YourNeighbor
Greenlighter
Hi, I have been addicted to opiates (mainly oxycontin, lately opana) for about 3 years now. I was a daily user with a moderate habit; at my peak was using anywhere from 80 to 160mg oxycodone. I have just recently been able to take control of my addiction and cut back use to about once every 2 weeks. I still suffer slight physical wd if I use for more than a day in a row.
However, every time I use now I do not feel the same awesome "high" that I remember, and instead I feel nauseous and usually end up throwing up...even off of only like 15 or 20mg oxy! The last time I used was 5 mg opana and I got so sick! Wtf, just like two months ago I blew down an entire 40 of opana! When I very first started using I would get sick a lot, but I would puke and then immediately feel better and go back to feeling AWEsome. I know it is probably best that I cannot attain this high anymore as it creates somewhat of an aversion in my brain (even though when I start to crave really bad I just focus on the 'good ol days' of using) but I am curious as to whether or not this is permanent. The only catch to all of this is that if I use for about 3 days, my body seems to get used to it again and I can feel kiiinda high and not get sick, but still not anywhere near as euphoric as it used to be.
Basically I want to know if any of you have had experience with this before, and whether or not you ever were able to 'recreate' that great sedated yet energized high again that has sucked so many of us in to the cycle of addiction. Any input is appreciated. Thanks.
However, every time I use now I do not feel the same awesome "high" that I remember, and instead I feel nauseous and usually end up throwing up...even off of only like 15 or 20mg oxy! The last time I used was 5 mg opana and I got so sick! Wtf, just like two months ago I blew down an entire 40 of opana! When I very first started using I would get sick a lot, but I would puke and then immediately feel better and go back to feeling AWEsome. I know it is probably best that I cannot attain this high anymore as it creates somewhat of an aversion in my brain (even though when I start to crave really bad I just focus on the 'good ol days' of using) but I am curious as to whether or not this is permanent. The only catch to all of this is that if I use for about 3 days, my body seems to get used to it again and I can feel kiiinda high and not get sick, but still not anywhere near as euphoric as it used to be.
Basically I want to know if any of you have had experience with this before, and whether or not you ever were able to 'recreate' that great sedated yet energized high again that has sucked so many of us in to the cycle of addiction. Any input is appreciated. Thanks.

