So I was chipping up to 2.5 months ago and one day I said fuck it. I've been through full wd's from 100 mg oxy a day and thought aw I can do it again. However it was effing hell.
Somehow I was 120 oxy a day up to like 2-3 weeks ago and I took some time off. At home I would just eat um when I felt like it. One day a week ago I took over 300mg not at once in like 60-80 mg a time. Now I find that I'm normally craving at least 200 mg.
Not Again
I found myself in your situation. I used hydrocodone for a couple of years with very gradual increases. With the oxy the increases were more frequent. I remember being at 120 mg, taking 20 mg pills & thinking that wasn't to bad & i could taper. Next thing i know i am not "feeling it" at 120 & at the end of my run (now) I would easily take 300-360 a day, every day, of the 30 mg pills- crazy amounts. The high was so nice then it would only last an hour, then half hour & I kept chasing that good feeling the rest of the day. I kept trying to taper & would do ok for a few days then "reward" myself by using high amounts again. I just couldn't get off the oxy. The hydro i tapered but the oxy is just to hard for me. I went to a doctor, an addiction specialist to taper & he put me on oxycontin 80 mg twice a day with oxycodone to equal my usual dose then started tapering me. I still couldn't do it so now I am getting set to do the short sub taper with another doctor (i am older with health issues, that's why i have to use a doctor), this Sunday i should be able to start. I am a bit concerned because i am on extended release but hopefully 24 hours will be enough. I have comfort meds so i should be ok.
IMHO the only way to taper is write it out on paper (or computer spread sheet), have someone strong hold your pills & dole them out to you or get one of those pill safes so you can only get a certain amount per day.
Maybe you are stronger than me & can taper, if you can hate what the pills have done to you that may be enough to get off. It's not worth using everyday & being stuck. Good Luck!