard drugs daily to feel content and satisfied. It has something to do with freedom, even if that sounds paradoxical after all that I wrote :) So staying relatively clean for me is a legitimate aim in life. There is no point other than that really. In the end this is a drug related forum and I should not expect, that everyone in here is getting close to be straight edge or willing to be, but sometimes it appears to me that both distopias from "1984" and "Brave New World" combined are already ongoing for years and get worse by the day, when I read through this and other boards. And then I play the anti pole in discussions, someone has to. ;)

The world depicted in Brave New World is coming closer and closer to our reality; i often embrace drugs for transcendence, for productivity, give into materialism, embrace this throw away culture and generally am apathetic to the system as a whole. It's that scary prediction that people will come to know these issues and embrace them anyway that is a bit troubling. I do see the similarities with big pharma basically pushing to have everyone on either benzos, opiates, antidepressants, or especially stimulants. There's a solid argument against embracing such a world and that people should fight for their sobriety to prevent further oppression or complacency. As well, to prevent the world from going mad on amphetamines and benzos.

i can agree that it's a bit fucked up the way the world is going and the fact that i don't really give a shit, which is just like being in the Brave New World but i'm not sure whether to fight it or embrace it. Hedonism isn't the answer but i don't even know what the question is, let alone the answer.

Instead of aiming to be clean of all drugs, i'll aim to avoid complacency and systemic oppression, but i'll probably still be high while doing so anyhow, well not high but no anxiety and plenty of focus lol. In some weird way i understand your post completely, it screams cognitive dissonance into my head but rationally i agree it's about ideology. If a combo of benzos/amphetamines is like soma for the masses, then it's rather likely we'll end up in the very world Huxley predicted, i think we need a better drug for that to happen though but i can certainly envision such a world, not many people would even oppose it. The idea that this runs contradictory to freedom even makes sense, as drugs will essentially enslave us rather than free us.

Why don't people stay on benzos for life? because it sucks to be on benzos for life.
 
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The first drug I tried was oxycodone (besides alcohol), then weed but the only time I've taken benzos was when given by a psychiatrist. I was 17 at the time, a very dear friend of mine was killed (got jumped by 5 pieces of shit with bats who decided to bash his brains in...pronounced dead on arrival). I was already doing narcotics and I think I even went on methadone around this time, it was 1 month before high school exams, i stoped going to school (took a year or so break) and the narcotics for the first time weren't the cure all, nor was drinking. I would be stoned and high on nod out doses of various opioids however I had exceed my limit by then as the only narcs doing something were fentanyl and heroin, rarely oxy b/c I needed too much.

This friend in question may he rest in peace was like an older brother and mentor to me, I looked up to him and always respected what he said, we had about 20-40 close friends in the building and we would always be together but he was the one who introduced me to the rest.

Right during that period from when he died up the funeral I was getting a sensation over my mind and body and knew it wasn't wds, was very shocking to me as I didn't know what it was.

Psysically I would be sweating, feeling my heart punding and hearing it beat, felt an incrrease in tension, felt couldnt only take small breaths which makes it impossible to relax. Pacing up and down or opening windows gasping for air (and I have the red and blue puffers).
Mentally I felt insecure since this kind of thing was happening and didnt know what to make out of it. I would be okay then a small trigger would have me gasping for air like the room was getting smaller by the minute. I felt a high degree of panick and anxiety and obsessed about the smallest things as if it every problem was the end of the world and felt low, depressed (i didnt see a purpose to my life, thats how close friends we were). I isolated myself from good friends, cool and pretty girls, basically from going anywhere other than the corner store for cigs (a 1 min walk) and to get weed (a 2 min walk). I developed a strong hate and disgust for poeple (innocent) that would get in my path and I became more aggressive towards random strangers and such things! It got worse, my narcotic use increased, psychologically I was an emotional mess, I delevoped an enourmous distrust of everybody (people) and not only distrust and apathy however my pananoia was out of this world (at the time I wasnt taking neither stimulants nor psychedelics). From walking down the street and thinking someone was looking wrong at me, I would confront them and look for fights; I was filled with anger/rage. I felt like petard or a walking molotov cocktail ready to explode any second.
The worst it got was during that period was my paronoia climbed up to the extent I would have at least 1 knife in one sock and a 2nd knife in the other sock AT ALL TIMES when leaving the house, including school (which i barely attended at that point) or even for 1min walk to the convenience store and back, it never left without me, also I reached the point where I slept with a knife under my pillow and another one within hands reach under the bed.

