Vastness
Bluelight Crew
Well I have just flushed the rest of my DCK.
Like an idiot and because I am just addicted to being altered and despite what I said above about DCK not being moreish, I did have a shitty day a few days later and already knew while I was heading back that I was going to break out the DCK, and ended up doing another 160mg in 2 doses of 80mg about 5 hours apart (the first at 0015, the second at 0450 AM the next morning) - the second dose I combined with 40mg of 4-HO-MET which lead to an absolutely beautiful trip, during which I felt like I had really come to terms with some longstanding issues in my life, and again felt a divine presence (which seems to be a common theme for me when tripping on dissociatives recently). However, it is my feeling now that the lengthy comedown just absolutely trashes the reintegration process and I ended up feeling like I'd actually poisoned myself.
2 days after tripping I felt very very down and unmotivated, cancelled all my work and social commitments to just lie around in bed watching TV on my phone and feeling sorry for myself. For the first time ever I realised I had developed some kind of bladder/urinary symptoms also (well, actually not the first time but the first time I absolutely could not deny it to myself), nothing too severe but more frequent urination and a definite feeling of discomfort which came in waves and I am hoping will subside. I took, in total, 400mg DCK over a period of just over 5 days. For science and anyone else's future potential benefit, my dosing was something like this:
Friday - 160mg DCK
Saturday - 80mg DCK
Wednesday - 160mg DCK
Friday - bad feelings begin
Fuck knows what happened to Thursday last week but I can only assume it was a total write off. Probably I just passed out and slept through Wednesday after my impromptu AM psychedelic escapade.
I will note that these doses are perhaps a little on the high side, I probably do have a semi-long term baseline dissociative tolerance but I started off with 2 x 20mg doses an hour apart and just quickly felt that dissociative pull that just compels me to go deeper...
Anyway I think I am done with the entire arylcyclohexylamine class now. It's a shame because they are definitely special substances but I don't think I am getting anything good from them anymore - if I really ever did. Good luck to everyone sticking around. Perhaps I did not respect these substances enough.
Like an idiot and because I am just addicted to being altered and despite what I said above about DCK not being moreish, I did have a shitty day a few days later and already knew while I was heading back that I was going to break out the DCK, and ended up doing another 160mg in 2 doses of 80mg about 5 hours apart (the first at 0015, the second at 0450 AM the next morning) - the second dose I combined with 40mg of 4-HO-MET which lead to an absolutely beautiful trip, during which I felt like I had really come to terms with some longstanding issues in my life, and again felt a divine presence (which seems to be a common theme for me when tripping on dissociatives recently). However, it is my feeling now that the lengthy comedown just absolutely trashes the reintegration process and I ended up feeling like I'd actually poisoned myself.
2 days after tripping I felt very very down and unmotivated, cancelled all my work and social commitments to just lie around in bed watching TV on my phone and feeling sorry for myself. For the first time ever I realised I had developed some kind of bladder/urinary symptoms also (well, actually not the first time but the first time I absolutely could not deny it to myself), nothing too severe but more frequent urination and a definite feeling of discomfort which came in waves and I am hoping will subside. I took, in total, 400mg DCK over a period of just over 5 days. For science and anyone else's future potential benefit, my dosing was something like this:
Friday - 160mg DCK
Saturday - 80mg DCK
Wednesday - 160mg DCK
Friday - bad feelings begin
Fuck knows what happened to Thursday last week but I can only assume it was a total write off. Probably I just passed out and slept through Wednesday after my impromptu AM psychedelic escapade.
I will note that these doses are perhaps a little on the high side, I probably do have a semi-long term baseline dissociative tolerance but I started off with 2 x 20mg doses an hour apart and just quickly felt that dissociative pull that just compels me to go deeper...
Anyway I think I am done with the entire arylcyclohexylamine class now. It's a shame because they are definitely special substances but I don't think I am getting anything good from them anymore - if I really ever did. Good luck to everyone sticking around. Perhaps I did not respect these substances enough.