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Exams are done for my first semester back at school in 2 years. I really, really wanted a 4.0, but unless my two A+'s can make up for my 2 B+'s, that won't happen. But I know it is not the end of the world and I will just have to work harder next semester.
I am going home this weekend for Christmas for 2 weeks. My boyfriend's parents live in the same region as my parents, so we will just shuffle back and forth over the holidays. I cannot wait to go home. It's a 10 hour drive and we are bringing our cats. That should be trauma, but I think the car ride will be less traumatic than not having very much attention for 2 weeks.
I have resigned myself to a colder climate, but we haven't had much snow. I'm actually kind of disappointed, maybe there will be snow when we get back.
As usual, I am not 100% of what to do with my life, but I cannot let myself stress out about it. It will work itself out, right?
That's about it. Can't wait to see my friends and family! Oh, and we got a great deal on a condo in Whistler (ski resort) for New Years: FREE! Pays to know people. Merry Christmas!
 
It's been about 20 months since I lost everything and nearly ended up living on the streets. It's been a hell of a hard slog so far, trying to find money, hope and love inamoungst all the mess.
Being nearly 34 years old doesnt help either.
It's nearly 2 1/2 years since the divorce and the ex still considers me lower than shit... at least my realationship with my kids is 1000 times better now than it ever was. It's amazing how they love you no matter what
I finally got the opportunity to start doing what I love rather than what I have to do - music. I got my hands on some second hand vynil and decks about 8 moths ago and taught myself to mix.. Turns out I'm a natural. 2 weeks ago my dream of playing at a club came true, and the same night I met the most amazing girl.
She's small and gorgeous and full of attitude, I just wish I had the courage to tell her shes everything I've ever wanted in life. I guess it's hard for me, because I still have nothing...I dont stay in my own house or own a car.
You may have noticed I over think-things too much.
I feel that my life is about to change completely for the better, yet I'm scared to take the steps to make it real.
 
Only 1 car between the 2 of us at the moment.. Its so horrible! Like today for example - my work hours are 830 - 5, but im here at 630 now and probably wont leave until 6.. It isnt so nice doing extra hours when u aint getting paid for it and dont really want to be here at all.
Ive recently decided that Im going to leave my current job of 4 years to find a better job with more money so that i can get some more experience doing different and new things. After 4 years in the same small company with the same job and no chance to change jobs, things get a little monotonous..
Our money situation is still fucked - same as the last 5 years i guess! It just sux that we have to have another shitty christmas...
The last major thing is that my b/f and I have decided to quit smoking pot in the new year so that we can have some extra money to do the things we want to do.
 
Finals week...yeah! Not really but I only have one more day so I'm pretty happy. Plus no school Friday. Hmm...I'm leavin' to go visit TX in a week so I'll get to see all my friends! I just realized that 2day and I'm all excited so :D its kinda made my day better. How bout y'all?
 
15 DAYS!!
GA: Initially, we'll be in PB down in San Diego. What happens after that, I won't know until we're out there and start looking for jobs, a place, etc. A wonderful friend is letting us rent his room in PB until we're more settled. :)
 
Awww Dags ^ :)
Things are still going well here. I'm going to holiday parties, visiting frinds, and chillin'. I am on the search for a New Year's event. Of course I'm looking foward to the New Year. :)
 
I guess I'm back on bluelight.. *again* ;)
My life is okay thus far. I've moved back home with my parents.. in order to repay them 5 grand I blew (on life, school, and coke) this past semester... and to get myself back into a functional person again.
I've got an audition at UNC-Chapel Hill this January that will determine my future musically. I will be auditioning for piano and voice (wish me luck! its for a scholarship *and* admission)
I'm now an english major. I'm thinking of going straight on for my phD.. I'd like to teach and write novels.. a little more freedom in the career. I'll double major music if I ace my audition at chapel hill :)
Ah well... like y'all care ;)
Merry Ho-ho all...
and a drunken New Year!
 
