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it's really hard to live when my options are to be in pain or to take my pain meds at a dose that works for me which is way too high and wd for a few days a month then hurt anyway cause i'm out
 
Pagey said:
Hey thanks. ) I feel like I don't deserve to be part of this world . e I'm an awful person
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im ^.. i, also feel this way, and hate my self and life to know end..
but pagey you are far from an awful person..the little time you're been here you have made a great contribution to TDS.. youve been there for me and countless others, you have positively touched lives here. you're a beautiful person inside and out..
 
Sconnie I'm sorry to hear you're feeling like this as well. Are you any better since we talked a few weeks ago? :( <3
And thank you so much for your kind words. It means a lot <3
 
^ I was 4 a minute, but now I'm right back @ it.. I did just start a new med, its not making it better but its not making it worse so I'm going to give it some time 2 work... It just sux bc everyday is such a huge struggle 4 me.. I almost feel pathetic bc I know there are so many people who have it a hell of a lot worse then I do. I just can't help it between the anxiety always being high and the depression, I hate my life and daily struggle..I need some1 irl so badly, but every1 I know I can't tt.. No1 knows the extent of my depression, or if they do they just don't care. Although, I'm not gna bug them w/ my problems anyway, it would still b nice 2 have some1 I can b totally open w/ and have them b there 4 me.. I have zero real friends and am 2 old 2 make new 1's..
My life is a pathetic joke. I just want some relief from my torments, but I don't 4 see that happening. Also, some1 2 give a shit would be nice 2..

I just want to give up so badly.. Sorry 4 the rant
 
Mr flowers~ I'm glad ur feeling a lil better 2day... Being in that dark place all the time is no good, but I totally get where ur coming from...hope ur day stays well...
 
I don't want to go on...for fuck's sake i just don't
I need it to work out with him. I feel fucking pathetic but I do. It's the one thing I have to give me hope right now. It's my one light at the end of the tunnel. The one fucking thign and it's not going to work and it's just going to be the same fucking story as usual, I'm just going to end up in the exact same state and hating myself even more and wishing even more I didn't have to fucking go on. and then I'm going to realize i DONT have to go on. i'm getting closer and closer to that realization. it would be so easy to just...stop
 
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i wish life was easy for me literally and figuratively but no i live in my own personal hell like a twisting torrent of fire that never stops burning my flesh to the bone
 
Captain.Heroin said:
I have no words, just feelings.

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<3 I know exactly what you mean buddy. <3


mrflowers00 said:
i wish life was easy for me literally and figuratively but no i live in my own personal hell like a twisting torrent of fire that never stops burning my flesh to the bone
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:( <3 mrflowers <3 I'm so sorry I never realized you were having as rough of a time as you are. I do hope this passes soon :( <3<3<3
 
^Captain and Stardust, I'm sorry you are feeling so down. And Pagey, sconnie and mrflowers, too. Why must such good people feel depression like this?

<3sconnie, I hope with all my heart that the new medication can give you some relief--you have been suffering so deeply and so long.

<3Pagey, try your hardest not to take whatever happens with this guy as anything other than him not wanting to commit to something so early on. Don't give away your power to someone else--no one else' approval of you should be anything other than their opinion.

<3Stardust--do you think it is something specific or is it more general? PM me?

Everybody in this thread: believe in who you are. No one else can do it for you if you don't. Every single one of you is precious, unique and valued. Sometimes it feels like you should be doing more, living a different life, or being different. That is simply not true. It is a trap that you can learn to avoid in your thinking. Stay safe and believe in yourselves. (I do! And you know Herby can't be wrong, right?)
 
^ thnx darling.. It doesn't seem 2 b helping 2 much, but I've only been on it about 2 weeks..living inside my mind is a fucking god awful nightmare.. I wish there was an off switch 4 this whole thing though, I really am just soo exhausted from feeling this way everyday, having zero support irl... Its sooo damn hard, and sux so bad...
Sory I'm not doin well 2day..
 
i got my muscle relaxers today and they really help take the edge off my anxiety when i'm out of my xanax so i'm actually happy right now i hope you all can have a piece of my peace of mind
 
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