When I started on benzos during this period (in proper doses not too much just right...like I said prescribed dosages) they were MAGICAL especially for what I was going through, panick attacks aside I felt like I had a bit of hope on them in terms of being sociable (i turned down antidepressants) and obviously less inhibited or easier to reintegrate in society. However after about 6-8 months they didn't do the same thing anymore (just like weed/alcohol, meaning you can drink/smoke and youll still have a good time like get stoned or drunk but not like first couple times for sure).

The reason I dont want to be on benzos my whole life is b/c ive already been on benzos since 05-13= 8yrs which i havent skipped 1 day without taking at least 4mg cloanzepam. During that 8yr time I can assure you 10000% I have memory and cognitive problems, I have friends and aquintances that work/study/go to school, who dont take benzos but smoke 2x more weed than I do and still have a better memory.

Also if your asking this question you obviously havent't read anything concerning their pharmacoloy pharmakinetic, side effects and so do yourself a favour and read on this topic. I simply suggest wikipedia benzodiazepine in the longer term to be specific they are neurotoxic and never good on the kidneys and liver, plus psychological/biological changes (some permanent).

p.s. It is my personal opinion as well as in general that benzos do not be used everyday (if possible) and not to make a habbit like taking your vitamins b.c thats how most people's magic was lost. Taking it only when you need is best and understandable. Also since 2004 after I realized what benzos were (stared with xanax and cloanzepam) i've now I've tried over 20-25, lol.
 
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Personally I have found it having multiple benefits in my life, I've been on it 10 years and cite it as one the very few Drugs that aided in getting me through a psychosis, anger issues and insomnia.
I don't plan on getting off this Drug, nor does it seem as if my Doctor is aiming to take me off.
I was on Ativan prn 4 times a day, and recently decided to switch to Klonopin 4 time PRN, never experiencing a diminishing effect.

Now even on Methadone maintenance I still am on my Benzo script, and in time will aim to finally reach 5 PRN, quite high but considering the time I've been on it, I don't see a problem. I'll ask my Doctor for it in a few Months, as it's during time of sleep I'll wake up in a daze and take that extra one that causes problems due to having throwing my dose out of balance, thus having less than I should a few days before seeing him. Then as a plus, I'd have quite a deal extra to stock up on, which I never view as a bad thing.

I've been on plenty of Anti-Psychotics Doctors dish out constantly that have caused far more damage, at one point within over a year I gained nearly 100 pounds, still was delusional and had many other problems because of such drugs.
I felt better getting off those meds, staying on a low dose of an alternative Anti-Psychotic, and using my Benzo's, which literally are like the silver bullet when something triggers a form of short lived Psychosis, getting out of the environment and taking two Benzo's brings me back down and allows me to relax and my mind to stop racing.

They feel pleasant as well, which I see as a benifit despite others thinking it a negative, so long as you're not downing huge amounts a day (as some people I've known do as it is their drug of choice, and if that's their thing, that's their thing, but you're risking safety at this point, again, the persons decision) I don't see it as a danger, and a great way to take the edge off at the end of the day.

So all in all, I'm very much in favor of this drug and do believe especially when one has been on it for such a long period of their life, it should never be removed, and as generally is the case, the longer one is on it, the higher it can occasionally get bumped. Overall, though it sounds high (and I've known plenty on higher) 5 PRN would be ideal for me, but 4 PRN is pretty damn close.
 
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It is about ideology I think. Ideally nobody should have to take hard drugs daily to feel content and satisfied. It has something to do with freedom, even if that sounds paradoxical after all that I wrote :) So staying relatively clean for me is a legitimate aim in life. There is no point other than that really. In the end this is a drug related forum and I should not expect, that everyone in here is getting close to be straight edge or willing to be, but sometimes it appears to me that both distopias from "1984" and "Brave New World" combined are already ongoing for years and get worse by the day, when I read through this and other boards. And then I play the anti pole in discussions, someone has to. ;)

If you got by for years with that lifestyle I believe you, when you say, you can handle it well. I wish, that you can go on with the same results for much longer and would be the last one, that wishes you negative experience. Just take care and practice moderation.