i don't think i've replied to this since it was in "social" but i've been meaning to.. what better time then now?
I just finished my first semester at the 2nd college i ever attended and i think i failed a class and did poorly in another. I Think i need time off of school to get me back on track because right now i am so lost on what i want to and can do for my future. I feel like a failure and i can't do this to myself. :(
I am spending my first xmas / new year away from home. I will be in florida for nearly a month, and missing holidays with my family is... wierd. I hope i don't get homesick and depressed... i need cheering up and i think the ppl in fl. can do that. (the sun and warmth wont hurt either)
I hate winter.
I am meeting my boyfriends parents. 10months together, the only bf whoes parents i've needed to meet. The only real relationship ive cared about. the only guy i've cared about. Spending xmas with his family should be.. nerve racking.. (it already is). He spent Turkey day with mine ad now it's my turn... *sigh* But such is life, and this is a serious part of my life and must happen. (yes im scared to death)
The best thing i can say i have going for me now is, when i get back from Fl. hopefully i will be rested, well thought out, and have plans. It will be a new year, with a new job / career / school goals.
If i don't drive myself insane first.
 
I'm out of school for the semester, and all I can think about is going back. I'm bored out of my mind right now.
I met the man of my dreams, really, but now I am constantly over-analyzing every aspect of our conversations and time together, and I can't eat and want to sleep all the time. Bleh for crushes. I need something to do with my time, but don't feel like leaving the house. I actually think I'm going to go to school tomorrow to work on my stuff for next semester. If nothing else it will get me out of the house.
I leave on Sunday or Monday or so to go home for a week for christmas. So at least my time will be occupied and I won't have to worry about the option of spending time with newboy. :) Maybe I'll go ahead and leave on Saturday..who knows? I'll come back on the 28th or something like that, then leave on the 31st for nye in jax, then down to st. pete for a posh psych conference in an awesome hotel room all by myself the 2nd-5th. Then back to school again, and start stressing all over again.
Life is odd...I'm so incredibly thrilled I met this new guy. I've known him just over one week so far and my life is turning itself upside down. *sigh*
 
My life has been turned completely upside down... in a good way :)
 
It's my birthday in January, the 19th...I will be 17.. no longer a sweet 16 year old who has her head up in the stars... I'll be moving to San Francisco sometime after my birthday, living with my boyfriend and two other friends (both are guys) I'll be leaving my family to start my life with the person I love most and who I know will support me as best as he can. This is a time where I'll be coming out of the daughter stage and into independance, exploration and self-reliance...takin' what I've already learned and putting it to use..This time it's for real though, no authority figures stickin' their noses in my life, trying to oppose their ideals on me. For that I am thankful and I excited about all the new possibilities that will be open to me. New people, places, things to learn and neat stuff to spend my money on ;)
Of course I am a little scared as it's a big city and I barely got wings, but I know what to do. Trust intuition, listen to my heart and live life every damn minute.
I am remiss about leaving my family, especially my mom as she has been everything to me for the last few months and my whole life. I don't know what I'd do without her, she's been so cool to me...accepting my drug use, always trying to be open and never trying to oppose her ways on me...she has been nothing but a great example to me..not afraid to show her mistakes in life and fully opening herself up to me at times so that I can truly find who I am, where I come from and what I want. If ever I have a problem I know I can always talk to her about it and she will help me figure out a solution that fits me. God, I'm gonna miss her :(
I am sad about leaving my sister when her life is so stagnant and she is in a very bad relationship. I want her to be in as good of a place as I am, she deserves it. I miss her in my life, I miss how real she used to be and I am trying to keep the air ways open so that we can possibly foster a relationship in the future. Our relationship was fraught with sibling competition and bickering..it seems like our bond was never strong enough to hold and it busted in a big ego trip for both of us.. *sigh*
I hope I am lucky, cuz I will need it.
- Jaymie
 
Right now I am very happy with the way my life is going.......
No more drugs
Not as much alcohol
Actually going to high school
So now I looking forward to the summer, where my adventures will begin. I am heading off to Edmonton, and basically going where the wind will take me for the summer...so i got to start saving up for that. Hotel, food , etc.
Then I am back here to Yellowknife, to work for the government for a year....so I will be saving up and spending my money on a black jeep :D , then a lap top computer and then emergency cash for when i go off to college the next year.
Then off to Red Deer college in Red Deer.... a city bigger than the one i am in now, but smaller than Edmonton and Calgary.
Ahhh its so scary deciding my whole future like this....
~*Jenna*~
 
