grumpygrouse
Bluelighter
edit: sorry, I'm a socially inept mess wanting to offload my own problems onto somebody who has plenty of their own.
Since I have so much crap going on in my life I happily offer myself for loading dock if needed. Seriously. The best way to deal with problems is to help other people deal with shit... or whatever.
On topic - I have discovered that I don't drink alcohol that much while on EPH. I usually mix my red wine with water (so the taste won't be so heavy) and half a bottle per night... is quite okay. Without it I go really quickly to this dark place where you have to top up and top up and then paint some walls and again top up and then the paranoia hits and fuck, it's morning and so on. Alcohol makes it much more chill experience.
I need drugs like I need oxygen. why did i sign up to that rehab thing. fuck fuck fuck
Try to take it as a fancy vacation and trip to "the other side"... I would definitely take it as my next book. If writing isn't your thing, maybe you can imagine it as a research for that movie you will one day make. Or just detox. A break. Find out what YOU are WITHOUT anything in your system. It might be pretty interesting thing to discover.
Man, I have been on drugs or meds or both for almost 14 years. I have no idea what I am without nothing... Maybe I should also "take a vacation"... Hm...
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