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i would if offered, but....
this time for real i think i'm gonna try to quit, other than last night i went 3 weeks no drugs other than a little kpin and some JWH, i am gonna try hard to quit legitimately this time because when i do a quarter of my script and aren't even that high, theres nothing I can do but quit while I'm ahead.
wish me luck, i actually mean it this time.
Im about to pass out from a little bit of ativan so goodnight mofuckaz.
but hopefully last night (although it was a PROPER epic night IMO, at least i went out with a real bang) was the last time..
i suppose if i actually havent gotten high on amphets a month from today/have stuck to quitting i'll have something to pat myself on the back at
woohoo
that definitely makes me feel less bad about being the only virgin loser in this whole entier fucking forum, pfft. i just know doing amps doesnt make me feel better any more so theres no reason for me to use them.
every single one of you guys, you all better not ever not be happy with how your guys lives have gone, because i'd give almost anything i could to have a normal successful fun life like all you just take for granted.
goodnight all.
 
llama you know its the lack of dopamine that makes you feel that way right... I feel you man I really do but covering sadness with pharm grade amphetamine isnt the way to go. You seem like a cool guy, but you gotta realize you shouldnt envy what other people have, but think how to get what they have, or something near it

I wasnt gonna post that cause I thought I was too drunk, but now it seems right. Good choice on quiting, stick to it buddy
 
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Nbd;js
 
I'm legit quitting this time 100%, because after last night, the inner fiend in me, the like drive to keep going and not stop, is absolutely gone.
I dont want to do it anymore, it doesn't cover up the depression and loneliness and pain anymore, and i've gotten out of the cycle of staying up late and all that.
This time, I'm quitting for good, and after a while i might just say i dont want the scripts anymore either even for RX/legitimate use. I envy what you all have because after consistantly being outcast by everybody, i've lost faith in me ever getting to live a normal life like all of you, lost faith in things ever changing...
tomorrow i will try to think of something to occupy my time instead of sitting on BL because i dont even fit in here....outcast socially, and even on a diverse internet forum i'm an outcast...i dont belong here, its not like i'm a popular/liked member on here anyway, so i may as well not even come around much.
I quit once for 3 months legitimately, i know i can quit and i am now for good. amphetamines after last night lost their like association with reasonable fun and i've got no desire to use them in the future.
Covering sadness with pharm grade amphetamine isnt the wya to go? Of course not, but you deal with being an outcast from 6th grade till you graduated HS, so you've lost touch with the idea of being social and how to socialize and what its like to have friends and all that, you try dealing with loneliness every day for years and you tell me how YOU handle it.
I'm just beyond help anyway, i'll never be able to have a normal life like all you guys do, or at least i lost faith in me ever getting to have friends, and socializing, and having fun, dating, etc.
I wish you all luck in your future endeavors, i'll probably pop in maybe once a day but probably just to read, i never contributed much anyway and seeing as I was just pretty mcuh tolerated by all you, as in i wasn't in like your guys online friend group or whatever its not gonna make a difference to you guys.
Sometimes i just wonder, how long is this going to go on for, before i stop it myself or if somehow i get to feel the natural highs that all you guys do, like knowing you've got friends, and going out and having fun with other people..
but sometimes i think i'm too broken to fix, too much of a fuckup loser to ever get to have a normal not lonely life.
I'm going to sleep....but in my book i've already quit amphetamines, which is good. i just wish someday i'll get to be truly really happy like all you guys are
So Bon Voyage ED Social, and probably BL period, i dont think i'm going to be on here much specially if i'm not using amphetamines, no point in bothering people who dont like me anyway
llama-out, for an undetermined amount of time.
 
