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The Sad Thread (Anti-Snoo)

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Cornishman said:
I hope you at least manage to get off the white Miss Funk.

Can't you get into a rehab? Or just away somewhere?
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I'm applying for funding for rehab with my key worker, fingers crossed. Everyone else I know who's flat out seems to get the funding, then comes out and laughs about how much they took the piss when they were in there, and how theyre glad to be back out. You can't force someone to quit, but it makes me wonder why did they accept the 19 grand funding ( example of what one girl I was talking to received - she's been given it three times) in the first place if they knew in their heart they truly weren't serious.

If I was given 19 grand funding to turn my life around, I'd take it and you'd not see me back talking to the people I mention who mock it so much, I'd go make something of myself as I've had enough of the same faces and the same games.

Thank you ATM, I didn't mean to throw your advice back in your face.

I do have none crack and smack taking friends, but I'm terrible at letting people in when I need them. Plus, I don't hear from them that much, unless it's to go for nights out, involving other drugs. I need normality, or I just replace one drug with other drugs.

atm23 said:
If some fucker has over stepped the line in the way a really hope he hasn't, just an address please ;) I have a particular dislike for such things.
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Don't you worry, once I work it out, things will be sorted.
 
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Don't worry for a moment about offending me, Your having a shit time of it, of that there is no doubt and no offense taken on my part.

All the best to you, you'll get through this and be better and stronger for it, "i can feel it me warters girl" ;)
 
arrrrrrrrrrhgggggggghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

was starting to feel vaguely human again after having to leave my office early on friday cos i couldn't even do the basics like not crying. shouldn't have logged in here but i did. what a mistake.

i am probably going to have to leave the site permanently. i should be fucking happy because i just had a submission to a conference in tokyo accepted but instead i'm fucking uncontrollably crying waiting petrified for a fucking pm. i had no idea what i should do, asked for advice, got none, approached somebody who's always saying how you can come to them if you have any problems, no response. i can't handle this. i have never ever come across such hypocritical bullshit in my life.

so, i guess this might be good bye. the only possible way it wouldn't be would be if i get a sincere apology for ending up totally alone in a shitty situation, but it would be a bit too little, too late.

I AM A HUMAN BEING! PLEASE START TREATING ME LIKE ONE.
 
chinup said:
arrrrrrrrrrhgggggggghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

was starting to feel vaguely human again after having to leave my office early on friday cos i couldn't even do the basics like not crying. shouldn't have logged in here but i did. what a mistake.

i am probably going to have to leave the site permanently. i should be fucking happy because i just had a submission to a conference in tokyo accepted but instead i'm fucking uncontrollably crying waiting petrified for a fucking pm. i had no idea what i should do, asked for advice, got none, approached somebody who's always saying how you can come to them if you have any problems, no response. i can't handle this. i have never ever come across such hypocritical bullshit in my life.

so, i guess this might be good bye. the only possible way it wouldn't be would be if i get a sincere apology for ending up totally alone in a shitty situation, but it would be a bit too little, too late.

I AM A HUMAN BEING! PLEASE START TREATING ME LIKE ONE.
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eh, I genuinely hope someone responds to your need soon

apologies are a construct. you don;t need them. you can rationalise that people are cocks and have differing needs and perspectives to yourself. understanding that people do not hold your own principles (nor are they obliged to, even if they say they will, or commit to such) sometimes helps

really hope this feels better soon for you. no malice/agenda intended either

<3
 
chinup said:
arrrrrrrrrrhgggggggghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

was starting to feel vaguely human again after having to leave my office early on friday cos i couldn't even do the basics like not crying. shouldn't have logged in here but i did. what a mistake.

i am probably going to have to leave the site permanently. i should be fucking happy because i just had a submission to a conference in tokyo accepted but instead i'm fucking uncontrollably crying waiting petrified for a fucking pm. i had no idea what i should do, asked for advice, got none, approached somebody who's always saying how you can come to them if you have any problems, no response. i can't handle this. i have never ever come across such hypocritical bullshit in my life.

so, i guess this might be good bye. the only possible way it wouldn't be would be if i get a sincere apology for ending up totally alone in a shitty situation, but it would be a bit too little, too late.

