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Right now in my life we've had the biggest snow dump of the year.
My car which is only a 1989 Dodge Aries SW with front wheel drive, studs all around and 2/5 lb bags of sand in the back is stuck in my drive-way. At least its off the road so the snowplows don't call it in and tow my car away. Which they have done before.
And shits still falling!
My plan is, before the sun rises at 10am or so,
instead of forward, me depending solely on my friends, will reverse the Station Wag out of here. This is a death trap. Cars come in here and never come out.
CAR 54 where are you?
 
Well I just chopped off my beautiful dreadlocks. But today is the last day I'm gonna smoke cigarettes! :)
 
My life- I'm trying to make the best of it with what I have. My best friend is moving out this weekend becuase she lost her job. I am not going to let this get me down though... I need to view it as more optimistic than my usual pesimistic ways. :] I look at it as an area of personal strengh and getting to know myself. I guess you could say a strive to be more independent and more aware of myself. On the flip side I met the most amazing person on New Year's Eve who is so incredible in every aspect and I thank God for him. He and I think alike and share similar views and are almost exactly the same which is cool because I've never met anyone like this before. He lives in Illinois and I live in Indy which is poop but I know that everything happens for a reason so I have to make the best of it. School starts back in two weeks which will take my total dedication which is cool. Trying to persue better relations with all my friends and be a better person. etc etc... :)
 
Everything in my life seems to be going pretty but I do have a lot on my mind lately. First - money... its an on going battle. I racked up some credit card debt, though it isnt really too horrible. But I want to get rid of it and I am constantly thinking of ways to do that. And it always seems as soon as I start making progress something always happens. For example something will go wrong with my car and I will have to spend the extra couple hundred on my car instead of putting it on credit card bills. Like right now something is wrong with my motor mount and two months ago it was my breaks and before that it was my transmission and steering... Its always something!
I am trying to graduate from college. I only go part time, so it seems like I will never get my degree, though I am starting to see some light at the end of the tunnel. I've been talking to my advisor and it seems I might be able to graduate by Dec 03 if everything works out. If not in Dec. then definately in May 04. At least I have a date in mind now, whereas before I had no clue.
Things with my boyfriend are going really well. I am so happy with him. He is so smart and loving and supportive. I feel so lucky to have someone as wonderful as him in my life. We have been living together for a few months now and everything is great. My family is healthy and doing well also, that is good. :)
 
Money's drained.
Reading books.
May switch major to BioTech.
Itching to roll.
Yoga. Pilates.
Still so in love I get stupid when he's around.
Looking for more friends all the time.
 
I'm humble
I've been running around like a chicken with its head cut off for a while now there is no denying it. I feel ashamed of some things, past some things, aware and willing, tired, funny-humble
Im smiling anyway. Work is going really well, they are very good to me and it keeps getting better- I keep taking on more responsibility and they are pleased. I'm suprised I've pulled it off with whats been going on in my life.
I seriously needed my mommy ;) She's getting old...it's weird. She's like an old grumpy lady who says whatever she thinks, makes me drive everywhere, and a little crazy. I think I'm going to take a class with her to get her to do something and hopefully broaden her little world. She also took the liberty of getting me a 2nd job-serving a few nights out of the week and some weekends at a Jewish deli/restaurant - I welcome it I could use the money, the company and the change.
I give up in a good way
[ 08 January 2003: Message edited by: Sweetpea ]
 
well, at age 19 i'm in my second year of college. i'm sticking with art history, and have become extremely interesting in philosophy.
i met my boy a few months ago, and things are great between us.
i have a good job, a good home, good rommates, good friends and a really good relationship with my parents.
it's been 2 years and 7 months since i've used any hard drugs...and i feel really good about it. i got started really young and really hard and i am happy to say that i'm alive.
i do think that i drink too much though
i quit smoking, i'm on day 22 or something...i'm proud.
i had a scare with cancer recently, and the ability to have kids, but it was just a scare and i feel quite fortunate to say that i'm completely heathly.
ups and downs. trying. it's going better than expected this year.
 
