I'm worried that seriously overdoing it the first time I got hold of this stuff has ruined it for me longer term.
I dropped the tale of my experience in the wrong place, accidentally hijacking someone else's trip report (
http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=525132&page=3) but the gist of it is that I was silly. I did a bit of reading up beforehand, but not enough. Certainly I should have come across this thread first.
Anyway I made the rookie error of treating it like Ketamine, which I have a very high tolerance to, and ploughing through far more of it than I should have on my first try.
The result was a right mess. I lost it for several hours and only have vague flashback memories to call upon, but I do know that I had clearly gotten very sketchy and I was so out of my mind that I was worrying strangers.
Anyway in that session I demolished approximately 700mg up my nose, in various doses. And yes I am well aware that this is totally stupid, now. It was utterly foolish and I deeply regret not having done my research better beforehand so as to have been better prepared. I think my biggest failing was underestimating the amount of time it took to for this stuff to really kick in, and so I massively overdosed because I wasn't sensible enough to realise much of the effects were yet to come.
So yes MASSIVE TOOL, and I fully expect tutting and frowny faces at my raucous actions ruining it for everyone else etc. HOWEVER I do want to know whether my stupidity has cost me enjoyment of this chem now.
It is now four days since my first time on MXE and having spent more time reading up and researching I felt like I really should have given this more respect because it sounds SO good (and elements of my hazy memories of the first time do strike a K-hole like chord which makes me think there is enjoyment to be had). So I decided to give it another shot, just with more sensible dosing this time. And here I am.
I did 30mg, waited an hour, did another 30mg and did a further 30mg an hour after that. That was about half an hour ago now.
So I'm feeling the tingly MDMA-like side of things and am fairly bouncy happy in terms of mood but there's not very much else. My balance is a bit off but not uncomfortably so and otherwise I'm just a little warm and fuzzy. I certainly don't feel bad and it's not unpleasant like the horrible horrible way I felt the day after my dangerous 700mg binge, but I don't feel anywhere near the kind of trippy space I'd like to be in.
My concern is that by going far too over the top the first time, have I now just shocked my body into a super high tolerance, or is it just too soon to tell?
I've got Tron Legacy queued up and ready to play so I'm gonna sit down and check that out, in the hope that I'll notice myself enjoying it more as an effect of the MXE, but I can't help feeling that having gotten through 90mg in three hours I should be more slippy messy and spacey.
Maybe the movie will entice the chem into having some fun with my body again.
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I really think that, in the right hands, with the right state of mind, this "medication" can help solve depression in the long-term by reshaping yourself into a new person.
So looking around for some i stumbled on to Methoxetamine and was Very interest. After a few months of waiting to see others affects i decided to get 2gs and after 1 1/2 weeks i got it off white and sandy. First tried 10mg under tongue to see if any bad affects. None, so I snorted 15mg... Waited 2 hours... no bad affects/ any affects at all(wanted to make sure it wasnt some crazy shit). Being a Fan of IMing K (stuff i got was in sealed vails) I got distilled water and a vial, Put 100mg M with 1ml water, Applied heat until it started boiling ( since then i have boiled about 7gs of it, Boiling doesn't seem to affect it) pulled 10cc (10mgish) and put in my leg... About 5mins latter i started feeling the affects And i must say i was pretty impressed. Not quite as enjoyable as K but for legality and Price Im in love. 
) I only have to IM 10-15mgs to start back up. The most I ever take in a shot is 25mg. It is a very powerful/cool RC. I have thought i was gonna die so many times now When i feel like i gonna i just think "Im gonna die... Well i guess Ima eat a french dip first." Or "Im gonna die.. Better take a shower first so my body dont stink". Normally i space out my shots about an hour sometimes 30mins if i didnt get to where i wanted. I try to stay functional during all use. 