I AM A HUMAN BEING! PLEASE START TREATING ME LIKE ONE.
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Shit know i see this wtf is happening to this place ?
Much <3To You Chinup

I think that this Lady who gave time n dedication to this forum has been bouyed off n treated like a cunt n whoever let thgis happened .
Hope your proud of yer self .
 
I've been thinking of not bothering with BL anymore either, It's nothing but a clique now, in jokes and judgmental people.

I've just had the worst day. It's just one thing after the other, looks like i'm going to hospital for an operation under general anesthetic in two days. I hate operations :( Yet again I did it all alone, as the one person I should be able to rely on, got bored of waiting with me and went off to a mutual friends house. I ended up crying in the street as i'm in so much pain, AND to top it all off I'm dealing with a cluck at the same time so my emotions are all over the place.

Got strong painkillers from the hospital though, that'll kill two birds with one stone. Help pain and cluck, score!
 
cherrycolouredfunk said:
I've been thinking of not bothering with BL anymore either, It's nothing but a clique now, in jokes and judgmental people.
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BL has always been a bit like that tho. The more time one spends here, the more recognised you become as part of a "clique" & the more "in-jokes" you get. Judgemental people come & go.
Its just the way it is - The older crew frequent the place less, the newer generation post more, form more friendships & just generally spend more time here, hence older members feel more isolated. It's an inevitable cycle for any forum/club/community.

Anyway, hope all goes well with the operation if it turns out you have to get it done.

I don't usually come into this thread but had a dream last night that left me feeling sad.
My son came back & it was the happiest day of my life. We had a great time together & I couldn't stop hugging & kissing him. Then I woke up. :(
 
Cherry, sorry you feel like that and I'm sorry about your op, really glad you got it seen to though <3

A4B.. I know exactly the sort of dream you mean. Waking up is just awful :( Much <3 to you.
 
Acid4Blood said:
I don't usually come into this thread but had a dream last night that left me feeling sad.
My son came back & it was the happiest day of my life. We had a great time together & I couldn't stop hugging & kissing him. Then I woke up. :(
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Aw that is achingly sad :(

I used to have that dream a lot when my mam died, then again with my boyfriend. It's part of the grieving process, the subconscious either not wanting to accept it, but also sort of accepting it as you woke up. I used to dream that my mam had come back, but she told me, my dad and sister that we couldn't tell anyone else she was here. I still have dreams about her, and Tom not so much Michael yet as I've not dealt with that, it's too soon and I've hidden from it.
 
<3

Aye, those types of dreams seem to be very common during the grieving proccess. I just rarely allow myself to remember dreams (i.e. sleeping without cannabis or alcohol) so when I do, waking up is followed by intense sadness, dissapointment & longing.

The subconscious will do what it has to do!

Much love people. <3
 
I hope I'm not part of any clique, as I an no ones bothered to tell me, typical I blame Sambo;)

A4B i have young kids I can't begin to even think about losing one of them, I could say more but believe me when I say my thoughts are with you on that one<3

I mean I still grieve a little over an embryo I saw through a micro scope when we did our second and successful round of IVF, only one of the 3 embryos made it and I often think about who was lost so I can't imagine how you must feel but as a father my heart goes out to you.
 
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A4B I feel for you too, also have those dreams about my family:| Is such a happy dream but then the realisation when you wake up is heatbreaking

<3 to you
 
Incredibly sad day. One of my best friends from Uni and favourite people ever died unexpectedly yesterday, he was my age.. Such a shock, beyond gutted. Love you millions Sam, you were one of the loveliest people I have ever met and the world is a much poorer place without you and your smile and amazingly terrible jokes and hardcore-raving and singing and kindness. Say hi to Dave yeah? :( <3 <3 <3
 
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So sorry Effie, life seems to like to kick you when your down sometimes <3<3
 
It's a horrible thing to happen to anybody but it's especially sad for you to lose one of your best friends after all that's gone on in your life recently, Effie. <3

Terrible.
 
Thank you guys <3

Very sad today but trying not to just sit here and brood about it all. Still absolutely gutted though. Life can be so cruel.. :(
 
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