I'm gonna say Bromazolam was my least favorite of all the GABA drugs I've tried. I loved phenibut for it's mild, long activity and synergy with psychedelics, all benzos go well with any stims IMO even if they suck. Loved pregabalin at doses up to about 1500 mg, I'd go get groceries and feel incredibly loose and euphoric but no swerve like a high dose of xanex or etizolam.
I made a bad choice not long ago and hit a full gram of bromazolam whilst binging harder on meth than I had eve imagined I could... I got hacked and decided I needed to stay up for as long as possible and spend every possible moment remediating the situation. All my active devices and all my accounts aside from my bank accounts got hit because I changed all my passwords due to the somewhat recent 16 billion password and credential hack a while back. So I erred on the side of caution pre incident and at least they didn't empty my lines of credit.
But I think I picked up 7 grams of meth 3 times and half an oz once. Flushed 8 grams once and steadily dovetailed my meth binge use with massive doses of bromazolam to keep the cardiac sides at bay, also taking Viagra and Cialis to help combat vasoconstriction. I finally got a new sim card, phone number, chased the fuckers away but had to constantly reset passwords and contact help from all the account remediation services for all my fucking social media, Microsoft, Google. I was absolutely relentless and I could see the hackers sleep patterns as I stated up for up to 3 days at a time. It was the most reckless drug use ive ever engaged in. Oh ya and they threatened to come to my house and dismember me, so I prepared a pressurized weed sprayer with a torch and some Naphta to spray at a group of up to 4 guys, carried a knife everywhere for a while and took my daily walks with a 10 lb sledge hammer I use for shoulder mobility exercises (I carried it anyways before the exercise to be honest but it at this point served a dual purpose). It was war, I was ready to kill these fucks and I was actively doing OSINT and hunting until a close friend told me to give it up after my accounts stopped fucked with. It was a fucked up month to say the least.
Anyway, a gram of bromazolam will keep you alive during a month long 1 oz meth binge I guess. Never thought I'd be able to tell anybody that from first hand experience.
But back to the benzos, bromazolam on its own (I tried it in place of my ole favourite etizolam that is had the last of a 5 gram batch of not long before this) it left me unable to move properly, like I was swimming in jello, slow slurring speech patterns, thoughts slow and muddy, hard to complete sentences once pushed to what I was expecting to be a nice recreational dose (I think about 4 ish mg? My memory on the dose at the time is hazy). My thoughts came to me as slow and clumsily as my fucking ability to command my limbs, blink was delayed (like not synchronizing 2 eye blinks, it was whack) and the sensation of being barred out *usually* feels nice to me but this was just frustrating and debilitating. Although I could remember the whole experience clearly which is odd.
The monster doses only started after the meth started, steady 5 mg every few hrs, smoking meth out of an elbow bubble attached to a 1.5L bottle as a crude bong setup for Monster hoots with a big Coleman camping torch to blast, water and everything like a psycho. Had the fucking thing in my SUV when I went out places sometimes too packed with ice in the bottom spiked with watermelon cool aid squeeze for a nice flavored hoots. Psychotic right lol.
Anyway, I stopped the meth and then ran REAL low on the bromaz, did not taper correctly and had 2 seizures. Ended up in hospital and actually dislocated and broke my left shoulder from falling flat on my fuckin side, first time at home off a chair, second time on the concrete floor at the hospital. So ya, bromazolam is the worst IMO, no real recreational value. Almost every other benzo I've ever tried at the right dose actually clears my head and helps me think clear, a little more makes for a nice swerve, and I historically liked mixing a beer or 2 with low to medium dose of benzos and a few dexadrine to sit down and jam out on some videogames for a few hrs.
I miss etizolam. And now I have a little bit of a meth addiction, but reading the forums is helping me make some sense of what's happening neurologically.
I'm on semax and Selank to help iron out some of the obvious brain damage the binge has caused, and I'll likely try my Meantime I've been sitting on a gram of for about 5 ish years (idk why but I've been nervous to try it, Makes 0 sense after the horror story I just detailed to my BL fam...) alas I am an imperfect being.
Now I have like a quarter oz of speed and 2 grams of avisaphone and I'd like to shelf it and make a conservative dose schedule for the occasional night out or game night in.
But that's enough of my rambling. I do love a good speedball. Fucking ADHD and executive function is such a bitch lol
Oh ya and the zopliclone "blue canoes" were some of my first benzo experiences. 2 of those and a few shots of hard liquor and man, anxiety evaporated. I guess that was a big attraction for me to the class is the anti anxiety aspect. The temporary bliss is extremely desirable to me being so high strung naturally. And temazepam also has a special place in my heart due to its ability to take the Edge off LSD high without killing the visuals.
That was the only thing I disliked about etizolam, it always completely ended the visual aspect of the psychedelic high, unlike in my experience phenibut which added synergistic effects and xanex which was neutral on visual but smoothed out the edginess of the peak of say a tryptamine experience or LSD high.
Honokiol was a pretty interesting one, very clear headspace, not a high feeling at all but clean, focused and sober. Like "extra" sober if that makes any sense. It's magnolia extract and it's also got some sort of cannabinoid effect albeit exceedingly mild, like white tea
GHB I also found Venice but prohibitively expensive and short acting, great for situations where you might have to drive in say like 4 ish hrs or whatever. Amazing for sex. Also I. the gay community its apparently a big deal "T & G" they call it. I understand why it might be a sex cocktail, meth makes you a sex freak and G also kinda can lean you that way if the vibe is right