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I'm happy and relaxed, and yet do not want to be here.
I just got home from 2.5 months away from home, in Asia. It was a time of self peace, understanding and also, somewhat, doing things and meeting people I may not have ever experienced back home due to self control and restraint.
But now I'm home and am not so depressed over that, for I'm going to keep that happiness flowing for as long as I can, but I'm upset with what's going on with my family.
My brother was in a pretty serious car accident and totalled 'my' car, a Honda Accord. He's dealing with his own issues as well, something that I feel affects me on some level as well. He's outed himself and I've met his boyfriend and my brother pretty much thinks that I hate him, for reasons are pretty much dependant on his own delusions, I guess. My dad, who works in Northern Africa for 7 months of the year, found out as well, and we're just waiting for my mom to learn the news.
But she's going in for spine surgery on her birthday and is pretty dependant on me right now to take care of the house. So, in addition to going to work, worrying about whether or not I'm going back to University this fall in the program of my choice, stopping my brother from stressing my mom out and going out and such, I'm mowing the lawn, doing dishes, cooking and taking care of a 3 level house.
The other night at work some customer cracked a joke that wasn't funny and I've heard once a day everyday I've gone to work, and I didn't even fake laugh, very unlike me. He said "Huh. Looks like someone's got a case of the grumps" I just said the joke was one I've heard a lot, and that I'd had a bad day. The rest of the night was spent in a daze, wishing that I was away from here.
And to think I left out my whole relationship life woes.
BUT I FEEL BETTER NOW. Thanks! It feels like I just did the equivalent of what I did as a kid...scream into my pillow and bite it, hard, many times.
 
Lots of things are going in my life.
The most important one at the moment is my wedding.
I will be getting married in August 31, 2002 :)
I am excited about it because I AM :)
I can't describe it but you all understand!!
 
Well, I have moved 10 hours north of my friends and family, with my boyfriend. It is very exciting, but I can't help feeling sad sometimes.
The hardest part is that I don't know a single person here besides my boyfriend. I have met a couple of the neighbors in our complex, but pretty much every unit is occupied by families with children, and I am not ready to relate to that, yet. So I just say "Hello, isn't the weather great" when I am walking to check the mail.
It is also going to be difficult because we live about a 10 or 15 minutes drive from "downtown" and I don't have a car. I use my boyfriend's vehicle whenever it is here, but his job will have him going out of town often. Much more often than I had ever imagined. If he isn't out of town, he works late almost every night. He is going to buy a new car by the end of the summer, though, and that will be for me to drive.
The working late and away will only be until around October, at least. Basically, he is a geotechnical engineer and they have to get all the ground testing done before it gets cold here, because they basically can't do any testing in the winter. There is too much snow and the ground freezes too deep.
I am looking for a job here, but there really aren't many. This is a town that survives off the mills, but the lumber industry is suffering right now (ahem, u.s.a.)(just kidding), so the now is fairly repressed. Financially, I don't need a job, but mentally, I do. It's the most obvious way I can think of to meet people here, at least until September when I'll be in school fulltime. So we'll see how that goes...I'll just keep looking.
I could keep writing all day, so I'll stop here...I love this thread and reading up on other people's lives!! I'm such a voyeur!!
 
Shanna-I've been in a similar situation. Yes get a job, it will definetely help you out. I completely know how you feel. You can also look at it as a quiet time in your life, quality time for you..since you're so far from town you have no choice ;) ;)
 
Just started yet another new job... this one is completely different from anything I've ever done, it's intruiging to say the least. It's Tuesday, and my mental stability hasn't gone completely south yet, so all seems good (those of you who were at Starscape might understand what I'm talking about)... maybe this time e-pression won't get me down too bad. Ah well, if I do lose it for a few days, so be it. It was SO worth it. :)
 
um let's see...i'm still in school (fun fun) and sick of doing this pretty worthless shit because i'm not learning anything useful from it. i recently discovered that i'm an alcoholic so i've been sober now for...5 days! and it's very hard! but it's cool cuz my friends are really supporting me. the love life is totally messed up...i'm interested in 3 guys!!! and two of them have said the "L" word, yes, they said the loved me! but i don't know which guy i like best, they're sweeties~ life is so confusing!
 