@Brutus,

You can close this if this thread is about me suddenly. Abuse of power is a common act in internet boards.

@Ho-Chi-Minh

Sorry to play the Nazi again, but I do not consider socio-anthro-culturally subjects having anything to do with science at all.

What?

Your stance isn't cohesive to say the least. Why not summarize it. Are you saying that drugs are a worse solution than not?

No, no one has to play the devil's advocate.

This 'straight edge' carries the same connotation of superiority that your 'clean', which you refuse to grant me (though I don't care for your opinion), does. Talk about elitism. And ironically you throw in brave new world and 1984.

What's worse? Clarity please.
 
Man, this discussion is based on misunderstandings now. I am not clean. I take drugs often. I am not belonging to the "Straight Edge" - movement and probably won't for a long time. But I don't see a problem in having the long-term aim of getting clean to the point of not consuming any monoamine/GABA manipulating substance anymore. For me, you are not clean if you take amp/benzos daily. For you, you are clean. I cannot provide evidence; neither you can. Facts : You can die from a slight benzo OD, you have to be careful with combinations, you can die from the WD. Now go on taking them (plus the amphetamine) everyday for life and feel clean.

Your drug usage is not my cup of tea. I don't judge you because of it. Let's not board this thread ;)

PS :

If you study Anthropology, Sociology or <x> Culture you will not receive a degree with the predicate "Science", but rather with "Arts". That is why I do not consider any paper belonging to those fields as "Science".

@ RobotRipping, thanks for summarizing your sophisticated standpoint. Now I have a better understanding. If I was a native speaker perhaps I could discuss with you on that level and could put my infamous opinion into less offending sentences. :)
 
I'm currently not prescribed to a Benzo but I wish to get off Zoloft, for many reasons, and be put onto something less radical.

Preferably Valium or some K-Pins, hell, I'll even take Xanax.
 
I'm currently not prescribed to a Benzo but I wish to get off Zoloft, for many reasons, and be put onto something less radical.

Preferably Valium or some K-Pins, hell, I'll even take Xanax.

From a personal point of view, I'd recommend adding a low-dose PRN benzo to see how you react. If you're on the zoloft exclusively for anxiety, you're more likely to do well with a benzo (preferably longer-lasting, possibly a combination of standing diazepam and PRN lorazepam / alprazolam). If you're diagnosed / have been depressed in the past, however, benzos can occasionally make depression worse. They did for me when I was on them and zoloft alone, but adding wellbutrin was like finding the missing piece of the puzzle for me.

Definitely discuss it with your doctor and inquire about wellbutrin if the SSRI's side effects are what make you want to get off of them. A bunch of people hate SSRI side effects at higher dosages and find they feel much better with something more atypical like wellbutrin.
 
You're wrong though. The social SCIENCES uses statistics to reach conclusions just as much as the hard sciences. Clean in the sense that I'm using is scientific. The difference between you and I is that I'm speaking from the relative anthropological viewpoint whereas you're coming from a purely mathematical perspective.

I realize the path our discussion has taken isn't directly relevant to this threads original intention but I also believe in the value of honest, frank, intelligent conversations, ones like these, ones that bluelight ostensibly fosters. If need be, it could be moved, but people deserve the opportunity to see the reasoning play out, that's why I'm not pm'ing you.
 
When i left rehab I was taking
600mg of Seroquel
1800mg of neurontin
7.5 of Remeron
900mg of lithium
Perioctin (strong ant-histamine)

I was also a smoker and a chewer. At the time I needed that much medication. They considered me 28 days clean when I left. Some of the people here would say the neorontin is a gaba drug and can be abused so no I wasn't clean. But what if I took everything on that list except the Neurontin. Would I be clean then?
 
