Urgh, I should probably stop trying to post on Bluelight while under the influence of things. Anyway, my observations with DCK so far are that in lower doses it has a lot of the positive psychological effects of Ketamine, with, as mentioned above, a slightly clearer headspace, and perhaps even more euphoria - whereas K has been euphoric for me before, this is generally not a reliable effect. It is also obviously longer lasting than K and more potent per mg which I also like, as one drawback of Ketamine is the amount of redoses needed and the increasing haziness and nasal blockage over extended binges.
Hole level doses I found to be a little bit more confusing and a little less "deep", by which I mean, my holes revolved around weird scenarios which didn't entirely make sense but which lacked a certain "magical" or otherworldly property which is generally experienced on Ketamine. The emergence from the hole, I assume because of the longer duration, is also significantly more confusing, I found, because for an extended period you end up going through this limbo where you are still kind of somewhere else and imagining you're in this weird nonexistent parallel reality but also beginning to become aware of familiar things again. In my case this manifested in believing that I was being led through this unfamiliar and weird building in the midst of some kind of business meeting with some people I knew and some people I didn't, and after a while I started to notice things in this weird place that looked like other places I knew. Like, "wait a minute... this place looks like my kitchen!" ...then a little while later, holy fuck, this IS my kitchen! Given I started my hole dose just sitting down in another room this probably points to the fact that at sometime during emergence I was just walking around in a hallucinatory daze with no idea what the hell I was doing
I'm pretty sure I might have even been speaking to myself at some point, definitely while I was emerging again there was a point at which I distinctly remember shouting "Hello...?" into my empty flat because I was starting to realise that actually, no, no-one else was with me, I was alone, but I wasn't 100% sure of this so was trying to verify it.
This kind of utter confusion happens sometimes in K-holes as well but, it is more rare that I forget that I'm actually just holing and get completely lost in whatever bizarre scenario I am transported to. Also, the "emergence" usually comes as quite a rapid and quick realisation, which is less confusing that the slow and gradual re-emergence from a deschloro-Hole... to me anyway.
Something else I found which I believe others have noticed as well, is that the physical discoordination is far more long lasting than the psychological effects. In between my low doses and subsequent hole-dose I decided to wander to the nearby shop and pick up a few beers, and as soon as I was outside I suddenly realised how still clumsy and altered I was, fortunately it was night time so there weren't too many people to notice my spacey-ness. I decided shortly after that to head to a friend's to hang out for a few hours and on the way I started to become a bit anxious because I realised that even though mentally, and when I was sitting down or something, I felt relatively normal, I was still physically pretty clumsy and strange. When I got there though my anxiety immediately dissipated and I felt very relaxed and comfortable just hanging out and talking with a close friend for a while. I can imagine however that I would not enjoy the comedow/offset phase in larger groups or with people who I did not know so well.
Also, something which I noticed during the lower doses - I found that sometimes it was like my brain just forgot how to focus my eyes properly. If I looked at something close up after looking at something far away, it would be blurry and just staring at it waiting for my eyes to refocus didn't help. What I found was that I needed to look at something else further away, then try again to look at the closer thing - like the usual autonomic functions that focus the lenses inside my eyeball just couldn't do their job quickly enough. I wasn't overly concerned by this effect but it's not something I've experienced on a dissociative before. Anyone else experience this?
Finally, while overall this was an enjoyable substance, I do not find it to be moreish in the same way as K - while dosing, I did feel an urge to continue, but a day later I have no real desire to do it again. If it was K I would almost definitely have done some more tonight, but I think one evening was enough for now because of the aftereffects and a headspace which feels, somewhat paradoxically, less profound but at points, a little more confusing.