Well, my life is finally coming closer together. I've been spending quality time on my own sorting my thoughts out. I now have a sorta future plan for my life, and an idea of direction :)
And to add cherries to the cake my boyfriend cut his holiday short and is coming back in les sthan a week :)
 
Well, my career as a DJ seems ready to lift off, I've done 3 gigs right now and gotten to meet a whole bunch of people, and there are at least 4 more coming up this summer. :)
 
My roommate is trying to slowly turn me into a geek. I mean...trying to keep me lashed to a chair, in front of this monitor, with the blinds drawn and only a warm beer for nourishment.
[ 17 July 2002: Message edited by: Noodle ]
 
Isn't that more of a weekend kind of game, Noodle? ;)
Personally, I'm going through the same thing, only I'm getting paid to do it and there's free coffee, but I have to go outside to smoke :)
 
things suck ass right now. im 23 with 2 degenerative disks in my lower back and im on all sorts of pain killers that dont work, im broke now cause of all the hospital bills. i cant play with my little boy like i used to. AARRGGHHH. I guess you have to hit the bottom before you can climb back up. HA!! good luck to me lmao.
I guess things could be worse.
TaskMan :)
 
Lots of changes for me in the last few weeks...most of them very good. I've been making an honest effort to meet new people and to change my social circle up a bit. It's amazing what a difference this has made in my world. Just got back from a relaxing vacation at the beach that was short but wonderful! Also, just found out that I'll be heading to the Bahamas pretty soon too!!
Damn, I'm really pretty happy :)
 
^^^ Good to hear. :)
I am still working like crazy, just picked up a second part-time job actually, and I only have two more weeks of calculus! No more math classes again ... ever.
The day after my final I am leaving for two weeks in San Diego, with a short hop over to Vegas for a few days. This is my first real vacation in years that didn't revolve around some party, wedding, birthday, funeral. I'm not quite sure how I'm supposed to act, but it's nice knowing that I have fifteen days that are mine and mine alone.
I'm ready to move. Three thousand miles from everything I know, and I am so ready for it. We got the money we needed for it all, and we have most of the early details sorted out. It's been scary to think about once in a while, but it's time to stop planning my life and time to live my life. Watch out SoCal. :)
 
Well, here is a big SoCal welcome Dagny. :) Enjoy your vacation the weather is very nice in San Diego right now. We just went through a hellish week of humidity, but now the inland weather has cooled down and the sun is out at the beach. Just in time for your vacation.]
As for my life at the moment: I just got approved for a car loan today, so I will be getting a car this weekend. I am stoked to have 5 days off from work. I am going to unwind at the lovely beaches of my home town in Orange County and cruise up to Simple Pleasures this weekend.
I got a little deep into drugs at the beginning of this summer. I tried crack and was doing numerous other drugs. I was feeding my curiosity but I wasn not letting my body recover from the beating i had put it through. So needless to say I am going to cut back on my drug intake for a great while.
Well thats all for now.
[ 18 July 2002: Message edited by: PARADIGM ]
 
^^^Thanks love. :)
Humidity? I think I can handle it. Today in the ever-lovely bible-belt southeastern US, it was a chilly 97 degrees with 100% humidity (and I don't mean rain.. just hot, moist, thick air). And you enjoy your break as well! :D
 
Dags, it's great to hear that you are finally taking a well deserved vacation!! Promise we'll hang out before you leave the South for good though, k? ;)
 
its been stressful...
1. two of my best friends just moved to vegas. when i'll see them again, i have NO idea. the thought of that alone just breaks my heart. i was a complete wreck after driving home from their house monday night.. danny is someone i have come to know and love greatly within the past year or two, and not being able to be in touch with him all the time kills me; chaz is someone who is always gonna be able to cheer me up no matter how shitty of a mood i'm in.
2. i'm workin two jobs.. WOOHOO. yet i'm still broke?
3. dennis and i are vaguely talking about getting back together sometime in the near future.. we've both cleaned up our lives a good bit within the past month or so, and we've both done a good bit of growing up.
4. my parents and i are finally starting to get along better.. we have our good days and our bad days but things are starting to look up.
so overall, shits not too bad in my life.. just extremely busy :]
 
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