You're wrong though. The social SCIENCES uses statistics to reach conclusions just as much as the hard sciences. Clean in the sense that I'm using is scientific. The difference between you and I is that I'm speaking from the relative anthropological viewpoint whereas you're coming from a purely mathematical perspective.

I realize the path our discussion has taken isn't directly relevant to this threads original intention but I also believe in the value of honest, frank, intelligent conversations, ones like these, ones that bluelight ostensibly fosters. If need be, it could be moved, but people deserve the opportunity to see the reasoning play out, that's why I'm not pm'ing you.

the social sciences are flawed for that reason though. Even the scientific method can't overcome its reliance on empiricism to the point where something can be stated as absolutely true. We only know what we can measure or perceive, that is in itself liable to error. The social sciences are subject to additional issues, especially using just statistics, they must be scrutinized and reproduced consistently to hold any weight and even then, there are no absolute claims that can be made. It's easy to show correlation but nearly impossible to prove causation with the social sciences. We see trends, patterns and can make predictions but it's not near as rigorous as a hard science nor near as reliable. The laws of physics and logic are also subject to change.

Ziiirp was setting up a logical argument (using predicate logic) for a working definition of being 'clean'. Which is admirable but doesn't really have relevance to this thread. Maths and logic do collide but that's just predicate logic being used, not pure maths.

I think essentially this is the argument:

1. Ideally, there is no reason for everyone to be on drugs to survive or function in this world

Argument for this premise: in the past humans did not require daily benzos/amphetamines/opiates to survive and function in this world
Counter argument: society has changed in such a way that such drugs are sometimes required for people to function in it.

2. If the counter-argument is true then that brings us to the Brave New World issue, where drugs are used as tools to enslave people by keeping them complacent, happy and oppressing their objections to a corrupt system, because essentially their core needs are satisfied.


That is by far the best argument i've seen to not use amphetamines/benzos/opiates/drugs daily. That is why one would aim to be relatively clean of drugs that especially affect you cognitively and socially. Drugs often immobilize people socially and politically by either creating apathy or just enough happiness for one not to provoke change or challenge the status quo.

The war on drugs itself is a facade as drug use increases and more and more drugs are available, perhaps this is intentional? a complacent, happy, useless mass of consumers living in a throw away culture will bring tremendous capital to the state or the elite/capitalists. With this power they can then enact a system to ensure they gain more power and more capital to put a system in place to reign supreme.

If you look at the US for example, what is in place is essentially a loose caste system already, where the elite stay that way, the poor stay poor and people in the middle stay in their respective spots. There is room for social mobility but not a whole lot.

Big pharma produces many many drugs alongside a flourishing illegal drug trade, more and more people get on these drugs and become happy/satisfied with their shitty lives, won't even care that they are at the bottom of the totem pole because their basic needs are met through materialism, drug use, sexuality and a false sense of freedom.

That is the scary direction the world is going. Big pharma and the drug war bring in more and more capital to the elite who further oppress those below them. To prevent revolution, the social elite systemically get everyone on drugs that make them embrace this world, amphetamines for productivity, benzos/opiates for complacency, antidepressants so people don't care that their life sucks and antipsychotics for the radical thinkers (we can even class them as savages like in the Brave New World). Illegal drugs fill in the rest. It's clear the drug war has failed but it continues because it generates capital as well as enslaves people. For example, look at incarceration rates for african americans, the cocaine/crack sentencing discrepancy, plenty of other examples already.

This system keeps everyone happy and sounds like a utopia except people lose their freedom entirely to change who they are. They are born into a system where immediately they are placed in a social class where they will remain forever, as will their kids and grand children. Drugs are then a tool of enslavement and oppression. How do we fight this? by aiming to remain relatively sober, relatively clean, to recognize this problem and somehow fight against it. However, if you're on methadone/xanax/methamphetamine every day, are you really going to fight it? I know i wouldn't, which is the issue itself.

it's an abstract argument but one that is coherent. It may not be necessarily the case that Huxley's predictions come true, an objection to this is that a large majority of people who use drugs do not become addicted to them anyway, so as a tool for enslavement, they aren't entirely effective. in the future a drug like 'soma' could be created though, a drug that is part psychedelic, benzo, opiate and stimulant that can be used every single day. That drug would be the downfall of all of humanity and would undermine freedom itself.