Well, suprise suprise, I am once again screwing up my life. I again feel as though I have no-one to turn to and no where to run! I am hating my life pretty much, I guess that is my excuse for getting fucked up so much!
The one person I want a relationship with is leaving in 2 weeks, and I won't get to see him until atleast September, Just my luck!
I have gotten top the point that I feel like I have no emotions, and can't even cry over stuff that I want to cry about. I need to quit the drugs, really just Ice! It is just messing with my head. The worst part is I realize it, but still keep doing it! Yeah, I guess I can say I have a problem.
I am moving though, and hopefully moving will work for me once! So back to NC I go!
***pounds head on desk***
Why can't my life just be normal, is there a normal life out there?
Am I not meant to ever just be happy? Oh wait, to be happy I have to be with myself, and I am far from that!
 
Tomorrow is the start of the spring semester at my university. I'm taking 15 hours, helping teach a course, and working 32 hours a week. I'm going to be one busy busy little boy.
I got a new car this weekend....a 2003 mitsubishi lancer. It's silver and hot as fuck. It's brand new, and I'm paying for it all by myself. I'm pretty proud, considering I have repaid a shitton of credit card debt to get me back to this point.
My bf of 9 months left tonight for Las Vegas for work. How nice...a job that takes him to Vegas for a week. I am so utterly and completely in love with him...kind of sick how much I miss him already.
I don't really know who all reads this thread, but I enjoy taking a glimpse into the lives of other bluelighters...felt like I should share too :)
Dr. J
 
I havnt smoked cigs in over 2 months, yay for me.
im very proud of myself. I get my car back which means i have to start looking for a job again, something with which i have a certain exictement and dread for. Since they can pull my old records from HS...it shows very poor attendance which worries me. so im hoping they dont do that. I have a shrink appt today which i will unload the absolute insanity of christmas..im very much looking forward to that. Im becoming more social which is awesome. since winter is kind of my downtime for being social. uhrm....i lost 10 pounds last time i went to the doctor which is also great, everything is going well, i just wish i had my old friends. i miss them soo much, but with them its out of sight out of mind i think, it makes mevery sad.
 
Hm.
Well I'm on my way to turning 22, which is a silly age to be... then again, anything past 21 really doesn't matter does it? I'm a senior at OSU getting my B.S., and I'll graduate in early December.
I have a big, detailed plan laid out for my future, which is very exciting to me- I'm pursuing pharmaceutical sales, and hope to end up on one of the coasts or Chicago (bye bye shite OHIO!!). I have a long, hard time ahead of me, considering that pharma is EXTREMELY difficult to break into, but I remain optimistic.
I'm currently living with a moron of a roommate in a huge townhouse. We have our issues, but the place is big enough for me to hide if I need to.
I have a great relationship with my parents. They do everything for me, and as I get older I realize how much they've sacrificed for me. I drive a free leased car, live for free in this townhouse, and go to school for free. I'm not trying to brag, I'm just amazed at how fortunate I am thanks to them. I'm an only child, and I'm worried about my mom's separation anxiety if I get relocated for a job, but I'm sure we'll get through it.
My personal life is average. Been single for 5 years, and in that time I've dated countless people, but nothing really significant. I'm content though, especially since I might be moving in the near future.
I currently have a handfull of really close friends and quite a few acquaintences/friends. I love my job and I make great money at it.
This past week I've been asked for my number by 3 very hot boys, and I also have a date for tomorrow night.
I go to the gym nearly every day and I am finally starting to see results!! :)
I guess thats about it. I'm a happy girl.
Kristen
 
Turned 30 a few months ago.
Reappraising life, not so into party scene, prefer to go out to dinner and drink wine or something ;)
Been on antidepressants for a few months, starting to work well, much more positive about life. Paranoia and fear starting to lift.
About to start my masters programme (in library and information science) part-time, while working full-time. Which will be busy. But work are going to refund my fees if I pass, which I will - so that's about US$4000 I saved myself right there :)
Enjoy my work, and there are some good people here. I'm learning a lot, and I seem to get a fair bit of respect for what I do.
My flatmate is driving me crazy, she has no clue how to look after herself (just leaves rubbish piled everywhere, tried to put out a stovetop fire with water - on an electric stove, etc).
So looking at moving soon.
On holiday/business to Australia for 3 weeks from Friday, get to see friends who I haven't seen in years, and meet some more Bluelighters.
 
