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OMG, whoever created this thread, I love you. There's a lot of stupid shit going on in my life, and right now I can't talk to anyone about it, because I'm not sure who I can and cant' trust. The big thing right now is that me and my best friend are slowly but surely splitting apart. I'm kinda getting out of my partyin stage, but she's getting more into and worse then ever. Her and this one girl who is just beginning to get into her partyin stage, are like a picture perfect example of me and my best friend like a year ago. Inseperable, always havin secrets, always something to talk about. I can't even stand being around them two together. They came down to the club I was at 2nite, and just watching them got me so upset, that I just left. I keep trying to tell myself that this is happening for a reason, and I'm finally growing up and stuff, but it just sucks SO F**KING BAD.... God, I wish the other girl never came into the picture. But that leads on to my 2nd prob. Ok, lets call my best friend J and the other girl K. I've never seen two people have a worse influence on each other. J and K always always always said they'd never do coke and would get sooooo pissed off at me when I did it. Let's just say both of them are pretty much addicted now. K was once this really kewl stoner chic, respected her body, didnt' sleep around, didn't do THAT many drugs. Well, picture the opposite of that. I really could give 2 shits about K, but even though me n J aren't exactly that close anymore, she's still my best friend and I am soooooo friggin worried about her. I tell her and she's just like "well, you have no reason to worry, I can take care of myself" blah blah blah. I don't know what to do anymore. Half of me just wants to get out of this god foresaken city and start a new life, but the other half wants to try and help J. I'm more confused then I've ever been in my entire life. I wish I had someone to talk to, but I just don't. I've been single for the past year and now its really starting to get to me. At first I was all like "Yaa, I'm single! No one to answer to! I can do what I want!", but now it's like "i'm single... no one to hold... no one to tell me they love me, or even that they really care about me... no one to cuddle with or hug or kiss...." I'm so sick of not having anyone. I mean, I'm no Pamela Anderson or anything like that, but I don't think I'm that ugly. Ya, I have some flaws, but so does everyone, and I try my best to make up for those physical flaws, with my personality. But obviously the guys around here aren't to concerned with personality. I keep telling myself that when I do find a guy, I'm gonna be so much more luckier then all my friends who have a new hot b/f each month *who in the end, fucks em and leaves em*, because I'll actually have someone who's true. But how long do I hafta wait ya know? Grr... Wow, if you're still reading this, I applaude you. And hey, if ya got advice or just wanna talk, e-mail or IM me... It's [email protected]. I know, the addy in my sig is wrong. I gotta change that.... Alright, well I feel A LOT better now. I kinda broke down tonite and I really needed to get all of that out! Thanx for listening *or whatever you'd say...reading? i dunno...* :)
 
Perfect timing for this thread
A couple of month ago I decided that I had had enough of my current job and would like a new one. I was pretty slack and did not really start looking until maybe last week.
So I have now been offered a job in another state for the same money as I make now with a great company but it means moving myself completley and leaving my mum (which I do not like) and starting new.
But then I have also been offer a job in my home state but less money which is a issue. It is a entry leave postion which means starting again in a new company but is a very good opportunity as it is in law which is where I would like to head.
But then I have also been offered another role which is the same as what I am doing now but with a different company.
This all sounds good and I am grateful that I have so many opportunities to choose from but I am so confused. There are so many good points with the three positions and then there are the bad.
End ramble here -
My head hurts.............
Sorry if I hurt everyone else heads but I needed to get that out.
[ 19 July 2002: Message edited by: Dmac ]
 
life for me at this moment is peachy f'in keen. i work about 6 days a week now.i ahve no life, but to sit around and drink coffee and smoke cigarettes for hours with friends(when im not working that is).then go to the club, and maybe a party on the weekend. its the summer ok- no school!(and school life is a whole diff story!)all of that seems so boring when i talk about it, but i love it for all its worth. i have made amends with old friends, and friends that were always jsut aquaintences(sp?).im moving from a house that i have lived 10 years in because my mom cant afford it.other than that- im a little man sick. i havent been with a guy in a while.im actually really busy usually, but i still miss the affection. adn i always manage to meet the wrong ones.or they are ex's or they live 2hours away from you and have a gf.haha.
and here is to another day-my life rocks!i couldnt be more content(and tired) than i am right now.
jenna
 
