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Vent/Rant Thread vs I'll tell you how I really feel (Triggering Content)

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I really don't why I try caring or helping people. I put a lot of heart into n just end up hurt every time.
Really not sure whether to cancel my counselling appointment today as i can't stop crying n ferl tired. Just not in the mood for it at :(
 
Eveleivibe said:
I really don't why I try caring or helping people. I put a lot of heart into n just end up hurt every time.
Really not sure whether to cancel my counselling appointment today as i can't stop crying n ferl tired. Just not in the mood for it at :(
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I feel you, this fucking weather doesn't help at all.
I wish I could move to cali or hawaii or something :|
 
^^ I used to say the same thing...

Then I moved to cali... haha. I mean of course I know it's not as easy as make a decision and do it - but if you REALLY want to, you can make it happen with time. ;)
 
Counselling appointment cancelled. Hopefully someone who really needs it can have it. Lol capt my dream has always been to visit Australia xxxx

plmar said:
Thanks... I don't know what happened, my internet stoppd working all of a sudden and after it came back it wouldn't let me load BL and a page from my ISP came up each time saying I have to wait 5 minutes or something, weird..
It's fine now though. If they had put some sort of content lock on me I'd give them hell over the phone.
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Once a day BL goes off for 5 minutes or so to do some maintenance n by what you're saying seems like it's that. I don't think it was 'content lock' after all. I had that content lock from T-Mobile (now EE) n a page asking for my credit card details. In NO WAY was I going to do that n I phoned them up n gave them what for. NO WAY WAS I NOT GOING TO ACCESS BLUELIGHT lol - but I told them it seemed dodgy to ask for my credit card details n they said it seemed like a scam n not to do it. I was don't worry, I told them. Nah, sounds like it was just routine maintenance if it was onky 5 minutes.
Are you from the UK, if you don't mind me asking? You sound very much like you are n sometimes it's easier to give advice if I know the rough location of where a person is from (even though I had a good whinge over that once hehe).
 
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I'm so fucked and frustrated with money and debt. This is too fucking much.
 
ad lib said:
I'm so fucked and frustrated with money and debt. This is too fucking much.
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Me too. This is my main source of suffering these days, and the only thing that I cannot seem to really fix about my life. My dark emotions come out when I get too caught up in worrying about how I'm going to survive. It feels like an addiction when you're thinking about money 24/7. :(

So ya, you're not alone. But I don't have any great advice to share.
 
Black Rabbit of Inlè said:
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I'm so burnt out from work that it's affecting all aspects of my life.



I know the feeling, I only recently got all mine sorted out and it's so freeing the moment you can actually say you owe nothing :D
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yeah burnt out too so I slept as soon as I got home after work for the past couple of days and now I feel alright.

Yep debt sucks huh ah well we do what we can right? I would still enjoy the money I have coz ya just never know when you are gonna go...
 
Mr.Scagnattie said:
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Yeah. You just have to figure out some kind of realistic payment plan.. an extra 20 bucks a week, or whatever it is.. working that debt down.
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Yeah Its actually not that bad but still kinda struggling cause there's so much bills 8(
 
Thanks guys. I just want it to go away. I need to hit the lottery...ASAP :(. My student debt is absolutely outrageous. I don't think it will ever be paid off... Then I have my car too
 
Applying for jobs online is preferable to being skinned alive, but just by a tiny bit...

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And it involves a lot of dishonesty.
 
Captain.Heroin said:
Dreams were intense again last night but seemed less "aversive" to me now?? Why ? I don't know.

I am hoping to not have dreams tonight, or to not be disturbed by them.
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There is something inexplicable about dreams, it feels like, in dreams you can maintain a totally skewed perspective, oddness seems normal. I'm not sure I've explained that well, which kinda proves the point.

I've had some horrific dreams and shook them off before breakfast and then others that would see less disturbing have upset me for days or weeks. I still have fleeting memories of a fragmented dream I had 3 or 4 years ago triggered by the 5HTP I was taking in an attempt to self medicate depression, I don't think there was even a narrative to it just images appearing as if in a low frequency strobe light, horrible images.

I hope you sleep better tonight Captain
 
ad lib said:
Thanks guys. I just want it to go away. I need to hit the lottery...ASAP :(. My student debt is absolutely outrageous. I don't think it will ever be paid off... Then I have my car too
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Oh I am still payin my student loan from years back and man its such a head ache lol. Let's start buying lotto tickets lol

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Applying for jobs online is preferable to being skinned alive, but just by a tiny bit...

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And it involves a lot of dishonesty.
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Oh yeah it does!

What if you were asked "where you ever fired from your jobs before what are you going to answer?
 
Maya said:
What if you were asked "where you ever fired from your jobs before what are you going to answer?
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I'll look that interviewer directly in the eyes and say: "I have an affinity for heroin. I also have a relaxed appreciation for objective morality. And what society is too primitive to understand, it has instead tried to punish out of me."
 
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