LSDMDMA&9925657 said:
I'm legit quitting this time 100%, because after last night, the inner fiend in me, the like drive to keep going and not stop, is absolutely gone.
I dont want to do it anymore, it doesn't cover up the depression and loneliness and pain anymore, and i've gotten out of the cycle of staying up late and all that.
This time, I'm quitting for good, and after a while i might just say i dont want the scripts anymore either even for RX/legitimate use. I envy what you all have because after consistantly being outcast by everybody, i've lost faith in me ever getting to live a normal life like all of you, lost faith in things ever changing...
tomorrow i will try to think of something to occupy my time instead of sitting on BL because i dont even fit in here....outcast socially, and even on a diverse internet forum i'm an outcast...i dont belong here, its not like i'm a popular/liked member on here anyway, so i may as well not even come around much.
I quit once for 3 months legitimately, i know i can quit and i am now for good. amphetamines after last night lost their like association with reasonable fun and i've got no desire to use them in the future.
Covering sadness with pharm grade amphetamine isnt the wya to go? Of course not, but you deal with being an outcast from 6th grade till you graduated HS, so you've lost touch with the idea of being social and how to socialize and what its like to have friends and all that, you try dealing with loneliness every day for years and you tell me how YOU handle it.
I'm just beyond help anyway, i'll never be able to have a normal life like all you guys do, or at least i lost faith in me ever getting to have friends, and socializing, and having fun, dating, etc.
I wish you all luck in your future endeavors, i'll probably pop in maybe once a day but probably just to read, i never contributed much anyway and seeing as I was just pretty mcuh tolerated by all you, as in i wasn't in like your guys online friend group or whatever its not gonna make a difference to you guys.
Sometimes i just wonder, how long is this going to go on for, before i stop it myself or if somehow i get to feel the natural highs that all you guys do, like knowing you've got friends, and going out and having fun with other people..
but sometimes i think i'm too broken to fix, too much of a fuckup loser to ever get to have a normal not lonely life.
I'm going to sleep....but in my book i've already quit amphetamines, which is good. i just wish someday i'll get to be truly really happy like all you guys are
So Bon Voyage ED Social, and probably BL period, i dont think i'm going to be on here much specially if i'm not using amphetamines, no point in bothering people who dont like me anyway
llama-out, for an undetermined amount of time.
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*sends llama hugs*

You're just on a amp comedown... typical depressed amp comedown rant. Get some rest, clear your head. You'll feel much better tomorrow.
 
And eat a lot of shit, hot dogs, burgers, milkshakes, raw spinach, shit loads of fruit, and don't jack off for a long time lol
 
so you mofos proved my point.
i got some sleep, btw
and obviously i feel so happy now about all the great things in my life, obviously all of the issues i discussed were just from amphetamiens and not the shit i deal with pretty much every day.
i dont fit in here, you all proved that shit.
those feelings are the entire reason why i'd always get high, to get rid of them.
maybe when i'm less of a fuckup and cooler i'll be able to fit in here and actually be taken seriously instead of being laughed at and not taken seriously for feeling depressed, worthless and lonely most of the time.
bai bai
 
You're not the only one who feels that way, you just show it more, there are some who are in the same boat and you wouldn't know it
 
i feel somewhat better now.
that shit i did mean, that still always bothers me, its just not bothering me as much as it was last night.
still bothers me a lot, though.
 
llama i would consider you one cool diggity, you're just different man. Were all different and were all outcasts in one way or another. As far as im concerned theres no line you have to meet no bar you have to pass just to be able to "fit in" everyone fits in man. As far as being an outcast on here? I dont think thats even possible, if we dont seem serious in this thread its because we usually joke around and give eachother shit here. If you want to chat it up sometime man shoot me some pm's ill be happy to discuss some issues you're having and hopefully i can relate to them and give you some advice which helped me.

Dont give up, never give up, keeping positivity in your life will never result in negative endings. Its all about manifestation and knowing the inner you. You want something to happen bad enough then it will just keep the faith brother. Hell i havnt gotten laid in easily a month and i was pretty much just bummed the fuck out but i told myself.
Ya know what dude, ur gunna get some, ur gunna get some soon and you know what? This girl i know (smashed once before) randomly hit me up asking to party this weekend and she totally wants the d bro. Know why she hit me up? Because i wanted her to, in my body, my mind, everything i am wanted to get some and the universe delivered.
 
Dude. Your on a drug forum. You think every ones life here is all dandy and nice? Fuck no. Life sucks, Im sure most will agree. I feel like shit every day, I havent had one day in the past... very long ass time... where I went the whole day without feeling sad. The only happiness I get during me day is from girls who have been playing with my emotions for too long (Im not even going to get into this, but fuck bitches) and drugs. One stays around and makes me feel better for longer (Ill give you a hint, its drugs) before I go back to my self-determined misery.

Sometimes you just need a change. Thats what I need, and from what I can tell thats what you need. But like Obama showed us change doesn't come unless you actually go out and try... without llama ED social isnt whole, but do what you gotta do man. You have my support if it means anything (probably not)
 
of course it's whole without me.
i'm the black sheep of ED social, and yet again.
What bothers me about life is what everyone else here has no issues with.
The only happiness I get is from drugs
oh yeah, forgot to add this
so is saying I HAET MY LIEF TOO BUT I AT LEAST SUCCEED MORE THAN YOU DO/dont fail at life, is that supposed to make me think "oh wow i shouldn't be sad, after all all their lives suck, its obviously so terrible you know having friends and relationships."
pfft.
 
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Well im mostly depressed from the lack of serotonin, or at least that keeps me focused more on all the shitty aspects of my life. And succeed? Ive never done that. The only 2 girls that ever liked me both had boyfriends at the same time, so your not the only one with his card.

But I tried, and that got me the very limited number of friends I have today. I dont know you or your life, so I cant say if you have tried or not, but ask yourself, and if no, for God's sake man get out there and show some effort
 
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