These are just tonight's MXE thoughts. This post will probably make no sense, but I've been enjoying contributing to the MXE community again, so why not.
I find it a pretty wild and bizarre coincidence that being just open and honest about what the compound has done for me, both negative and positive - It seems that quite a few other people are having a very similar experiences to myself, dealing with basically a completely new variety of addiction in a way. There's not really ever been a quality, really out there psychedelic or dissociative compound, that is readily available - other than DXM, but that has WAY worse side effects when used regularly, or Ketamine which is equally as clean, but to me also seems considerably harsher. I've never had MXE completely clog my sinus to the point i couldn't do another bump but K has multiple times. - MXE while it can be addictive, it can still be on of the most clean and enjoyable journeys out of just about any drug or psychedelic that I've ever experienced - and I've tried damn near any and every drug that most people would consider interesting or even worth their time to explore.
MXE is definitely something special - I will always compare it to our generations version of the discovery of LSD by Albert Hoffman. It just miraculously appeared out of pure coincidence from a very intelligent and bright minded person - who realistically is probably very similar to us in many ways - he was a BL Member, which I think is fucking awesome. It just show's how productive and useful an open discussion about something that in normal society would truly be considered taboo and just way the fuck out there can be - It's really awesome that we have this place to come together and collectively help each other figure out something that could potentially at some point be a form of therapy when used under a completely controlled and professional setting. And until then - we can just have each others back and try and help one another with our bizarre obsession.
While I am having issues with addiction and dependence with this compound - It still is an amazingly beautiful compound and one day could possibly be used to really help those people that need it. I feel like MXE is so much more useful than just straight Ketamine. It just seems so much more functional and multidimensional. The shorter duration just makes it that much more fiendish for me, and the higher doses are just that much harder on your body. MXE can be rough on your system, but I feel like Ketamine in the same dose would be even rougher on your body. It's just not as affordable of a habit.
Right now we are still in the completely experimental stage since for some reason, there has just been no real attention on this compound outside of the bans. I don't know why there isn't more research outside of personal experience being done with this compound. It seems to me like most people who really enjoy this compound have tendencies to enjoy taking it maybe a little further than your average human should - not that I'd personally recommend going too far since there seems to be pretty legit information that this compound is not quite as benign as it seems, but there will still always be that crowed of people who are going to go exploring with MXE just to see what it's capable of and just how far we can travel into the human mind and psyche. Although it can be dangerous, when you learn to have self control with this compound, which definitely takes a long time if you have an addictive personality already, I still feel in the future I will be able to control my MXE use and use smarter. It's a compound that deserves being planned around a special occasion or something that's already an enjoyable part of life. I try and save my MXE for when I go out to see live Music, or when I'm trying to Write - It's hard, and had obviously had it's negative health effects on me - but I feel just as quick as I let myself fall into not taking care of myself good enough because of MXE - at the same time, MXE told me straight up - You need to take a fucking break, and I've chilled the fuck out, and even though I still get urges to go out into the wonderful headspace that a is a perfect M-Hole - I also feel like MXE, because of the way it makes you think about yourself and the universe around you - Even when you may be addicted or dependent - It doesn't want to keep you addicted or hurt you any way. The Transformative Information that you can receive from it, which can be so helpful to those who need it - that information is just meant to be given to you gradually, not as fast as some of like to take in our MXE. It seems like at least a few of us like to go pretty damn hard at it - but it's almost like we've all collectively realized that we need to chill out a a bit and get back to gathering information and seeking knowledge instead of just enjoying the other side of MXE that is more party based.
Maybe it isn't the same for everyone, but this is what MXE means to me. I will never forget that it helped me finally open my eyes and mind enough to see, just how fucking disgusting Heroin and the Opiate Lifestyle, For ME, in general can be. Maybe some people can pull it off and more power to you, but I just can't do it. I like MXE because it's a drug that doesn't effect your morals like Opiates. I would never go and sell my TV so I could get some MXE. I feel like this drug is the Addiction of those who Seek Enlightenment. Just my 2 Cents for the night I guess. Peace MXE heads, always living like a Nightowl - Mr. Meowfish
