ShroomySatori
Bluelighter
Thanks for reminding me to eat. I have a good plant based protein and I have been busy all morning. Normally I would be working but I am too sick. So, I am cleaning and organizing at home and keeping busy for now.
I don't know what to do yet so I am getting on with my day like is is a usual one. I lost my pills today, couldn't find my jeans and took everything not to freak out since it took about an hour for me to find them. I get the picture I am thinking of what to do.
Yeah just not sure what to do and my options are limited this week with the holidays. I'm trying not to freak out but my life is flashing before my eyes I can't help but feel that I won't make it through the week. No matter what I do. I can't lose this life over those it would be such a fucking fucked up waste and I'm finally beginning to enjoy myself like I was sounding good tapering and all my connects disappeared. This is fucked in too many ways that it is not possible to really describe it here. I'm trapped. I'm fucking cornered and trapped and I feel on the verge of being exterminated.
I'm going to get really stoned now. I was cleaning before, I am in too much withdrawal now to do much. I really hope I make it through the week but at least I would die knowing that I tried. Even if it was at the very last minute at least I will have done everything I can but I can't. I can't I really like myself I lost myself I do't even know myself but I don't want to be anywhere else right now. This shit has fucked my whole entire life and I have to act fast but I am always slow to think things through. And I am too sick to think things through. I'm just totally fucked I ruined my life. I feel like confessing my sins and shit like it's fucked I'm not going to make it, realistically it's just fact.
I hope you are having a good day painful one well I am just trying to make it.
I don't know what to do yet so I am getting on with my day like is is a usual one. I lost my pills today, couldn't find my jeans and took everything not to freak out since it took about an hour for me to find them. I get the picture I am thinking of what to do.
Yeah just not sure what to do and my options are limited this week with the holidays. I'm trying not to freak out but my life is flashing before my eyes I can't help but feel that I won't make it through the week. No matter what I do. I can't lose this life over those it would be such a fucking fucked up waste and I'm finally beginning to enjoy myself like I was sounding good tapering and all my connects disappeared. This is fucked in too many ways that it is not possible to really describe it here. I'm trapped. I'm fucking cornered and trapped and I feel on the verge of being exterminated.
I'm going to get really stoned now. I was cleaning before, I am in too much withdrawal now to do much. I really hope I make it through the week but at least I would die knowing that I tried. Even if it was at the very last minute at least I will have done everything I can but I can't. I can't I really like myself I lost myself I do't even know myself but I don't want to be anywhere else right now. This shit has fucked my whole entire life and I have to act fast but I am always slow to think things through. And I am too sick to think things through. I'm just totally fucked I ruined my life. I feel like confessing my sins and shit like it's fucked I'm not going to make it, realistically it's just fact.
I hope you are having a good day painful one well I am just trying to make it.
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