The Suicide Support Thread

[severely etarded]

I hope usedtobe made it through the past few days.. If nothing else for his daughter's sake.

I've been thinking.. even though I'm fed up with life, and I don't see any way around it, I'll probably be shot by police in a blaze of gunfire. I really don't want to participate in what life has coming for me.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

^ BL wouldn't be the same without you buddy. Have you ever considered that time will pass quicker than it seems like it will?

 

[severely etarded]

^ I know, and it will probably pass like you said but damn, idk. to everyone here. I'm not so much suicidal as just not giving a duck lol

 

[Captain.Heroin]

I know what you mean man. I have to try to get myself out of a rut - even after I am 32 days clean. I'm working on how I feel and how I am coping. I am not looking forward to it - but I don't think I could without really great people here like ad lib.

A lot of you are also just as amazing and inspirational to me.

 

[GodSpeedK]

It's not like I even will, but I just CANNOT stop thinking about going into the forest and hanging myself. Feel so horrendously empty and intolerably lonely.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

^ want to talk about it? I'm here.

I am trying to reprocess memories and it's the first time in a while I haven't broken down.

 

[ad lib]

It's not like I even will, but I just CANNOT stop thinking about going into the forest and hanging myself. Feel so horrendously empty and intolerably lonely.

Hey, what's going on?

 

[GodSpeedK]

Nothing really, it's just how I feel when I hate pretty much everything about my life. Being human is so overrated.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Nothing really, it's just how I feel when I hate pretty much everything about my life. Being human is so overrated.

Well use that hatred to motivate yourself to get some change that you deserve! I'm sure this is what I did to get off buprenorphine; I grew tired of the withdrawal/dependency and I'm glad I tried - it took two attempts recently to get to today; day 33 clean!

Much GodSpeedK; feel free to PM me if you would like.

 

[Potty]

Anyone got advice on panic attacks?

 

[angeleyes]

Relax and take lots of deep breaths; everything is going to be A-OK, you're still gonna go to sleep tonight and wake up tomorrow feeling fresh, don't stress.

 

[herbavore]

Anyone got advice on panic attacks?

Self-talk helps me. Notice what is happening in your body and just name it in your head. (My heart is racing. This has happened before and I am OK.) It sounds overly simple but it does two things--it stops your mind from wildly veering around looking for ways to feed the panic by centering you in your body and it also lets you practice a calm, rational voice on yourself.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Anyone got advice on panic attacks?

Have you tried therapy? I have had panic attacks rather frequently in the past. I don't know what changed for me.

 

[Potty]

Cheers everyone. I booked a therapy session for tomorrow, I'm heading to bed to have a sleep.

 

[Maya]

Cheers everyone. I booked a therapy session for tomorrow, I'm heading to bed to have a sleep.

Good luck Potty and let us know how it goes.

 

[Potty]

Thanks maya, it went really well I booked some more sessions in case the black dog comes stalking

 

[Captain.Heroin]

I keep having mood swings and very depressing flash backs.

I just want to not feel THIS bad. I can handle most of this - but it seems like my flash backs are getting worse.

 

[Potty]

I'm feeling ok. I just keep having headaches.

Your a strong guy captain-heroin, it's good to have you posting

 

[dwamn]

has anyone here been suicidal along with the person you love most in the world and if you did how did you go about not doing it together

 

[herbavore]

I have never had that experience. Are you both struggling with similar issues? It must be very hard to be feeling this way yourself and then have your despair mirrored in someone else.