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Hmm...not a lot.
I'm almost 19 and haven't really had a "real" job. I have only worked for my parents. Which makes me feel like a loser. I'm going to a college right now and I can barely get my ass to go to my whole 3 classes a week. I have no real responsibilty and I should be happy about that, but I hate it.
I have a boyfriend that I have been with for almost two years and I love with all my heart. He is the one good thing really in my life right now, which sounds pathetic.
Everything summed up, boo hoo hoo for me. hehe :)
 
girl drama. got my job at a restaraunt right by USF. making more money here than at the other place i was at. went and saw a woody allen play last night then got drunk. thinkin about throwing a pretty big party soon. loving life so much now that im out of the military, everything seems to be going so good that even the bad things in my life arent bothering me.
me and my roomate john and his wife melissa( ive ben friends with these people for about nine years) decided that in about three years were all going to sell our stuff and move to europe. they decided that there was so much more to life than living in tampa. ive already travelled a few places in asia so i have the travelling bug. basically were gonna save up some money, move someplace for a year, then pick up and do the same. try to emerse ourselves in as many different cultures as possible, and pick the one we like best to stay.
im still going to study acting and john already has a few trades, hes also about to become an electrician. melissa is gonna graduate college in a few years and be an archiect, and ill prolly survive as a bartender. john and myself are still going to pursue dj'ing to our fullest extents. weve also got plans to get our pictures taken in front of all seven wondes of the world.
i think its a good plan.
atri
[ 25 November 2002: Message edited by: Jizmak52 ]
[ 25 November 2002: Message edited by: Jizmak52 ]
 
Life's actualy been pretty good recently, apart from going to college at one of the -worst- colleges atmosphere wise (Drexel University) that is. Seriously, one of the requirements for going here is to have a large stick forcibly shoved up your ass (Two if your in a Frat). At least I get the coop and a good education, but beyond that, I need to meet more normal people :D
I'm supposed to spend the weekend with a girl I met here who I actualy do care about, so I'm goign to try not to do any of my signature 'mess things up royally' moves. She is one of the few actual real people around here too, and we get along great.
I actualy haven't done any drug except drink and a few hits of mj every once in a while since the last time I rolled around August 20, and I actualy feel alot more clear headed and non-crazy (Damn those RC's). I -may- roll once when winter break comes around, but these are tried and tested good quality MDA pills that have been sitting in my refrigerator since I bought them in August. If I do I'm only taking one and im goign to take so many antioxidants its not gonna be funny :o
Unfortunately I have the dirtiest roomate ever. If there is anyone here who has a dirtier roomate the world is ending. He has dirty dishes from -September- sitting in a box ffs!
I've also discovered how great 5htp is. 1. It works on an E-Hangover, 2. It makes you feel extreemly calm when taken regularly, 3. You have the most whacked out dreams ever (That may be due to the fact that the ones I take have Valarian root in them too)
Thats about it for now
 
My life has been going just peachy! I'm so in love with my girl and there's nothing better then feeling this way. My friends are great and there's no stupid drama going on in my life. Work has been good also. No stress, just go to work and work with great people. My boss is cool as shit too. Makes the work place a comfortable place to go 5 days a week.
I just got my car back from the body shop. It was keyed and then someone backed into it. Had it in the shop for a month. It was all worth it though because the car came out looking tight. Thanks to my baby for helping me choose a new color for my car. I had so many options but i came away with the best color i think.
Hmm....this has been on my mind and everytime i think about it, it pisses me off more and more. My girl and her so called best friend aren't friends anymore. Why, who knows? It all boils down to the other girls bullshit and her fucking ignorance. She is a manipulative bitch that needs to get put in her place! Who treats a friend this way? She does. Fucking bitch. I want to get this all out here. I've talked to my girl about it and i'm there for her regardless. She hasn't done anything to deserve this. Honestly, she's been there for the other bitch when she came running back to her when her *fiancee* broke off their engagement. And to tell you the truth, i laughed inside b/c i saw it coming from the two of them. She manipulates everyone to be her friend and when it's convienant for her stupid ass! And now she's trying to get all these people to be her friends again after all the shit talking she has done! No one gives a shit about her and her bullshit. I wish she could read this. I just get upset b/c i saw someone i love get hurt by someone who was suppose to be her BESTFRIEND! In the end i know everything will bite her in the ass and no one is going to be there for her. Damn i sound so stupid, but fuck it. It's comedy i tell you.
Ending on a good note....i'm going to CA to see my baby's family for thanksgiving and i can't wait. I'm excited to see them as they are excited to see me.
Peace!
Bee
[ 26 November 2002: Message edited by: D12eAmLoVeR ]
 
for the first time in years my life is making sense and pretty much everything in is is going great.
i love my first real life grown up person job. i'm making pretty decent money and i plan on going back to school when i'm 23 and can file for financial aid as independent and then i won't have to hardly pay anything.
recently i have met the sweetest, most perfect ever guy for me! he is everything i have ever dreamt of. i am in total bliss and i am still having to pinch myself every so often, b/c he is a dream come true. i feel true love for the first time ever.
the only thing that i could say is going bad would be my living situation. i moved back in with my parents in august b/c i couldn't afford to live on my own anymore. i get along with my parents just great, but the problem is them getting along with eachother. they are very unhappy and that makes me unhappy. i'm not there very often though. i'm usually with my boy or at work, but the other problem is that i live in the boonies and i'm a half hour away from the boy and the job.
i guess i can't really complain though. life is good for the most part for the first time in years. :)
 
