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Vent/Rant Thread vs I'll tell you how I really feel (Triggering Content)

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Man I came to the right place. I'm finally getting out of crisis mode with my finances but there are always new bills to replace the old ones that I've payed off. Trying really hard to be content with my life right now. But I'm living at home again with my parents at 28 years of age in a small town where I've lived for 20 years and have had a lot of bad memories and everybody knows everyone. Despite trying to reinvent myself with AA and sobriety, I am constantly running into people who I knew back in high school or whatever and it's hard to hold my head high considering I was such a loser/pothead. I just started 18 months of DUI classes and can't get the hell out of California even if I wanted to. Bills stacked up, rent prices are atrocious, gasoline and food is expensive, and I've been driving anyways despite the potential consequences. Last but not least, I was thinking I was going to get laid tomorrow night but the girl gave me a lame excuse so she can go fuck her ex instead. Wish I could drink or smoke some pot or something but I'm 6 months sober so thats not even an option. Just gotta sit in it, but venting helps and I needed this so thanks.
 
RedLeader said:
I'll look that interviewer directly in the eyes and say: "I have an affinity for heroin. I also have a relaxed appreciation for objective morality. And what society is too primitive to understand, it has instead tried to punish out of me."
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I would actually legit do this, Trainspotting-style.
 
RedLeader said:
Applying for jobs online is preferable to being skinned alive, but just by a tiny bit...

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And it involves a lot of dishonesty.
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We all like to laugh at my poor mom in our family because she applied for a job working at a video store chain to supplement her retirement. My mom has a PHD, was a university professor and then worked in government at the state and federal levels for years developing policy as well as implementing new programs etc. She failed in her online application because she was so honest about really stupid questions.:\
 
^ I'm not sure if they do Meyers-Briggs typing or not at this particular company, but I do know that my MBTI is discriminated against for the types of jobs I'm applying for right now. So I've been studying the tests and trying to figure out exactly what mentality to take on to score as a type that would be suited for the role. It is extremely creepy this this what's become of trying to get a job, but maybe it's like a puzzle they kinda want you to solve to prove that you are worthy?
 
Red, IMO it is just the mindlessness of bureaucracy and machines working together--either one of which is dangerous but together, monstruous. What always slays me when I read these things is the thought that some complete idiots got paid way more than I will ever hope to make coming up with this exercise in futility that is called the online application.

I used to manage restaurants for years. I hired tons of people. You have to talk to people. I never made my decisions on anything but my sense of the person's integrity and honesty. Now it seems with this on-line bullshit they are just asking for dishonesty! I never went off the paper application anyway only unless they didn't even bother to correct their spelling or blatantly lied about a reference.

My brother was interviewed for a job after getting out of a court ordered rehab and had a long gap in employment plus two drug felonies. He walked into his interview with a big electrical firm, looked the guy in the eye and said, I am an addict in recovery and when you do a background check you are going to see two felonies. If you give me a chance you will not be sorry. The guy did and he was never sorry. I like to think my brother's honesty changed the future for other people with criminal records, at least with that one company.
 
the best way to avoid them is by taking life with as little seriousness as possible;)

wait untill you have kids intead of dogs..

Oh and star I liked%) the article/blog you posted so much I couldn't wait and posted it in DitM with credit to you
 
herbavore said:
We all like to laugh at my poor mom in our family because she applied for a job working at a video store chain to supplement her retirement. My mom has a PHD, was a university professor and then worked in government at the state and federal levels for years developing policy as well as implementing new programs etc. She failed in her online application because she was so honest about really stupid questions.:\
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Haha. If I was honest about question 9 I don't think I'd get the job either.
 
A troll?

I'm sick of being alone. Sick of not holding a job. Sick of life in general, I feel I can't cope. It wouldn't be hard to turn the lights off if it wouldn't ruin the lives around me.
 
floatingaround said:
I'm sick of being alone. Sick of not holding a job. Sick of life in general, I feel I can't cope. It wouldn't be hard to turn the lights off if it wouldn't ruin the lives around me.
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Things don't sound good floatingaround ( nice UN BTW ) have you looked to the people around you that you mention for support ?
 
The people that help are a couple people from this forum and one or two friend IRL.

The truth is if my mum were to pass there wouldn't be much else in this world keeping me here.

I'm just having one of those nights.
 
It's morning in my corner of the globe and I can see blue sky from the window:)

Tomorrow may be a better day, I know that sounds like a cliché but it's one that holds a lot of simple truth.

As it is your mum is still around and I'm sure your happiness is one of her biggest wishes, jobs and material things come and go and are unlikely to bring happiness in themselves IME.

I wish I was able to make friendships easier and could shake of the deep seated depression that seems to have invaded my life but at the same time I try to focus on the things that I do have and value.

And just to prove how quickly things change, the sky here is now filled with dark clouds and it's started to rain
 
Oh capt you can't not sleep you'll end up ill. Have you spoken to a doctor about the dreams your having???? Was it you who has PTSD? If it is I've been told those dreams can be really traumatising as you are re- living a traumatic experience, over n over again. Is this what's happening to you?
I know that therapists have to be extremely careful with PTSD clients encase they get re- traumatised because even sense like a smell can take a person straight back to re-living the traumatic event. If this is what's happening it's best to see a doctor n explain everything to them what is happening to you as you can't avoiding sleep or living this way. You'll end up making yourself ill with it.

Sorry I can't help you any further but I'm always hear to listen if you ever need someone to talk to or owt xxxc
 
Just checked E-mails n there was one off one of my old trolls who followed me around all the forums on the Internet. Anyway I read the vile message n burst out out laughing then forwarded it to a friend who knew all about it. To think I used to let those trolls bother me n hunt me down when I was heavily drinking n making a complete prat of myself.
Now I just laugh n think, what a sad individual to follow someone around the net playing vicious games instead of doing something more productive n worthwhile.
I'd have been extremely hurt over this six months back. I think I'm making progress n I'm really pleased with myself. That E-mail has made my day lol :) xxxx
=))
 
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That's good eve. Remember it's just the internet, don't let people get to you. I know it can be hard sometimes.
 
That's the right attitude to have Evey, and it is laughable when you think about it. This person trying to wind you up has nothing better to do. What's wrong with people? I mean we are supposed to be adults here. If it keeps up, can you block them?
 
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