TL;DR sorry that was so long.
 
See the thread about whats it means to be clean. People have varying opinions. I don't get high, just normal. Is it fair to insult me so? I've gone through more in ten years than most have in a lifetime in terms of bad experiences so please don't act like I don't deserve my medicine. With it, I can be a productive member of society; no one loses.

Yes, I'm clean.
You, are , not clean my friend. Sorry to break it to you, and neither am i. Even though i take a super low dose of clonazepam daily to keep away withdrawals, we are not clean. The meds may be helping you, but do not be blind. Keep it real
 
You, are , not clean my friend. Sorry to break it to you, and neither am i. Even though i take a super low dose of clonazepam daily to keep away withdrawals, we are not clean. The meds may be helping you, but do not be blind. Keep it real

People going to psychiatrist with severe mental health issues and taking benzos as prescribed is not the same as drug use. I'm guessing you just want to say everyone is a drug user because of an inner-conflict about your own motives. Legitimate medical need accompanied with a legitimate prescription is not drug use its taking your medication.

All in all I've spend well over 2 months in the psych ward. During my second longest stay (20 days) they weaned me down to 10mg of valium and some Neorontin when I was discharged. Long story short I ended up spending 40 days in the psych ward after that. This is where they forced me off the benzos and I lost it. I left there in a manic state and decided to never take any meds again. I then spent the next few months a miserable alcoholic in and out of the hospital. Finally I decided to get back onto a low dose and have cut back my drinking, stayed out of the mental hospital, and have felt stable again. I never feel high from my pill and most days I forget to take it for a couple hours because its not a craving its just something that helps me deal with a severe anxiety disorder.

90 percent of the world consumes caffeine, most without legitimate medical need. Are we going to call them all drug users or say they are unclean? Seriosly this shit is rediculous. Grow up and stop trying to exaggerate and say everyone is a drug addict just because you are\where.
 
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I will try to make it short this time.

First off. Why do you think a single pill, that hits similar receptors as alcohol can solve your "severe mental health issues" ? The answer is : It will not heal anything. It will prevent you from reflecting your problems and stops the healing process in the end. It more or less exists to exploit you.

Based on the provided info I would conclude that you are CURRENTLY the Benzo addict prototype, whose addiction is not self-imposed but created by the ignorance and greed of the industry (the evil people :D). Everyone can change. The first step is to stop trusting psychatrists. They lack the necessary compassion to help another being with their problems (does not mean that I am lovely at all, I just reveal a piece of my version of the truth). Seek help in religion/spiritualism (the good people :D) instead. It won't be easy to find honest seekers. Perhaps you will have to leave the country, perhaps the righteous people are your neighbors already.

Just a few hints on the manipulative baiting initiated by the industry :

They create a contradictory 2 caste society :
- drugs vs. medication
- no insurance vs. insurance
- addict vs. patient
- street vs. pharmacy
- dealer vs. M.D.
- dealers advocate vs. psychatrist
- war on drugs vs. selling Benzos, Amphetamine and Opiates like Icecream

That is not to glorify street dealers, contrarily I am saying that the medical department creates as much, if not more damage in the population as street drugs.

It obviously affected you and others in their thinking, which is scary. Yes there are therapists, that can help you, but I would not count people, that want you to get addicted to Benzos to that group !

btw. : Every coffee-drinker is a drug user per definition, no problem in that, he won't die in WD ;)
 
A psychiatrist is a doctor with even more years of school.

If you have a mental illness will religion fix that? I'm still curious what religion you practice.
 
No, they do not have the same core education as for instance an oncologist, surgeon or orthopedist share.

EDIT :

I won't tell you, ask via P.M., perhaps I will answer, perhaps not.
 
Okay, then let's get petty-minded. In most cases, people are redirected from a psychologist with recommendations for drug prescriptions, that the psychiatrist just has to sign. The workload does not allow a deeper analysis of the patient. I am still sure in most countries the education of a psychiatrist is not equivalent to that of a doctor, that can heal life-threatening injuries or stem terminal diseases.
 
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