holy.
fucking.
hell.
my exfiancee. we'll call him kyle, because kyle is his name...
left me a year ago. just disappeared.... this is 11 months ago... last february. i went to california (this has been an issue w/ us before) and when i came home... he was gone. couldnt get ahold of him, he moved shortly after... just VANISHED.
then in about june of july i recieved an offline message via yahoo from him, saying something similar to "i hope you are happy, you deserve to smile. i love you. goodnight".... and then gone again.
ive not really gotten over him, till just recently hes finally not all i think about, i dont focus on him, i try not to dwell on it and wonder what happened... then, he makes this reappearance on my buddy list again. i dont know why... but i refused to speak to him first. hes been back for at least 6 weeks...
and then last night he did it. i was outside having a cigarette... and i get back and i see a message from him saying "sup"... n that was it n i was like jesus holy fucking christ...
what in gods name gives him the right to just pop back and say "sup" like i saw him fucking yesterday... he said he was jsut checking up on me and wanted to say hi.. and how i was doing.... whahaatttt fucking right does he have??????????
*sigh*
sorry- just needed to put that somewhere, but doesnt need own topic...
 
Originally posted by djwhirlpool:
for the first time in years my life is making sense and pretty much everything in is is going great.
i have a retraction on this post.
things are pretty fucked up right now. i still have my job and the love of my life which i'm thankful for.
i can't really get into what the first thing is that's wrong, b/c i don't want everyone to know about it.
my parents now are sleeping in separate beds. it's so sad.
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so be easy on yourself if you need to breakdown, and remember when something that sad or tragic to you is going on it kinda spills all over the place.
My life lately seems to be charmed. At least that's the way I've been looking at it. I can't tell you how hard these past 2 years have been for me. All I can say for anyone struggling is that it passes.(make the changes you know you want) I feel much at peace with who I am and things I've been through. I respect myself so much more than I ever have. Im seeing firsthand that when I try for something I get it. I've finally bought a good working car, I'm working 2 jobs and never miss a day. I'm pretty hardworking, nice to realize one of my good qualities.(trust me I spent enough time feeling guilty for things that I wasn't proud of) I got another raise this week, and I still don't mind going to work. I have a lot to save and pay for and the truth is there is nothing better out there for me to do.
I don't move until February, but I feel comfortable with it like a student of life, which feels not rushed to me.
I also look forward to a baby, not pregnant and won't be for a long time but when I see them I want them but I know in time. A lot of my desire goes back to a 20 year old me losing a one day year old son. It's been residing deep down, put away for another time. A time that happens to be lately (not breaking into anything too deep here) :) but it's such a part of me I'd be bullshitting this thread if I didn't mention it.
I have a wonderful boyfriend :)
ah well things are getting better and I can't help but feel like my up is here and coming on even more because my down has been long and exhausting. I'm going to be 26 in April...oh my
[ 03 February 2003: Message edited by: Sweetpea ]
 
sweetpea- god, it is soo earie how our lives mirror each other....i could pretty much cut and paste many of your posts and call them my own. we really need to get together some time and discuss..well...life. :)
 
Well, a lot has happened in the past few months..
I recently moved up to Northern California. If you know anything about cali, its day compared the the night, Southern cali. Its such subtle cultural differences and outlooks on life here. It very refreshing.
So, I moved here to pursue my career in Culinary Arts. I am going to attend the CCA in Downtown San Francisco to be taught by master chefs around the world. Bonus thing is, I get to go to France after the program is done to complete the externship and apprenticeship.
I did also move up here for a new love, whom I hold close to my heart. <3
So, thats the news with me. Catch you all in a few more months with another update! :D
[ 19 January 2003: Message edited by: poezante ]
 
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