Ups n downs. That's what my life's about right now.
I did supremely shitty in my first years of University. I'm shaping up now, and am finally doing phenomenally in my last year of Biological Sciences. I defy you to ask me something about parasites I do not know. :-)
I was single for a long time. I missed the physical side of a relationship, and my self esteem was taking a beating because of it. I thought b/c I wasn't getting asked out, I wasn't good looking enough to be asked out. Then I finally met someone, and we'll see how that goes.
In contrast, my family is falling apart. My mom is going nutso on us, my brother came out of the closet to some seriously mixed results and I've got finals a week away. I'm eating popcorn and ice cream for dinner, and can't bring myself to crack a book, and sit on here, reading shit.
Fuck. I'm screwed.
 
^^ It's okay, my finals are in a week also, and I don't think that I'm improving my mastery of the Russian language by being here. And I'm positive that BL isn't going to teach me anything about acid/base titrations to help me on my quant exam. :)
No more classes, just the exams left. What a relief! I have mixed emotions about being out of school for a year. I'll miss the environment, the challenge, and especially being in a lab. But having my time to myself, being able to read any book that I want, and having time to prep for the MCAT's (or GRE's) is nice. I also now have twelve months to decide whether I'm going to med school or grad school. Someone help! I'm stuck directly in the middle, and have no idea which road to take.
But I am moving in less than four weeks! Sooooooo excited about that. My house is in boxes, and I couldn't be happier. I'm ready to see my friends, start some things over again (work, etc.). And the snow here now is glorious, I'm glad I got to be stuck in the middle of a snowstorm one last time before I hit the west coast and the land of sunshine.
 
Well, my life actually I am still happy with. My boyfriend will be leaving soon to go over seas for 6 months to a year, so that part sucks but, we have discussed how we are just gonna see how things go, and that no matter what we wanna stay friends.
I have realized in the past few months how much I appreciated being able to be around my family, but yet am now beginning to realize why I appreciated not. Don't get me wrong, i love them to death, But feel as though being here at home, that I am not letting myself grow up.
I have spent the past 2 1/2 weeks in NYC, and in NC, and it really did me alot of good. igot to see alot of people that I wouldn't have been able to see, and spend alot of time with my babey! After being there i ahev realized now that I am about to put myself in not the best situation again, just to get away from home. I did alot of thinking while I was gone, and think that when it comes to what will help me best, without relying on my parents would just be to move back with my friends. I ma not happy here, and in all honesty think that myfriends can help me more through my boy being gone, than my parents can.
All together I miss my friends, I miss my life, and I just want it all back!
 
I'm really fucking stoned right now. Hehe. I hadn't smoked pot in about 2 months and I just took one big fucking hit but I got so fucking baked. Have to admit it is pretty fun to get stoned now and then even though I usually prefer other drugs. I feel pretty great right now. I really like being stoned when I'm alone like this, just chillin' and listening to Red Hot Chili Peppers while I check bluelight.
 
I think I'm at peace at what has been eating away at me for over a year.
I was dumped by someone who loved me in every way except in a sexual/physical way.
It didn't dawn on me earlier when I was with her that it took so long for us to actually get intimate (we never even had sex...the first time we did anything sexual was about 8 months into our relationship)
Now, after she dumped me, it took me a long time to understand that it was her who had the problem, and it wasn't me.
She loved me. In many ways, but it was the most important (or not, it's all relative) reason why should couldn't love me anymore.
Have you ever been destroyed like that by someone who loves you? I have, and finally, I think, I'm able to get passed it.
Sorry you couldn't love me in that way, girl.
Hopefully, you can find someone who stimulated your mind as much as I did, but stimulates your sexuality like I never did.
I felt like such a fool for so long that I was hesitant to move on.
Now, finally, I can with someone else who may not, but it'll still be in the back of my mind...
"Does she think I'm physically attractive?"
It's something that may never leave me.
I guess I've learned that.
 
My life has been going from bad to worse recently.
I lost my job over 5 months ago, and it seems that in the past two years my field has been getting harder and harder to find work in and now its nearly impossible.
Just as my money had completely run out and I had to decide to start from the bottom again my girlfriend of four years dumped me. She said that she needed to experience life without me, at least for a while because we'd been going out since she was 17 and hadn't lived as much as she wanted to.
I've hit the bottom now. All I have left is my friends and, thankfully, they are great. Please let me keep that at least...
 