I'm working like crazy- I have a lot more responsibility and I think I mentioned before that I get to start traveling I'm actually really burnt out from work and life. I can't save money for the life of me-however I move next weekend same town -new roommate- new everything.
I've been partying a little more then I should and haven't been keeping in touch with a lot of people that I love and care about. I've been a little moody, sappy, and quite funny imo ;)
I'm dating a very driven "any mother would love" man and he's been very inspiring. I have held him carefully in my hands and things are progressing slowly. It's very nice to date someone my own age and from what I've been around lately he's so refreshing. Throwing me a lifeline with a gorgeous smile
Things have to get better from here- that's all I can put forth. I think this was the worst year I've ever had- I can laugh about it but it ain't over yet and i'm a little hungover as I type.....
I have been letting life kick my ass and I'm done and sick of it- The positive side of being stuck in a rut is that it means you're on the brink of change, and every day feels wrong for a reason.
Despite all my crappy life stuff, my heart still smiles
If I haven't gotten anything accomplished next time I write come kick my ass :)
[ 27 December 2002: Message edited by: Sweetpea ]
 
Recently I seem to have entered a period of regression. I think I might be going out and binge drinking a bit too much. It's something I plan to work on after the holidays are over. There are many nights when I have become angry with people and don't remember it, most notably, when I had been doing shots all night and I saw a meter maid putting a ticket on my friend's car, I called her a fucking whore and wanted to beat her up! That was one of the most disturbing things I have ever done. I'm not really doing any drugs besides pot and benzos at the moment, but especially E and LSD have been on my mind a lot recently.
I have been out of the house for nearly five years, but never lived alone until six months ago. It's been a great thing on the whole and has made me so much less dependent on others to fulfill my needs, but it sucks not having anyone to come home to.
My best friend is currently in jail. He had a really fucked up year, he tried to commit suicide twice, got his car repoed, got evicted and is now in jail for grand theft. I don't know the circumstances, just the charges, and I'm not allowed to call him. It has been difficult taking care of his needs (I'm the person he comes running to whenever he messes up) and, as fucked up as this may sound, at least I don't have to be his caretaker all the time.
I miss my family terribly and it is hard living on the opposite coast from most of them. I'm so blessed to have the most amazing group of true, longtime friends, and they are like my family.
School is almost over and I am really contemplating the question of whether to go to law school or not. I think I ultimately will, but I have recently had big doubts. My boss, family and friends all believe in me; I don't know why I have such a hard time believing in myself.
I'm trying to enjoy being young and single, and this coming year I plan to travel a lot. It's hard to keep a positive attitude all the time, but I am doing my best. :)
 
I'm on winter break now. It's a good thing, another week at school would have trashed ALL of my grades, not just algebra 2 and drawing... bah.
I am mostly just feeling lonely. Everywhere I go, there are reminders... I've been single all my life. Sure, I'm 16 and have time, but.. no one loves me, or ever will. I just want a hug; someone to cuddle with and someone to reassure me.. right, like that'll ever happen.
next semester I am dropping a bunch of important classes so I can take painting and drawing 2. My parents wish I didn't like art, and wish I didn't have talent in it; it won't get me anywhere in life. Right. And they think I should be like them, dragging their asses out of bed every morning for a day of stressful work that THEY DON'T EVEN LIKE. I'm not putting myself through that bullshit; I'd rather be poor and happy than rich and burnt out...
 
alot, going to get emotional and mental help for the first time at some program, and having my first bi experience, im worried anxous and excited about alot of stuff. any help would be appreciated -.- any one can icq me at henryrollin42 on AIM or 159861148 on icq.
[ 29 December 2002: Message edited by: h3nryrollin ]
 
Reading my last post in here .... I am sorta laughing at myself! :)
I am still as confused with my life, as in the simple fact of right now, I have no clue what I want to do! I am just enjoying myself and letting life take its course, and whatever happens .... happens for a reason! One way or another, I will always keep my head up, and be on my feet, and survive!
Just knowing that, is what keeps me going everyday! ;)
And lucky me..... I have to be at a meeting for work in an hour, and I haven't been to bed in quite a bit ... I just wanna go to sleep but won't be able to until after I close at work tonight! (open only 'til 11 though .... I knew there was a reason I liked Sundays!)
And still I think about all the people I have met, and that I wish they were still a part of my life like they used to be!
[ 29 December 2002: Message edited by: MissTwitch ]
 
atri, I am glad to hear you are doing good! Keep your chin up, Your a strong person, I know you'll be good!
 
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