dude, not for nothing, but you gotta say more than that to even get a response that means something back from most. come on, man.. get up and say what needs to be said. do what needs to be done! you are more than capable of doing whatever the fuck needs to be done to take whatever it is to the next step and make the RIGHT THING OCCUR! I dont care what the fuck it is, man.. cuz I've been there. whether its a death in family, loss of job, money, life, whatever it could be, it could ALWAYS BE WORSE, so be grateful.
I remember first time getting arrested I thought it was the worst, then I got arrested again, my first OD I thought was the worst, then I OD'd again. I remember just OD'ing in general thinking it was the worst, then I had actual seizures due to a brain tumor/cancer that almost killed me. I remember getting in an accident which I thought was so bad; then I flipped a car over due to a seizure based on the cancer and almost killed myself and others. dude, what I am saying is I dont care what one may think right this second, it can always be/get worse, so you have to appreciate it ALL! and realize you can build and make yourself better from it all.
dude, I am a heroin junkie! I had many friends DIE! I OD'd more than I can count; I've woken up 12hrs later w/o a fucking clue what happened. been in psych wards, rehabs, jails, etc, more than you can count on both hands. from federal, to state, to county to whatever the fuck is next, I've been through it all and then some, but still hanging in there and happy w/ what is next. I am FINALLY becoming clean and WANTING TO BE CLEAN! yea, I am on probation for my 2nd DUI and going away for 2 weeks coming up because I have to but I am happy regardless. I am going out more often w/ PAST FRIENDS because I am not in the house shooting dope and being a fucking loser like I once was. I am making a name for myself again and doing what I want to do and what I need to do to make myself who I want to be and who I once was or at least thought I was before.
dude, if you want to talk, just PM me, I'd love to help you and also learn more about your situation. I actually plan on quitting my SHIT Software Sales gig (which pays extremely well) and going BACK to school for Psych degree and jump into counseling; there are so many classes/courses around Boston being offered and its something that truly interests me and something I can truly relate to and help others with, so please, reach out to me and lets talk, man. I dont want to hear you say you are ready to die because I disagree w/ you regardless of how much I know.. and how about this, if we talk, and I truly do agree, I will tell you straight up I can see what you are saying and that you have no other choices and may be better off dead, but lets talk first before we go ahead and speak any more of this nonsense.. because you have been a good dude on here and actually helped me out many times, whether you realized it or not, so let me do the favor and TRY TO HELP YOU JUST ONCE!