I just lost my job. My gf cheated on me with my best friend. I got kicked out. Expelled from school. I just got robbed 10 beans. My car got broke when I hit a sign, and I cant keep any money i spend it all on drugs.... but I have a beer in hand so it's all good.... till its gone. Then im gonna Od on beans. LATE
PLUR
 
Lessee here...in the true tradition of old sorority meetings (keep yer damn opinions to yerselves on that one)-- I'll shoot for the "pro-con-pro" approach-- where you gotta start with a pro, but also end on a pro. Cuz' things are looking semi-bleak in the House of Chasey.
PRO: Miz Chasey finally got up the nerve/sac/whateva to boot the ex-BF who wheedled his way back into her life to le curb. And there was much rejoicing. *yay*
CON: After 2 years of near-suicidal depression from a hatred of her job, Miz Chasey landed a new job which she loves on April 15th. But today, 7 people from her office got laid-off-- yet she missed the cut. People who had been there 2-3 years, and she missed it. But with the managers went the workload-- so her usefulness to her company is now an astonishing ZERO. Le curb awaits Miz Chasey as well work-wise. "Y'all want fries with that?"
PRO: Miz Chasey has a new friend. Well, he's an old friend that is becoming new to her in so many ways. He's been terrific throughout this whole thing. He inspires me, enrages me (in a good way), and takes care of me. And, like Miz Chasey, is a Libertarian (again, keep yer damn opinions to yerselves!). I know he will never read this, but I thank him. And ironically, we still haven't slept together. And for once, I am not freaking about it. :-)
PRO PART DEUX: Miz Chasey is trying to move to Vegas. She might have an interview early August.
So, to sum it all up kids:
(1) Ex-BF gone=good
(2) prospect of losing job=bad
(3) friend becoming more=great
(4) Vegas=needs no explanation
(5) Live with your parents as long as you can.
That is all.
 
Self-revelating thoughts and experiences have been confusing me lately, in many ways. Sometimes I feel so confused about me, my lIfe, death and the point of everything.
What the fuck am I doing? Does it really matter in the eNd?
Life is so much easier without that relationShip. But a little more lonely.
I feel like dropping everything and just spending my time writing songs, plAying guitar and doing drugs.
Sometimes I just want to run away from everythiNg and start my life again in some other state.
I feel like it doesn't matter what I do in my life, the result (that I'll end up as earthworm food and nothing more) will be the samE anyway.
Yet, I feel quite happy. Perhaps not satisfied, but generally happy.
 
WOW...... It's quite comical for me to look back to when I posted 3 Months ago and compare that to what's going on in my life now!!
Well let's see.. I No longer work for the Parking Company I made a few mistakes on my Daily Reports and this bitch who is a total ass kiss to the GM of the company took my mistakes and turned them into a big deal so I got Fired! Oh well..to be Honest I really hated the job anyways and now I am looking into something that is going to pay alot more money and I think Ill be much happier! It's been over a week since I had my surgery and I am slowly starting to feel better. I went to visit some "Old Friends" yesterday and It reminded me why they are "Old Friends" I bought a New Car 2 weeks ago and I absolutley love it It's a 2001 Pontiac Grand Prix I finally Decided to part with the Ranger It was a little hard at first but Ultimatley Im happy I did.. Im still "Talking" to Erica she has alot of Issue's I dont really want any part of Im just sick and tired of these Women with "emotional bagage" isnt there any "Normal" Women out there??? anyways we shall see how that Goes I really dont care one way or another!
 
At the moment I'm working for a excellent company with allot of the same values I hold towards life.
I will start up college in the fall for something I've always dreamed of doing. :)
Everything is clicking right now, which is awesome, I have my own idenity and freedom to do what I please with the full support of my fiancee. :)
We are also starting to plan our wedding and honeymoon for spring of 2004, while we're both still in college.
After school, We both will be traveling throughout europe for awhile.
These are long term plans that are happening finally, which makes me excited and happy. I can't believe I'm finally doing allot of good for myself.
I never thought it would have been possible if I didn't have my love to stand by my side and help me make our life together.
mushy i know.
But life is good now, and I can't complain about anything at all, nor would I want to :)
~ReD
 
I told my husband over the weekend not only do I want a divorce, but that I'm filing the complaint this week. He's been in bed depressed for two days. It's gotta get better than this, right?
 
