So you went from 20mg subutex to 40mg methadone in over 2-3 days, how and why if you don't mind me asking.
No worries, I don't mind.
I've been on bupe daily for well over a year, probably 18 months on 16mg, and when I finally had to go to 20mg because it wasn't keeping me well anymore thru the day, I increased and it only held me for like a week, then I was back in early withdrawal 22 hours a day. Just no way to live, perpetual low grade misery lol, and the dosage cap for bupe here is 24mg, so rather than max out on bupe I switched to methadone. They're titrating me up now to a comfortable dose, not sure how high that'll be, and I know coming off this is a whole different matter (there is a plan, tho) but i just got tired of being low grade dopesick all the time. I would dose at 9am, the bupe, and be in wd again by noon lol. Fuck that.
4:40 am, drinking the first cup of coffee with the nic vape handy, perusing the news and other consumables, morning pills downed, weed and methadone as the morning progresses.
Doctor appointment this morning, going to get my testosterone injections continued. Gonna try not to run out of the waiting room in a psychiatric fervor this time lol.