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Things you have lost, probably due to benzo use, or any other substance

Around 5 grams of DMT into the inside of my pocket when walking into a festival, had just finished washing it the night before so it was pure white crystals, put me in a bad mood for a long while. Was not benzo related or anything, I just didn't really realise the melting point was so low. After over an hour of walking in the searing heat when it came to setting my tent up I found the lining of my pocket was completely infused..
 
Ah thats be so frustrating, had the pocket in question been smoked yet? ;), i know i would haha
 
Well it was stupidly all placed in a big paper wrap, hence the seeping through and leaking. The paper was unwrapped and left to dry out and there were a couple of hits but hardly anything.
 
Mobile phones seem to be the main thing I seem to lose, hence why I tend to buy cheap ones nowadays. In fact, recently got a call from the police claiming to have found my phone in Shorditch. Keep it, I can't be arsed.

The main thing I've lost on benzos is time and memories though. Too many black holes to mention.
 
tons of stuff, most importantly though months and months, of actual real memories that never settled, I have so many blank spots due to benzo abuse that I'm not sure if I remember more or less of the last 9 years :/ Memories are what I've lost and missed the most, over objects, although lost plenty of those too, and money.
 
Benzos + booze = getting kicked out of a gig by Lydia Lunch herself = loss of pride.
 
Well, as far as I know she didn't manhandle me outta the club, but she did indeed stop the show to have me thrown out (apparently I was rolling around on stage etc). Only know cuz some guy approached me at another show to enlighten me of my actions. He was appropriately worried, and expressed that his friend would be pleased to know that I was OK. Kinda thought it was sweet but majorly alarming at the same time. Lesson learned. :|
 
Yikes. The lack of remembering the incident could be seen as either a blessing or a curse, I suppose. Perhaps a blessing mainly. On the one hand it is a tale for the grandkids (as it were) but on t'other... yikes. Probably not a moment of immense pride I can imagine :\

Booze + Benzos = Fuckup. More or less guaranteed everytime. Have more or less stopped the combo completely (with the occasional lapse) cos it just turns me into someone I'm not. Either of 'em alone are bad enough for doing that 8)
 
Yeah, it's like you desperately wanna remember, but desperately don't at the same time. I've decided it's best left as an immense blur. Thankfully I do remember two ladies who worked at the club struggling to get some sense out of me so they could whack me in a cab home. The cab driver was convinced I was gonna run away without paying. I was like, "do I look in any state to run?!".

There's been one time since then and quite frankly I'm sick of not remembering stuff. It's fucking frightening. I hope anyone in a similar situation sorts themselves out ASAP cuz fuck knows what'll happen in the long run. :\
 
Indeed. Is one of the habits I'm very glad to have kicked properly. Can have benzos lying around forever without any compulsion to take 'em now. Still wouldn't be happy if me scripts were actually stopped cos they really are very handy drugs to have, but is one of the few kinda drugs I know for sure I'm well and truly over as far as real excess goes. Never again. Just ain't worth it recreationally and get you in way too much bother - and worse have little or no memory of how said bother occurred or why. Madness really :\
 
Shooting heroin for a year or two, then suddenly for a week i bought xanax every day along with it. when i stopped and came out of the fog i looked in my stash spot and it was gone.. A balloon of a point of 80% pure tar heroin.

That was over a year ago. Still haven't found it. I dream about that balloon sometimes, with my tolerance nowadays it'd probably keep me high for 2 days
 
I have now 'misplaced' all 3 of my 'respecatable' pairs of glasses that i wouldnt mind being seed dead in.

This leaves with me with a choice of 1990s style Keanu Matrix sunnies, or a huge round pair of paint spattered christopher biggins 80s style horrors.

Is 17 years old enough to be retro yet, or just sadly out of fashion. Sod it im going with the Matrix glasses. Better looking like a 'cool' nutter thatn a ruidicuouls joke of a paedo (not that anything was said against biggins, but those style of specs are ofteen associated with paedos

Or a circa 87 Mcculoch/Mary chain pair, which arent much use as they dont magnify. :sus:
 
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