^it will^
we've got 2 weeks to find 2 jobs, a new flat, and move our lives to another city. it's stressful because i'm the only one working at the moment, so we're really stretched tight.
but i am happy, happy like long ago :) and i know that good things will come.
 
I've finished my first year of college, the exams went ok i think, been with my girlfriend for the past 3 months who i really like, I've been gettin pissed and stoned most of the time since college finished, and hopefully i'll be gettin a job stacking shelves in a supermarket soon, i guess things are good
 
I'm off SSRI's doing well at my job, have money to play with, have the most wonderful supportive sexy man in my life and my sisters moving back to London with her family in 4weeks,Possibly going to India in October and to be honest.............things couldn't be much better. This time last year I was involved with serious drugs and dancing to make money things couldn't have gotten much worse. Hanf in there to anyone who's on the slippery slope down, sooner or later you'll find your jiking boots and begin the climb back up!!!!!!
 
I realize some of you don't know who i am since idon't post here much but i'm starting now :)
Just to fill you in a bit..my name is Candice i live in SD cali. i am 18 and just recently graduated from high school. I'm going to Cuyamaca college(junior college) in the fall and after 2 years i'm transfering to UCSD. My goal is to become a college councelor.
Lately, i have been working in Miramar at a swimming pool on the Marine base, It has been fun but it is only a summer job and i will be leaving on the 8th of August.
I have realized that going to college full time is not only going to kick my ass but i'm not going to be able to work as much as i would like to. Oh well, an education is more important to me anyway.
My bf (Doctorlove) and i are doing very well lately. In fact things just keep getting better and better for example we used to fight a lot on the count of my depression but since i have been seeing a thearapist i have been getting better and our fighting lasts very short amounts of time. We have been together for almost 2 years and i couldn't see my life with anyone else.
That's it for now!
-Candice
 
I miss this thread .....
I haven't been on BL in awhile for the lack of a PC, but now I am back.
Let's see, I left my hubby again for I realized that I wasn't really happy at all, and NO we couldn't make it work again. I did let someone else back into my life though, the guy i was with for about 9 months b4 that. We have been seeing eachother again for 2 months now, and things are just amazing. I just really hope they stay this way.
I moved to the southern coast, about 12 hours SW of where I was, liking it so far.
That is really pretty much all, besides that life is it's same ole' peachy self!
Glad to be back!
 
Hello!
What's going on in my life? God, that's hard when anyone asks ..... off the top of my head:
- I just had an article published in "Nature & Health" magazine on Organic Wines
- Got another payrise a few weeks ago... yay :)
- Took my brother out Saturday night, he's just turned 18. Discovered he really is a good boy and doesn't drink (hehe, we'll change that)
- I have an annoying rash behind my right ear
- Just booked a 10-day holiday to Vanuatu in September to see my sister, who's there for a year managing a resort... hard to handle eh?
- Am getting a LITTLE bored in my relationship... it's been a year and now we're starting to watch TV all night without saying a word to each other
:(
... well I guess it's mostly good :)
 
Rough waters have just smoothed out for me. Began a new job in another department from the last and have the whole summer off, with pay (p/t).
My fiancee is pregnant, due either Jan or Feb (two doctors estimates are 4 weeks apart, can't get good help these days), and we're breaking tradition and pushing the wedding back. One massive expense at a time please!
An ex-friend just did a runner after we let her and her 4yr old stay at our newly renovated rental while we moved into our just bought "renovator's dream", 10km out of the city. She's changed job, phone numbers, and moved house. Left us with the cleaning and the debt. I'm on the case.
Other than that, shweet as.
 
Ok here i go:
- my g/f and i are planning to move in together at my parents apt complex. We are getting it all fixed up to our liking and it's going to look great. new carpet, new tiles and new paint!
- just registered for classes. i'm planning to get my MBA in Marketing which is going to take awhile but i work for the university so i'm getting to go back to school for free.
- while going back to school, i can request a deferment of my student loans. which isn't that bad b/c the stop it with no interest and it stays at the interest rate i stop making payments at. i also only owe 14k so thats not bad form being close to 30k when i got out of school.
- my health is good. still going to the gym at least 4-5 times a day. feeling good, eatting better and i get to go with my g/f. she is wonderful by the way.
:D
 
Its so funny how everytime i think life is starting to look up, I get shit on all over again. Its hard to stay motivated when you've gotten news about yourself that may as well be your death sentence.
 
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