Lately I've been surrounded by good friends and good times. I had a great night, while the power was out from our ice storm, laughing so hard that I almost cried. I've been fortunate to have time off from work and a spur of the moment chance to travel. I'm feeling lucky...and it feels really good :)
 
6 days ago i got married to the love of my life. I feel so happy about that...so content. Things are still hard b/c we are not yet able to live in the same place, hopefully soon though...hopefully soon. Being apart now seems ten times harder now that we tied the knot.
/me sighs...one step at a time folks.
 
my girlfriend is in jail. my car got repo'd. my backup car plan is shit. i have no way to get to work now. hmmmmmm. i guess ill go get some crappy job real close to my house and just deal with it. cause i really couldnt be happier where i am at in life right now. all the shit thats been happening doesnt faze me. plus after four years in the military i know that no matter what, i still possess the ability and know how to survive and provide for myself. shit, im looking forward to getting a new job and a new vehicle! only this time, im going motorcycle. woohoo!!!!!
atri
 
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nice attitude, I too have started all over-it sucks but then again it's a good challenge for your character- move up not down- no pun intended
Dags :) :) :)
 
so i finally got a job... not a job ine fiekd that i wanted, but a job nonetheless. I'll be a nanny for 4 boys making $11 an hour, so on days that they're not in school, i'll be making $130 a day! not too shabby. I've now officially had 12 interview int he other field w/ no success. oh well, i'm good for now.
the rest of my life is just the same. bf situation never changes, although he just got a new job where his hours are 11-8, 11-9 or 11-10 5 days a week then 8-5 on sat. :( that means i see him much less, but is good because it gives me time to miss him, which doesn't happen much when you live w/someone AND see them 24/7. so int he long run i think it will be good for us.
 
Dude I am 27 and life is ups and downs. I suppose life is Ok but i am definately not fully content at the moment.
The future does hold some promises. I am about to graduate with excellent grades and am fairly certain i will land a decent job. But i sometimes have doubts about it and i feel kinda scared about not being able to achieve financial indepepndece. having a good career means a lot to me simply because i don't know what else i am suppose to do to support myself. Sometimes i feel like i have too much of an attachment toward being successful financially and i worry that without a decent career/job that i would feel like a loser to the world. This attachment bothers me cause i don't like being dependent on things outside of myself to feel good about myself.
I don't have a girlfriend right now and haven't had one for a while. Most of the time i don't worry about this because i feel like i haven't really try to connect with the opposite sex. I want to work on myself first ( land a job, move out, etc) and then focus on creating a relationship later. Although this attitude seems to justify my status, it is sometimes unbearable and i feel alone and crave for someone to love me and for me to love that person as well. Other times i worry that i don't have the social skills
to create and maintain a relationship. I just hope i don't start acting desparately about it.
I got some decent friends but no one i can really connect with. I haven't met anyone truly interesting. We all seem to engage in small talk and nothing really intellectual-stimulating. I need to meet some new people or something. I just want to have one special friend that inspire me to reach new heights.
Man i want to write more, but i am gettin tired. That's all for now!
 
My life is going down the tubes !
Ive realised the career im in, really sux. 3 years into mechanics and i quit ! Perfect timing, right before christmas, and its so hard to find a shit kicker job these day's.
Ill probably have to sell my car which is what ive always ever wanted and keep's me motivated, i know that ppl have different car taste's, but mine is a Toyota Hilux with monster lift kits and huge tyres, and i love it to death...
The only thing im happy about is the fact im progressing with my dancing, and its about the only time i feel right.
Plans for the future, find a decent paying job, and a lady with heart...
peace
 
Countdown is at 18 days. We leave in 18 days, my house is in boxes, I've thrown away roughly 3/4 of what I own, and it feels wonderful. Feeling free is an amazing emotion, in whatever form it comes. Free from stuff, free from unhappiness, free from struggle, free from waiting...
I dearly miss sex. I'm hoping to remedy that very soon.
Taking the last exams that I'll see for a year in the morning, finishing up my last few shifts at work, mapping out our four-day drive, picking up change of address forms, finding someone to keep the cat, deciding what goes and stays, moving furniture to storage, spending a few last days with family and friends. That's my life right now. Starting a new phase. Happy.
 
Yesterday
My Mom and Grandmother flew into town to decorate my apartment.
Found out my cat has a unrinary track problem. Must be given meds and we are leaving town and all the pet boarding places are filled, and all my friends will be gone.
My boyfriend's ex-lover shows up on our door step with some sort of drama just as my Mom, bf, grandmother and friend are going to dinner.
The garage door died.
I'm desperately trying to finish a work project before leaving town.
STRESS!!!!
*whew*
That's better.
 
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