johannes kreisler
Bluelighter
dmt + zolpidem
Jesus!
I just want to point out an insane combination.
dmt and zolpidem. I've never felt more dead - and in hell. (hell as a place without any reason.)
well, from time to time my two best friends (couple) and I used to jump into the cozy, slightly trippy confusion of zolpidem and do stupid things. I think it's a dirty drug but sometimes ...fun.
earlier this night we were talking about smoking dmt soon. (the girl never smoked it up to this night. too much fear...)
anyways: we were out and had some beers, than had the idea to go to my place and take 15mg of zolpi each.
as zolpi is damn disinhibiting one thing let to another and 3 machines and the spice were on the table. not to forget some n2o.
as I didn't have my scale on hand we eyeballed small amounts first and had nice, but unsatisfying experiences. more was needed.
I have no idea how much was in my pipe, when it hit me big time. but I'd estimate 40-60mg. (setting was perfect: good music, blankets, cuddly...)
as soon as I felt the effects I knew it's gonna be heavy this time.
then there was this single lonely thougth: "you've forgotten something, you're doing something wrong..." (in fact I had to cough from the smoke - already far out. but what probably really bothered me was the zolpidem: "this combo is unworthy; the zolpi is soo confusing and my mind has to be clear now....")
the dimension I found myself in only seconds after those thoughts was absolutely pure madness. indescribable. shattered. stripped. no meaning, no sense. but nice colours. carnival. I've been to several realities with dmt but this one was unique. hell as it's meant to be.
I didn't have fear as there was no me. but iirc the rest of "me" had the idea of god comin by and clearing things up. fucker didn't show up...
opening my eyes was pointless of course as the concept of other realities or even people existing was not yet reborn.
but I could feel something. I came to the conclusion that it was an arm. but there was no reaction.[actually the girl was far out too. liked it btw.
this thought brought up the idea that the 3 of us are having the same trip and are fighting for our lifes/souls together...]
after that I reached the peak as in "time stops, trigger to turn off the universe appears" and more "you took too much man"-stuff like that.
after that I slowly found my way out. (->arm...)
I managed to get up. the first thing I said, was this: "I am sooo happy to be alive!"
followed by: "I am so happy that I'm not insane"
and the thought: "I am so happy that I have real friends"
(and I have "issues" with being alive, being sane and having to rely on other people.)
In fact it was quite a bonding-experience. and it was not a bad experience.
I definitely will not repeat it though. breakthrough dmt on a zolpidem-semi-delirium is absolute madness. ime.
sidenote: the zolpi also fucked up the "I have to and I will bring my life in order"-effect of the dmt comedown...
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maybe this is a trip report an should be moved...? 8)
Jesus!
I just want to point out an insane combination.
dmt and zolpidem. I've never felt more dead - and in hell. (hell as a place without any reason.)
well, from time to time my two best friends (couple) and I used to jump into the cozy, slightly trippy confusion of zolpidem and do stupid things. I think it's a dirty drug but sometimes ...fun.

earlier this night we were talking about smoking dmt soon. (the girl never smoked it up to this night. too much fear...)
anyways: we were out and had some beers, than had the idea to go to my place and take 15mg of zolpi each.
as zolpi is damn disinhibiting one thing let to another and 3 machines and the spice were on the table. not to forget some n2o.
as I didn't have my scale on hand we eyeballed small amounts first and had nice, but unsatisfying experiences. more was needed.
I have no idea how much was in my pipe, when it hit me big time. but I'd estimate 40-60mg. (setting was perfect: good music, blankets, cuddly...)
as soon as I felt the effects I knew it's gonna be heavy this time.
then there was this single lonely thougth: "you've forgotten something, you're doing something wrong..." (in fact I had to cough from the smoke - already far out. but what probably really bothered me was the zolpidem: "this combo is unworthy; the zolpi is soo confusing and my mind has to be clear now....")
the dimension I found myself in only seconds after those thoughts was absolutely pure madness. indescribable. shattered. stripped. no meaning, no sense. but nice colours. carnival. I've been to several realities with dmt but this one was unique. hell as it's meant to be.
I didn't have fear as there was no me. but iirc the rest of "me" had the idea of god comin by and clearing things up. fucker didn't show up...
opening my eyes was pointless of course as the concept of other realities or even people existing was not yet reborn.
but I could feel something. I came to the conclusion that it was an arm. but there was no reaction.[actually the girl was far out too. liked it btw.

after that I reached the peak as in "time stops, trigger to turn off the universe appears" and more "you took too much man"-stuff like that.
after that I slowly found my way out. (->arm...)
I managed to get up. the first thing I said, was this: "I am sooo happy to be alive!"
followed by: "I am so happy that I'm not insane"
and the thought: "I am so happy that I have real friends"
(and I have "issues" with being alive, being sane and having to rely on other people.)
In fact it was quite a bonding-experience. and it was not a bad experience.
I definitely will not repeat it though. breakthrough dmt on a zolpidem-semi-delirium is absolute madness. ime.
sidenote: the zolpi also fucked up the "I have to and I will bring my life in order"-effect of the dmt comedown...
--
maybe this is a trip report an should be moved...? 8)