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Vent/Rant Thread vs I'll tell you how I really feel (Triggering Content)

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I've got a great job and I just can't find good housing with normal room mates. Housing is fucked here I work hard enough I should have my own place. Fuck roommates. Unless you guys are boys going in you get fucked. I've been socializing a lot more too meet good candidates.
 
I am so fucking tired of listening to my neighbors have sex.

I don't know if it's because it is that our bedrooms are aligned to where I can hear so well it sounds like I am in the bed WITH them, or if it's because my boyfriend has been in prison and I have not had any dick for so long?

I do know one thing though.. GOD HELP THEM WHEN HE GETS OUT.


GAME ON!
 
deltakappamu said:
I am so fucking tired of listening to my neighbors have sex.

I don't know if it's because it is that our bedrooms are aligned to where I can hear so well it sounds like I am in the bed WITH them, or if it's because my boyfriend has been in prison and I have not had any dick for so long?

I do know one thing though.. GOD HELP THEM WHEN HE GETS OUT.


GAME ON!
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I got a room mate that keeps fucking in the shower. The same one I have to use. Not to mention all the noises. I hate rude sex.
 
Shit. Seeing as certain people think i'm a fuck up and won't quit drugs I may as well take them right? or at least make you think I take them, since you probably follow my posts. One big stuff up in 14 years doesn't mean anything seeing as I knew what I was doing, I knew it was dangerous, I pushed my limits, because I wasn't getting the same effects.

Watch me succeed in 2014 while still taking drugs occassionally.
When I have succeeded I will stop.
 
Prove people wrong then, Dunno. You have the power to do that. Whoever said that may be trying to show you tough love. Some people think it's the right way of doing things.

Ok so you've messed up it doesn't mean that you can't change things round, eh?!

Can I ask what you mean by follow your posts? If you think someone may be harassing you on bluelight please talk to a moderator about it they may be able to help you.

Please don't be so hard on yourself xxxx
 
deltakappamu said:
I am so fucking tired of listening to my neighbors have sex.

I don't know if it's because it is that our bedrooms are aligned to where I can hear so well it sounds like I am in the bed WITH them, or if it's because my boyfriend has been in prison and I have not had any dick for so long?

I do know one thing though.. GOD HELP THEM WHEN HE GETS OUT.

GAME ON!
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How long has he been inside?
 
never,ever getting married again for economical reasons.
the amount of bs that goes into this thing….
I don't have any money to spare.none.
i have just enough,maybe a lil less,lil more sometimes/

gonna chill with some green now….
got a renewal on my 420 card here in CA and that was a good day.
that's the thing.
if I want to keep everyone happy i need to give certain things up.

i don't know quite what action to take,I have the meetings,green,guitar,a decent stereo and some food.
never get married.it's pointless and only causes more misery.
 
Cant fucking believe my life right now

my ISP is doing some stupid shit trying to block bluelight making me restart my browser then my computer.

all of a sudden my mouse doesnt work

i'm getting fucked over for money

go to the chicken shop, they got a £2.70 deal for some chicken and chips, I walk in and ask the cunt and he goes "£3.30" and grins in my face. If I wasn't this weak I'd have knocked him the fuck out right there on the spot.

So now I got to get on the bus, go in the rain and waste money just to get some food.

im beyond vexed right now
it's a next level vex with me when I get pissed off
 
Hey plmar, it's not very likely that the world is really conspiring against you but it does seem that way sometimes, I'll concede that.

Your ISP can't make you need to restart you're browser, entertaining such stuff is a road to a very dark place. ( try another browser or better still another PC and another browser ) or blame Bill Gates, I find the latter very effective with such issues.

They say these things come in 3's, personally I think these things happen all the time and it's just a question of how we are able to deal with them at the time...perspective and all that.

Hoping your outlook improves and the price of chicken stabilises;)

Best wishes
 
Eveleivibe said:
Prove people wrong then, Dunno. You have the power to do that. Whoever said that may be trying to show you tough love. Some people think it's the right way of doing things.

Ok so you've messed up it doesn't mean that you can't change things round, eh?!

Can I ask what you mean by follow your posts? If you think someone may be harassing you on bluelight please talk to a moderator about it they may be able to help you.

Please don't be so hard on yourself xxxx
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Yes and that's what I plan on doing. Yes I know it's tough love that's why certain things are going on.
No one is harassing me on Bluelight. Someone I know or some people I know, know what my username is.

It's complicated.
 
plmar said:
Cant fucking believe my life right now

my ISP is doing some stupid shit trying to block bluelight making me restart my browser then my computer.

all of a sudden my mouse doesnt work

i'm getting fucked over for money

go to the chicken shop, they got a £2.70 deal for some chicken and chips, I walk in and ask the cunt and he goes "£3.30" and grins in my face. If I wasn't this weak I'd have knocked him the fuck out right there on the spot.

So now I got to get on the bus, go in the rain and waste money just to get some food.

im beyond vexed right now
it's a next level vex with me when I get pissed off
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Blocking bluelight???? Are you from the UK? If you are the government has told ISPs/mobile providers to put content lock on n you have to tell them you don't want it. I've had to do it with my mobile network as it blocked Bluelight n we can't be having that, can we. Not being without my BL fix. Jokes aside, it could be that if you're in the UK. If you're elsewhere then sorry I'm not sure xxxx

Dunno if you need to talk to anyone in private you're welcome to pm me anytime. If you're anonymity is becoming a problem you can make a new user name. Best to talk to the mods about that if you do.
 
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Captain.Heroin said:
I am unbelievably frustrated with my brain and body.

I dreamed of horrible stuff.
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I feel for you Captain, I have disturbing dreams on a regular basis and have done on and off for a long time.

The ones that stick with me aren't always the ones that are most obviously horrific and I find it almost impossible to describe them to anyone....their dreams after all.

I can't really offer advice, I've found most of residual bad feelings subside over a few days and grounding myself with simple things like getting outside or listening to uplifting music help, I feeling with you on this one<3
 
Sometimes i have dreams that impact me greatly and cause alot of emotion.

I just want to say i am just in general pissed off. I lost my great grandmother saturday the 1st and im going through an assortment of emotions and its hard to cope with life & responsibilities on top of being a good father for my 3 year old lil girl. Death is a natural part of life but FUCK its so hard and it fucking pisses me off. my tolerance for my peers and the bullshit of everyday life is slowly diminishing. its so hard to be strong and put on a mask to please the world when inside you feel like you are fucking rotting
 
Eveleivibe said:
Blocking bluelight???? Are you from the UK? If you are the government has told ISPs/mobile providers to put content lock on n you have to tell them you don't want it. I've had to do it with my mobile network as it blocked Bluelight n we can't be having that, can we. Not being without my BL fix. Jokes aside, it could be that if you're in the UK. If you're elsewhere then sorry I'm not sure xxxx

Dunno if you need to talk to anyone in private you're welcome to pm me anytime. If you're anonymity is becoming a problem you can make a new user name. Best to talk to the mods about that if you do.
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Thanks... I don't know what happened, my internet stoppd working all of a sudden and after it came back it wouldn't let me load BL and a page from my ISP came up each time saying I have to wait 5 minutes or something, weird..
It's fine now though. If they had put some sort of content lock on me I'd give them hell over the phone.
 
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