I'm personally so sick of dealing with my father. I have wasted years in hopes that things can be even decent between us. Truth is tho, it never will- he is a complete narcissist and holds grudges dating all the way back to his childhood, which is why he doesn't speak to any of his family. have any friends, is divorced, and none of his children go around him. I guess i'm the only one foolish enough to keep doing it. He started sending these sob texts about how he loves me and wishes we would spend time around him, and so on... so I caved and go out there. Same. Fucking. Shit. All my life I've dealt with. I pray that I can remember this hurt and anger until the day he is laid to rest so that I don't have to keep putting myself through this. I wish he would change, but I'd be foolish to think it's going to happen in his life.... I just want to cry and fight. Maybe I'll just sleep it off.