blahman8000
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Dec 3, 2009
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There is a voice in my head. It is not audible, it's in my mind. It has just arrived. It's been bothering me for hours. I truly don't know if this was an indication of mental illness, or I'm just an idiot drunk. Perhaps both. But it keeps telling me to kill myself. It laughs at me. But I know that it's just my own voice talking, inside my head.
I debated within myself about bringing this up, but I need somebody to help me. I truly need somebody to help me. Please.
I'm wondering if I must be a bad person. That I deserve this. Really, I must be a complete jerk. I don't want to feel this way. I don't want my family to even say that I'm not mentally ill, that I'm just being this way. I don't WANT to be this way. And it's all my fault. I go through the day feeling like everything is my fault. I cannot step on an insect by accident without feeling bad about it. I can barely get through the day. I am losing it. That's me.
I debated within myself about bringing this up, but I need somebody to help me. I truly need somebody to help me. Please.
I'm wondering if I must be a bad person. That I deserve this. Really, I must be a complete jerk. I don't want to feel this way. I don't want my family to even say that I'm not mentally ill, that I'm just being this way. I don't WANT to be this way. And it's all my fault. I go through the day feeling like everything is my fault. I cannot step on an insect by accident without feeling bad about it. I can barely get through the day. I am losing it. That's me.
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