ShroomySatori
Bluelighter
I need to find the right professional. It is going to take time and I better start now with that psych.
Yes it is so I don't hurt myself if I run out, for one. The tinnitus did subside, but it came back.
It took a day to calm down. I woke up in the middle of the night confused. Just cause I skipped my last dose, this may mean that I have to adjust the etizolam lower. I decided to wait 2 hours until the next dose, because I am not really withdrawing too hard right now. Sort of annoying that I woke up at this time but then again I am lucky to be here.
I am in some shock still. I'm SO tired but yes I knew it was going to torture me too, until the very end until I cracked and gave in. I feel like I slept really good though. I don't know why that is. I am weary of confusion in this morning like in the horoscope. I'm already confused. I can just nap later haha I need to figure out how much etiz I need a day right now and I only can if I dose at the right times or like, at least within an hour of them.
I had to go through that. It was a test. I nearly died. I was convinced I was going to die. God had me convinced. Everything was out of my hands and I was withdrawing so hard I could not lift my head up and communicate.
Yes it is returning quickly. I started reading again yesterday! A really complex book, I only read like two pages haha but I still did!
I need to try and relax, but I have to stay awake now. If I don't, my body is used to dosing at these times and I will further destabilize myself.
It says watch out for confusion maybe I will relapse on coffee lol. OMG a blondie roast coffee right now would be amazing. I have a whole bag from Christmas I haven't touched. I went through caffeine withdrawal from 10 cups a day all year to zero when I was in benzo withdrawal there was no way I was touching a cup. I feel like I should just keep off it now but I'm so f*cking lazy and I like coffee. I should allow myself a damned coffee lol. Like you are saying, I am still out of it I know this doesn't make complete sense. I haven't taken a benzo in 11 hours though and had an early awakening. That sucks... but I can nap today.
I think I am like this because I haven't smoked weed in so long and just don't realize it. By 'so long' I probably mean 6 hours max haha and to me that is an eternity to wait for a bong toke aha.
Yes it is so I don't hurt myself if I run out, for one. The tinnitus did subside, but it came back.
It took a day to calm down. I woke up in the middle of the night confused. Just cause I skipped my last dose, this may mean that I have to adjust the etizolam lower. I decided to wait 2 hours until the next dose, because I am not really withdrawing too hard right now. Sort of annoying that I woke up at this time but then again I am lucky to be here.
I am in some shock still. I'm SO tired but yes I knew it was going to torture me too, until the very end until I cracked and gave in. I feel like I slept really good though. I don't know why that is. I am weary of confusion in this morning like in the horoscope. I'm already confused. I can just nap later haha I need to figure out how much etiz I need a day right now and I only can if I dose at the right times or like, at least within an hour of them.
I had to go through that. It was a test. I nearly died. I was convinced I was going to die. God had me convinced. Everything was out of my hands and I was withdrawing so hard I could not lift my head up and communicate.
Yes it is returning quickly. I started reading again yesterday! A really complex book, I only read like two pages haha but I still did!
I need to try and relax, but I have to stay awake now. If I don't, my body is used to dosing at these times and I will further destabilize myself.
It says watch out for confusion maybe I will relapse on coffee lol. OMG a blondie roast coffee right now would be amazing. I have a whole bag from Christmas I haven't touched. I went through caffeine withdrawal from 10 cups a day all year to zero when I was in benzo withdrawal there was no way I was touching a cup. I feel like I should just keep off it now but I'm so f*cking lazy and I like coffee. I should allow myself a damned coffee lol. Like you are saying, I am still out of it I know this doesn't make complete sense. I haven't taken a benzo in 11 hours though and had an early awakening. That sucks... but I can nap today.
I think I am like this because I haven't smoked weed in so long and just don't realize it. By 'so long' I probably mean 6 hours max haha and to me that is an eternity to wait for a bong toke aha.