This is something I am about to go thorough for the 4-5th? Time now?
It all started 2 years ago with simple 10mg Norcos. Popping 2 a day and being on cloud nine. I would typically go on "binges" or longer periods of use, the longest being 8 weeks. Every time, except the first time I knew I was in WD.
As time went on tolerance took its course and 2 became 4 per dose then 12/day, when I switched to Roxy10mg. Again, about a 7 week run with some exalgo throw in the mix that I took apart to get at the hydromorphone w/o the time release. I ended that run June 1st. Was gone for 2 months marrying my wife, I was so high on life at the time, I barely even knew I was in WD. All I had was some headaches and some stomach issues. I thought I broke the habit being 2 months clean.
Idiotically, on my return to the us, I thought oh! I can chip and use once a week! Right. That never works. Now here I am again! this time occasionally up to 150-165mg oxy/day. This dose was only for a week. I'd say on average I was on 75-90/day. Still high. It's been 8 weeks, lol. I'm done with the shit. It's lost all magic, no euphoria, just a mild mood increase. Tbh, I felt the best in years in the summer when I was opie free.
I have 2 2mg Sub strips. I know it's not much, but I was going to wait for WD to kick I'm, which seems to be taking its time. Even after 24 hours lately I've shown little symptoms. I'm going to try .5 or 1 mg and see how I feel when I finally hit WD. I am mainly curious, as my history of returning to the pills countless times, if maybe I should just go on a low dose maint dose of sub to keep any craving at bay. Or does anyone think, I can taper with this 4 mg of sub, feel a little WD. I have Ativan,Valium, and Xanax on hand. And just try again at staying clean without going on maint bupe. I don't want to do any MMT.
I miss the old days of 20mg hydro making me feel so great, sigh. Tolerance. Nonetheless, any insight would be appreciated. I know I'm new to posting, but I've been reading for a long time now.
Should also mention I've been using more opiates and benzos as I've come home from marrying my wife, she lives outside the US and the process of getting someone here spouse or not, is a pitfa, I feel this has upped my usage significantly, I've been very stressed missing her.