Ximot said:
It's a preoccupation I have long had and it recently came back to me after reading a pretty recent three-star report on erowid about someone's 2c-E experience that was, well, very freaky.
The only answer I had in the face of the terribly harsh and indifferent realities the tripper was shown was to remember love - the only logical conclusion given such a reality. To remember it and gracefully apply it whenever one remembers. Dunno if that's enough though, because it's been a long time since I've been that far out there.
That was my trip report, actually. Glad to see people reading it!
I, too, agree that "bad trips" are very essential to using psychedelics the appropriate way, because it happens in order to teach us something about ourselves that helps us to become a better person. That trip(
http://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=48983), however, was definitely one of my most significant and I'd most definitely not trade the experience. However, in that situation I was quite sure that I my consciousness was going to be destroyed, because I realized that at the core, we are all one and the same, all part of the same god-force that manifests individual consciousnesses as a means to experience. Because this force in and of itself is timeless cannot experience in that way. I'm still working that out.
Anyway, the point is, I use kratom when I need a reprieve from the insanity. Most of the time, I only use it after I've come down and I want the peak to take me as far out as possible, and sometimes coming down can be difficult after you've been so far removed from societal constraints. In the case of the 2C-E being discussed, my heart rate was going through the roof. The crisis I was facing was not personal - it was existential, completely impersonal. had I been facing inner demons or being exposed to my faults, I'd have felt that I needed to tough it out, but in this case, I was just too afraid. The thought would not leave me, a thought which was coming from a higher state of consciousness that I could not seem to deny, was telling me that I'd likely not return the same person, or that I'd have a heart attack. I felt that in this case, kratom was needed to restore safety to the situation. I definitely plan to return to the 2C-E space, at a slightly lower level and knowing what to expect. Also, kratom as opposed to benzodiazepines allows you to keep most of the psychedelic aspects of the trip, while making them seem less threanening and altering your mood to be better.
So in conclusion, I generally think of using something to come down as a crutch, and that one shouldn't be tripping in the first place if they can't deal with what it's showing them. But there can be exceptions.
And in response to those afraid of ego death and depersonalization: ego death is the ultimate goal and the end result of strong tripping. It can teach us SO much about ourselves and nature of reality. Those whose egoes have died also cannot ever look at trivial things with the same importance again. My very first trip was with mushrooms and resulting in ego death, or rather more like ego shrinking until it became infinitely small, and from day forward I have lived my life differently. It's hard to live blindly and destructively when you realize that you are the same god-force that everything else is. But you can't ever see that if you still have an ego. it can be a frightening concept, I know. But you have to learn to let go of the self if you ever hope to gain the message and view of a greater reality that psychedelics offer us.