i have been deeply in love with dxm for years. and i always had to quit taking it for a good while to get the magic back. but after daily use for a few months and sometimes fairly high doses i ended this relationship.
i allways wanted to take ketamine but never didnt because either i wasnt able to get it or i didnt take it when offered to me, because of some mental health problems.
a few months ago i read about mxe and the description sounded almost perfect.
a dissoziative with relative high mu affinity (i also love opioids/opiates).
so about a month ago i ordered mxe from one of the five official vendors.
and after reading almost anything i could find about this compound i finally took some yesterday.
two hours after taking 1 mg as an allergy test (i know... kinda useless without waiting longer and taking a second allergy test dose) i took 12 mg sublingual and about 30 minutes later i began to feel something.
i was a little euphoric because it felt like that would go in a good direction (before dosing i was a little scared or nervous that it could be unpleasent).
half an hour later i began to feel slightly stimulated and took another 12 mg.
20 to 30 minutes from taking that dose very very mild dissoziative effects set in.
i was chatting online which was a fun thing to do.
there was an unpleasent tension in my neck area and i had mild headaches for a while. (read that before from other people.)
except from the initial euphory my mood was not that much lifted and i felt no opioid effects at all. (maybe because i have a opioid tolerance or ..i dont know...read that other people also question the high mu affinity)
one hour later i took another 5 mg which had no significant effect.
i switched out the light layed down and heard some music to see what that would give me.
on dxm even on moderate doses i would drift into other spheres.
but my right eyelid was twitching and i was a little restless and hungry. :D
food tasted like it would on dxm (didnt had vanilla soft pudding yesterday but on dxm its so yummy...anyone ever ate soft pudding on dissoziaties...awesome

).
then after realizing that this wouldnt go any deeper and i was restless instead of beeing relaxed as expected i took 2mg lorazepam.
i watched a few episodes californication and must have fallen asleep very apruptly.
or i just dont remember that i was getting tired.
when i woke up i was in a real good mood.
the whole day i was really motivated and settled a few important things.
i still feel good twelve hours after i got up today.
all in all i am most impressed with the afterglow.
i expected maybe too much from the main experience and next time i will take 25-30 mg initial.
the most annoying thing was the tension in my neck and that i was so restless on the comedown.
zirbeldude