Meth novice 79
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Not sure I actually want to see this written out like a resume, is neither spectacular nor something to be proud of. Kinda like my actual resume when I think about it 
1994-2014-
weed, by the pound. Don’t think I had a single straight day during those years but I was pretty chill by today’s standards.
Tobacco, 20-30 a day and that habit remains unchanged to date.
Alcohol/codeine cocktails every 6 months I’d binge drink for a few weeks and kick it along with the old nurofen plus/low dose codeine.
2014-2019
Meth, iv once a week or so in the early days, down to once a month the last year or so gradually to my last big (and messiest) binge a couple weeks ago when I determined that I need to stop as it’s getting out of hand. (Still used moderately twice since, is a work in progress)
Heroin, twice total with two pretty small iv shots and some black tar stuff that did nothing for me, nowhere near enough to achieve the euphoria I see described here but too terrified to go again stronger as I lost contact with my trusted guy and worry I’ll end up in a world of hurt and addiction without adult supervision.
Coke, twice. Snorted. Didn’t get the fuss, won’t bother again.
GHB, ‘juice’ as it’s named here, a dozen times or so. Awesome fun but learned not to overdo.
Alcohol, by the litre and combined with whatever downer I can talk my doctor into giving me. Diazepam, temazepam, and the old faithful panadiene forte (double the strength of nurofen plus and the best I can do without alarming my doctor
Oxy’s once or twice, another that I’m wary of becoming my next big problem if I’m not careful.
7 days alcohol free today, slight tremors, heart palpitations and chronic insomnia that I’ve worsened by caving a shooting meth once. Slightly alieviated with the use of weed edibles, a bong here or there and temazepam.
Aim is to be drug and alcohol free for Xmas and the new year for my kids sake and then set another short term goal to reach for in 2020.
1994-2014-
weed, by the pound. Don’t think I had a single straight day during those years but I was pretty chill by today’s standards.
Tobacco, 20-30 a day and that habit remains unchanged to date.
Alcohol/codeine cocktails every 6 months I’d binge drink for a few weeks and kick it along with the old nurofen plus/low dose codeine.
2014-2019
Meth, iv once a week or so in the early days, down to once a month the last year or so gradually to my last big (and messiest) binge a couple weeks ago when I determined that I need to stop as it’s getting out of hand. (Still used moderately twice since, is a work in progress)
Heroin, twice total with two pretty small iv shots and some black tar stuff that did nothing for me, nowhere near enough to achieve the euphoria I see described here but too terrified to go again stronger as I lost contact with my trusted guy and worry I’ll end up in a world of hurt and addiction without adult supervision.
Coke, twice. Snorted. Didn’t get the fuss, won’t bother again.
GHB, ‘juice’ as it’s named here, a dozen times or so. Awesome fun but learned not to overdo.
Alcohol, by the litre and combined with whatever downer I can talk my doctor into giving me. Diazepam, temazepam, and the old faithful panadiene forte (double the strength of nurofen plus and the best I can do without alarming my doctor
Oxy’s once or twice, another that I’m wary of becoming my next big problem if I’m not careful.
7 days alcohol free today, slight tremors, heart palpitations and chronic insomnia that I’ve worsened by caving a shooting meth once. Slightly alieviated with the use of weed edibles, a bong here or there and temazepam.
Aim is to be drug and alcohol free for Xmas and the new year for my kids sake and then set another short term goal to reach for in 2020.
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♂
) and everything that was new to me and within reach. I drastically decrease cannabis, it's giving Panic attacks and a lot of anxiety, it was necessary ...
♂ , I don't know if I'm old, with an opportunity, who knows."
